Gracie's Playground Has Moved

the count down

2006-12-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

i wanted to give fair warning before i make the move.

Gracie's Playground will be relocating to http://graciebaby.wordpress.com or here on january 1, 2007.

please update your links as soon as possible. i will be mirroring both blogs till the end of the year. if you link to me and do not see me linking back to you on the new blog please feel free to shoot me an email to xxgraciebabyxx [at] gmail [dot] com i only want to link to those that still read me, so don't be shy, send me an email or comment.

i thank you all for your support and dedication to this blog and i do hope to see you on the wordpress side.

what can you expect?

well, first off i will only need to moderate a comment from you first and from then on our your comments will post immediately after that first moderation.

my posts will eventually be categorized with counts so you can easily find what you desire.

cleaner template with not so much "stuff".

no need to be a member of that community to leave a comment, just a name and email address (not displayed).

a much more easier approach at responding to each of your comments (when i have the time) by adding my reponse at the end of your comments, as most of you are seeing now over there.

more deviant posts of course!

on a side note if you do crave something even darker (imagine that!) you should check out my other blog: http://deviantdreams.wordpress.com or Deviant Dreams. this blog is a joint effort with V and myself.

*bites*

public conversations

2006-12-13T13:33:00.000-08:00

i had no idea how this dinner was going to go for E and i. our evening was already tense as i had to do a photo shoot earlier with rain and traffic it was almost grim. i was quiet as we waited for our table, we had small talk as i watched people around us. i remember hating the smell of a woman with too much wretched perfume as she attempted to wisp by me.

as we walked deep into the busy and loud dining room i glanced at tables looking at the drunken patrons. we were seated right in the center of all the snobbery. E chose the seat closest to me instead of across from me. as soon as we sat down i felt every bit of tension just go away. my focus was on E as we engaged in conversations about our art and it shifted to sex. it tends to do that in these types of environments. maybe it is some strange fetish we have, "let's taint this fine dining establishment with vile words of lust."

two glasses of wine into me i cannot recall word for word our discussion of sex and sexuality. yet, we spoke in a normal tone, not caring if others heard us. i would giggle as we hushed when a waiter of bus boy came by. i would eye them as we are put on pause to continue our conversation.

"sometimes i look over at you and see you as an object, a toy. sometimes i want you mindless and without clothes."

i would smile at him. i found his objectifying words arousing. we pushed each other to the limits with just how much to reveal to each other.

"you don't know what goes on in my mind," he gloats.

"you don't have a clue E," i respond.

we give each other this glare as to tell one another..."bring it".

i recall telling him about fucking someone to their death. i recall telling him a little bit more about V.

E smiles and tells me that we are both fucked up. he begins to tell me how he would allow me to dom a guy. E would be sitting on the couch as this sub male of mine would walk in and ask for me. "she is in the back." the man would look puzzled and walk to the bedroom. i would do my thing and as soon as the door closes behind him when he leaves, E would come in to the room and dom me.

"i really get off in spanking your ass like a 5 year old, stripping you down and sending you to bed," he tells me with a grin. "i know you like it too."

"i do," as i laugh at his remark. i remember a few nights earlier when i came home grumpy and pouty. he turned me around, hands up against the wall as he ripped my pants down and spanked me. he told me to strip to my panties as he pointed to the bedroom and told me to go to bed. yes, i stomped off to bed and threw the covers over me as he finished doing what he was doing.

before i know it the dining room is growing empty as we are there well past closing. my head is light and before we stand to leave the conversation switches back to life.

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predator and prey

2006-12-06T19:25:00.000-08:00

how did i get here?

i asked myself this in a revelation as E was biting the back of my neck like a dominating animal with his hand between my legs growling at me to masturbate, to come.

it started with this half playing half angered fight between us. he was hovering over me egging me to fight him off of me as he yanked my arms above my head and grabbing at my exposed flesh. i started to fight him to get from beneath him as we hissed at each other. i pushed him back with my legs and turn on to my stomach to get up, but he pushed me down still above me and shoved my panties past my ass as he beat me. i slowly slithered off the futon as he just followed me down to the ground.

his teeth then met the back of my neck as he bit down. he was growling and hissing at me as he shoved his hand between my legs. i was whimpering and grunting as i felt his teeth digging into me. i was grinding against his hand, gripping the carpet with my hands. i was overpowered by him as his grip into my flesh would shift and move as he was trying to find the right spot. i couldn't stop pushing against him, i wanted it and i gave in to his strength. my body started to shake as i tensed up in his grasp, my eyes fluttered and i let out a scream as i came. after my body went limp he let go of my neck and i laid there panting into the ground trying to catch my breath.

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six wicked me's

2006-12-02T14:41:00.000-08:00

the naughty bad bad girl decided to tag me. i explained to her in a comment that in the long span of time i have been blogging, no one has ever "tagged" me. however, i decided to change the name of the game and call it "6 wicked things about me" to make it more "gracie friendly".

be warned, i did not write the following rules. blah blah blah.

THE RULES (modified by grace):
Each player of this game starts with the "6 wicked things about you". People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 wicked things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

- when my patience wears thin and i am dealing with incompetent people i have been known to raise voice just slightly, but it is the tone and the words that spew out that scare people. i do not "bully" these people, nor curse, my mother taught me how to get what i want when i wanted it. to the average stranger i am not approachable at all as i stand in silence soaking in details, listening so when i have to speak i don't sound like a jackass. the look on my face speak volumes if i am not happy.

- as much as i am a masochist i am finding i am equally a sadist. as i am drawn to that sweet poison, i have a poison of my own that i lure my victims in a hypnotic state. i do this with such skill that they ask me for it. now how poisonous is that?

- i won't talk shit behind one's back, i will just tell it to their face. i don't tolerate girly drama bullshit and have been known to be blunt and straight to the point. i find it ridiculous that people in general do not have the gull to say what they really want to say in fear of confrontation or hurting someone's feelings. this world would be a better place if we stopped dancing around issue and just say what we wanted. of course tact has everything to do with expressing one's self. perhaps, that is the downfall.

- greed is characteristic of my nature. i want more and i will do what it takes to get more. i practice patience when needed and can be calculated to achieve more, but mostly is it a cut throat greed that is not always apparent to the naked eye. i only smile as others are willing to give me what i want without force. as a human i do my best to give as mush a i get but i won't lie i am as selfish as the rest.

- on top and in control is my social behaviour. i am calculated and skilled at moving my way to the top of the career ladder amongst other situations. my bedroom submission i like to think is forced on me because that is what i desire. i want that fight of someone putting me beneath them. yet, that opposing person has got to have the talent to do so in a manner that is alluring to me. i will not let a mentally and physically weak man over take me. that is not realistic nor arousing to me. you want me under you, make me.

- i am humble on the outside and vain on the inside. i have many internal demons and conflicts. i have a certain smile on my face when i see things that cater to my ego. yet, i do not take compliments very well at all and prefer not to hear them.

the fatal six that i am going to tag are in alphabetical order so no one gets butt hurt AND those that i felt would actually do it:

bunny (buns)
grace's plaything (v)
my pink taco (rae)
pandora's box (pan)
sexual misadventures (chris)
wood in hand (w)

however, it won't bother me at all if you decide you don't want to participate, it's just a game.

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losing thoughts

2006-11-30T21:27:00.000-08:00

my forehead slowly pressed against the cold edge of the tub. i let the hot water embrace my thighs and waist as i heard the faint sounds of music playing from my computer. the house was silenced by the cold night and i could distinctly see words that rampaged through my brain. they were words and phrases of passion, titillation and even awful attempts to spark me. i pushed the stimulating ones down under the water where i longed to be to let my arousal peak. to be surrounded by those words as i cried and screamed into the water letting those releases be muffled and combined by the watery barrier that moved me. i left the words that drew my breath above the water since they were suffocating enough.

the abruptness of E's return home was like a scratch of a record on the player. i pushed my head upward and starred down at the dark outline of my head. i must have been searching for my train of thought. but it was gone in the depths of the reflection of a parallel world in my head. yet, i kept waiting thinking if i glared hard enough they would return to me with the ease of the water wrapping me.

a song was on his lips as he walked into the bathroom, grabbed the soap and my ass lifted as he ran the soap starting at the crack of my ass in one motion to the crack of my lips. i pushed out of the water more as that glide hit my clit. he traced the crevice of my body hypnotically as i sat there in silence hearing the tune fill my mind. it was not familiar and i am sure he would make certain it would become addicting. i even tried to hear the music on the computer to see if i could force the familiar tune into my head but it was at a loss.

the soap left his hand as his fingers trailed the constant line of the middle of my form. i felt him try to push his soapy finger tip into my ass "i wanna make sure you are clean" would be his response if i had hissed at him. but, i didn't hiss at him as his fingers still trailed my skin and back to my ass again for another push. perhaps it was not giving to his liking so he went down to try the tightness on my body.

"you are tight" he lightly grunts as he tries to push his finger inside of me. i pull more out of the water thinking it could be the angle. "goddamn i cannot even get in there and you are wet" he murmurs. i feel two fingers force there way in and i let out a small moan as makes last attempts to open me to him. he gives up the fight as we both find amusement in this "tightness".

"maybe using that big dildo makes me tighter when i go a few days afterwards," i say with laughter. he joins my laughter and i turn over and my hand goes between my legs as he leaves the bathroom. i felt that hint of the arousal that was lost from earlier.

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flashes

2006-11-28T10:36:00.000-08:00

E and i were out shopping together. i finally came across a pair of knee high boots that we found an excuse to wear for the winter. however, we both knew he wanted me in them with a pair of panties on with nothing else.

while E was at practice i decided to give him a little surprise when he got home. the leather hugged my flesh as the zipper was pulled closed. i had nothing but a pair of black panties and when i walked around i felt so much taller as my ass swished from side to side.

when i heard him fumbling with the lock on the front door i laid on the bed, just the way he liked. on my stomach, with my legs spread in a nice "V" and my head down. if only i could see E's face when he rounded the corner to our bedroom. he let out a moan and grabbed on my ass.

"stand up i wanna see you."

i stand up and walk around for him as he settles on the bed naked, pumping his cock. i bend over in front of him so he could get the view he enjoys.

"come here."

he gets up and stands in front of me and pushes me back on the bed. his hands run down the length of the boots as he pushes my legs apart. he pushes the thin fabric aside and sinks his tongue between my lips. my eyes close and a my breathing grows heavy. i cannot remember the last time he licked me and every time it feels like a dream. his tongue rubbing and nudging my clit as it trails to my ass and back up again.

his fingers move inside me while he licks and i cannot stand it anymore. i come so hard panting and flailing about. it was the perfect act for my raw, swollen cunt.

"come on, i need to eat," he pulls me up.

it is amazing what a man will do when his woman decides to cook for him in boots and panties. in fear of splashing against my stomach and chest he did run off to get me a thin shirt to wear. he cleaned the kitchen while i cooked for him as his eyes would burn into my backside as i cooked.

flash

resting my head on his thigh with the close up of his hand moving up and down on his hardness. i would close my eyes and see V masturbating for me and open them to see E. it felt like i was watching two cocks as i rubbed on my clit. we laid there starring at each other, i had my hands down my thin pants with no panties on and he was completely naked. i love watching a man masturbate and he was looking at the pleasure in my face as i rested my head against his thigh to get a close up.

"can you cum for me?" i murmur.

his hand was pumping up and down and occasionally i would reach in to grab his tight balls. i started to moan as my fingers feverishly rubbed in my silky wetness and i would close my eyes to see V again. i glanced down at E's cock and the milky whiteness started to flow from the head, down his shaft over his gripping fingers. my eyes fluttered as i came with him drenching my pants and the bed beneath me.

we sat there for a moment panting and i smiled, "mmmmm thank you."

it is not often i get to watch him cum like that for me. so, when he does it feels like christmas.

flash

i get so aroused sucking his cock, especially when he is on the phone. feeling his soft cock grow hard in my mouth as i suck him slowly up and down taking the time to enjoy every thick inch of him. pulling off him to lick him like a lolly pop. i start to grind into the bed as i suck him off wishing someone was behind me gripping my hips and planting his cock deep inside of me.

as i suck him i can hear his voice trailing off and losing his train of thought. it was to simply make a dinner reservation. in my devilish mind, i wanted him to fuck up because the thought of him trying to convey a sense of normalism aroused me, especially with my mouth running ever so quietly up and down his cock.

"i have to call my mom now."

i pull off of him and throw the covers over his hardness as i rest my head on his blanketed thigh. we both laugh before she picks up the phone.

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fuck me raw

2006-11-23T12:05:00.000-08:00

E was waiting for me and i was purposefully using V for foreplay. when i got what i needed and informed V of his "use" i had to stop our session to go to E as he kept calling for me. before i said my goodbyes to V he told me he "wished" that E would cum in my cunt and i take a picture of it seeping out of me. that way V could stare at it and lick it clean over and over again.

i slipped into bed squirming and wanted to be fucked, used, molested. it didn't matter what it would be as long as he was invading my cunt. E teased with his hands and mouth but, i wanted his fingers to push aside my black panties and stuff me. i kept whimpering for him to finger fuck me. i wanted him to feel the wetness i came into bed with, the wetness that V caused. i feel his finger slip beneath my panties, "ooh you're wet."

i answer him with, "mmmmmm."

his fingers push inside me, my back arches and his hand comes over my nose and mouth. my cunt floods his fingers and that starts the series of orgasms. he pulls me up and slams me to the edge of the bed draping my legs over the edge. he gets up to stand behind me, rubbing his cock against my sloppy wet cunt. he thrusts inside of me and i close my eyes to feel him move in and out roughly. his hands grab hold of my hips to yank me to and from him. his grip spreads my ass open wide for his view. i get off on this, i know he is looking and he spits right on my asshole and my head flies upward and back. i feel lost in this moment of a desperate grind and i am not not getting enough. he spits again and i can feel it drip towards the union of our bodies.

"do it again," i hiss.

he spits again and i keep losing it. i slam myself against him and i can feel myself coming over and over. without warning he pulls away from me.

"put your feet on the ground, you bitch."

i bend of the bed and the cold head of a dildo pushes into me. i can feel it spreading my cunt open forcefully to take it all. the pain hurts so good.

"damn you whore, your cunt is taking the whole thing. yeah, can you feel that? all the way to the balls."

my body shudders as he rams my cunt, in and out, in and out. i start grunting as my legs shake and i start to wobble on my tippy toes. i feel myself coming on the edge of the bed. small screams fill the room as he yanks out the dildo to replace it with his fingers.

"stretch my cunt," i slur.

i can fill him shoving three fingers, four fingers and his other hand joins him. i start screaming into the afternoon. i cannot get enough of the pain. i come again, push back, drop to my knees and pull his cock into my mouth. i can taste my cunt on his cock as suck him clean. he hardens in my mouth and starts to thrust into my throat.

"get on the ground and masturbate, now!"

my body buzzing, i lay on my stomach and start to masturbate. he sits on the edge of the bed resting his foot on my ass as he jacks off. i close my eyes and focus on what a sight this is, him jacking off looking at me like a piece of his property. i stare down at my breasts pressed against the floor and i pull upward to see their size. i start to grind into the ground, he shifts off the bed and as he starts cumming on my ass as it shoots up my back i immediately come convulsing.

panting limp against the ground all i could think of was taking a picture to show V. but, before i could even suggest it, E was cleaning up my back side smirking that some of his cum got in my hair.

maybe next time.

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rules of attraction

2006-11-18T08:42:00.000-08:00

"you gonna write about this?" he asked me in the dark.

"mmmmhmmmm," as i squirmed into the bed contently.

i sauntered into the hallway and pushed open the jarred bathroom door. he was in the bath tub and i crept into the tub putting one foot on each side of his sitting body. i leaned in and hovered over him starring into his face. his hand grazed flat against my wet cunt.

"go get your toy."

without hesitation i pull out of the tub and get my smaller dildo. i hand it to him and sit on the edge of the tub starring at him as he positions it at the opening to my slit. he pushes it inside of me and i gasp. my hand supports me on the wall as my other grips the edge of the tub. immediately i moan hungrily and i close my eyes as i try to dig my nails into the wall and tub. i feel my body tensing and clenching to the fucking dildo. my mind flashes to you and i can feel my cunt tightening and my fingers tensing against the wall. i start thinking about your cock pounding into me, giving you that chance to fuck my cunt.

i start panting and both my hands grip at the tub. i am on the edge, my legs spread and i can't get enough of you. i can feel him shift between my legs and i feel a mouth on my nipple. i feel like i could slip off the tub as my body jerks and tenses up. your cock leaves me and i feel fingers slip inside searching for that spot. my body thrusts forward and i can feel myself coming on his finger.

"get in the tub, on your stomach, hurry up bitch."

i get in the water and lay down. i keep my head up and my ass sticking upward.

"get all the way down in the water and i feel his hand push my head into the water and press it against the bottom of the tub. i feel his fingers force their way inside of my cunt. i see a sea of black hair floating around my face as i want to scream, but can't. i try to push upward and his hand keeps me down. my hands reach up out of the tub against the wall. i push up again and he gives. i sputter for breath like a fish out of water. my hair clinging to my face and back. i don't get much relief as he slams me back down again as my head smacks my hands that are gripping the edge of the tub. my hands reach upward again as he holds me down fingering my cunt making me come over and over while being under water. i can feel my body fighting for survival and knocking bottles off the tub as i try to push upward. he keeps me down longer this time. i try to scream under the water as the bubbles float upward to the surface. i can feel my cunt clenching his fingers as my hands start to reach for air and finally he lets me up.

"turn over whore."

i turn over on to my back as i sit up.

"get down!"

his hand comes over my face and pushes me back into the water. i can feel the dildo fucking me as my leg drapes out of the tub. i can him through the water, "spread your legs you fucking whore. you like that you fucking whore?" my muscles are burning as i try to push upward as i start to come again. he pulls the cock out and rubs the wetness flat with the palm of his hand over and over as my body jerks to the touch. he lets me up for air as i gasp and heave. he hands me a towel and leaves me to get out. i push my hand between my legs to feel my wetness in the water. i start to stand up and my legs shake and i have to stable myself with the wall so that i don't fall. i wrap the towel around my wet body and he comes back to get me as i barely make it out of the tub standing.

i curled up into bed with a great satisfaction of being with someone that accepts my demented sexuality and does his best to give me what i need.

he gets me

2006-11-15T15:27:00.000-08:00

as i read his words line after line there is this shock value and arousal mixed into one. i start to squirm and i can feel the wetness building between my legs. my heart starts to race and my breathing grows heavy. my eyes dart around wondering if anyone can tell. i shift repeatedly in my chair and my cunt pulses as i move. just writing about it now is making me twitch in my chair.

i can't think straight and he writes, "slip your hand down over your cunt. tell me what you feel." i hesitate as i try to do this casually in the office. at this point i don't feel rational and my hand sneaks down between my legs.

"tell me"

i let out a small breath and type, "hot"

"and?"

i know what he wants to hear, he wants to know if he did his job, "i'm wet"

that's what he wanted to hear from me, "wanna cum?"

just seeing that makes me ache for it. i cannot remember the last time i had an orgasm with intensity (yeah it was the last post, that is sad). i haven't been in this position with him in a while now, i haven't been the slut for him as he is for me. he has the upper hand today.

i respond, "yess i do".

he smirks and knows i am in a position of absolute need. he put me here and i can just imagine the gloating on his face with this hard on pressed tightly in his jeans. i wonder if he is grabbing at it as he gets me breathless.

"sneak into the bathroom, slip your jeans and panties over your hips. push your fingers from your belly button...all the way down to that dripping cunt. brace yourself with one hand on the tile and coat your clit with your juice. cum for me grace, c'mon baby."

my breath quivers and i start to grow urgent and furious with him. being vulnerable with him seems almost shameful to me, but i push that aside.

"goddamn you," i type.

"c'mon, betcha'd cum quick, wouldn't take much."

i keep resisting and holding on to some form of stature.

"c'mon baby, cum for me."

"goddamn you, stop saying that."

"cum for me grace, get your camera, wanna see your fingers on your clit...dripping...hand on the tile, feet spread. pushing. tension. quickness. slippery. cum for me, grace. do it."

my body starts to shake. i keep hesitating and fighting the urge. i want to, fuck i want to, i am on this verge of jumping up and heading straight to the bathroom to get off.

"do it baby, cum for me grace, say my name when you do."

"shit," i type.

"uh huh, you wanna, you need to, cum for me."

i sit there with my chest heaving, cunt throbbing and my eyes reading his lines over and over. there is this long pause and i finally push my finger towards the "k" button.

"mmmm, i gotta go soon baby, but i'm gonna be there...inside you, whispering to you, cum for me, grace, cum for me."

with that i get up and head to bathroom without hesitation and a dire need to come. i shut the door quietly and click it locked, i don't feel nervous as i have done this before. instead it is this urgency to come, this build up on the edge of spilling over. my middle finger glides across my slit and i can feel a good wetness rub over my hardened clit. i rub and rub feeling my arousal starting to peak as i lean against the wall. i feel like a sex addict junkie with my hand down my undone pants, inside my panties, my body shaking, breathing ragged,my eyes flutter and roll as i come long and hard. the last ounce of breath releases, "goddamn you V" and i suck in a breath of air to start to calm down.

i sit there quietly panting and i try to stand on my own two feet and i fall back against the wall. my fingers soaked in pure lust and i bring my middle finger to my mouth. cleaning my finger clean knowing as V reads this i am sure i have caused him a few jerks in his seat.

i pull myself together and check to make sure i leave the bathroom a more content version of myself instead of displaying the slut that is not that deep inside of me. i am buzzing back to my desk with a slight grin on my face. if the others only knew and maybe they do.

he leaves me lines waiting as he knew i gave in to my arousal...

"hope you licked your fingers clean. email me, wanna hear, wanna see. fuuuuuuuck, baby what you do to me."

i read his words and crack a grin out the corner of my mouth.

thank you baby.

come with rage

2006-11-10T10:31:00.000-08:00

i was waiting for him in the bed when he came home. he had left before i woke up. he crawled into bed naked and started to play with my nipples. he pulled me next to him and pushed his tongue in my mouth. we were hungry for each other as we moaned into each other's mouth. he yanked me on top of him as i rubbed my pantied coated cunt over his hard on. my dark brown hair draped down to his face with the loose curls as a shield from the surrounding light.

he pulled me down and my hand went for his hardness. i felt his hand grab my hair and thrust me downward towards his cock. i devour his cock in my mouth as he pushes me up and down on him. he lets me run my mouth up and down on him before he yanks me off and pushes me back on top of him.

"ride me."

i grab his cock and sink my cunt down on him. i wince a little as he pushes inside of me. it doesn't hurt as bad as the other night but i feel a pain when i take all of him inside of me. i push up and down on him clenching around him. i can feel sweat starting to lightly coat my back as i work his cock in and out of me.

my hands moved to his shoulder area as i concentrated on fucking him. images and words were flashing in my mind like a crazy mental strobe light. i couldn't focus on anything that was going to mentally stimulate me. it felt as if i had too much stimulation coursing through my brain. the flashes seemed to be from the last week moving at the pace i was fucking E. i could feel my tension, frustration and rage mounting. my nails started to dig into E's flesh. i glanced down at him as he was wincing in silence. my nails dug in harder and harder. my lip started to curl as my teeth clenched i was angry and i was fucking it out of me and into E like some strange hand off. i felt my orgasm hitting slow and hard. my eyes closed and fluttered. the sweat was more prominent. i growled with a rage as i came as all ten finger nails were embedded into E's flesh without a hiss on his part.

i couldn't fuck anymore as i fell off of him. he wanted me to get back on top as he tried to pull my dead weight on top of him. i physically was incapable. he got up and rounded to my side of the bed and i don't even know where the latex glove came from but two of his latex fingers were deep inside of me as i groaned into another helpless orgasm. i felt myself coming hard and wet on him as he covered my nose and mouth. perhaps it was some sort of punishment for using him as a metaphoric punching bag that i fucked with fury. his hands pulled out as i came hard soaking the bed beneath me.

i was literally spent and fell asleep.

taut and tight

2006-11-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

as he was reading aloud passages from the latest book (the 48 laws of power), i had realized how much of it i had already known. some of it through experience and some of it through conversations with my mother. you see in our family and culture...the women are more dominant and strong. that doesn't mean my beta husband is my lesser. it just means we butt heads a lot, it is very strange that we manage to make it work. the alpha and the beta, the aquarius and the capricorn, the dragon and the tiger.

he closed the book and walked around to my side of the bed. pulled up my right arm above my head really firm. he slapped my right tit and i moaned with the sting.

"you like that?"

"mmmhmmm."

he grabbed my other arm and joined it with the other one. i gripped his interlaced fingers as he repeatedly slapped each tit making sure to sting at the nipple. i squirmed to each hit and he pulled me on to my side to let gravity pull my breasts heavy. he continued the hits as his mouth kissed up the side of my flesh and biting at the back flesh he could grab. i hissed as i never knew what would be a kiss or bite. he pulled me completely on my stomach to have at my ass. his hits are now harder and i yelp and cry out in pain. i feel like a child trying to escape the hurt, yet i am compelled to stay there.

"get on your knees and put your hands behind your head."

he stares at me with a fixation and bends down to grab my collar. i still have this inner joy when he decides to wrap that around my neck. it is quite a decision to leave my neck open for choking and strangulation or to be collared. i pull my hair up into my hands on the back of my head. he wraps it around and i bend forward so he can fasten it. he attaches the leash and i stare as his face. he is in such a deep concentration and i wonder what he thinks about when he collars me up like a pet or a toy.

i feel a yank as he tugs me to my feet on the ground. i follow up into the closet as he picks out his clothes for today. he yanks me back to the side of the bed and stares at me as he sits at the edge. he pulls me over his open legs and grabs my left leg up over his lap. my face in the bed as he still has a firm grip on my collar he starts to beat my ass. i shriek in pain as my ass starts to burn and i know it is very red. i feel his finger graze right underneath my panties by my slit. i am sure he was checking to see if i was wet, i was. he forcefully shoves the fabric to the side and sinks in two fingers. i clamp around them grinding against him. my moans grow louder and i can feel him trying to loosen up my tight cunt. i keep gripping him as i feel him hit my g spot and i come hard against him.

"get on the bed."

i crawl up on all fours. he unfastens the collar, "shake that ass." i start to sway from side to side. i can hear him walk out of the room, the faucet turns on and seconds later he returns to wash up my wet cunt.

"damn baby you are hella tight," he tells me as he cleans me. he almost says this out of concern.

"i know."

my fetish

2006-11-07T09:24:00.000-08:00

i wanted to take a moment to explain the evolution of my love for breathplay. the main reason i wanted to write this is for those that are afraid of it or interested in it and i just want to put some caution especially for those that are going to try it.

the definition of "breathplay" is

A form of play where the lack of oxygen is used for stimulation. Sometimes done alone. This form of play is extremely dangerous. Especially when done alone. Many have died in this form of play.

a more in depth description, i found on Unfettered.com:

Many people are afraid that by giving information they will encourage someone to play this way and if that person ends up dead they will feel responsible. This strikes me a lot like the argument of those that say if teenagers are kept in the dark about sex they won't do it. The documentation of erotic asphyxiation goes back to the 1600's at the very least. It was used back then as a form of therapy for those suffering from impotence.

In BDSM, breathplay refers to the practice of restricting or controlling the flow of air and thus oxygen into the body of one or more participants also known as asphyxiation. The rush that is a result of the lack of oxygen in the brain is the kick that people into this kind of edge play are after. The myth that a hanged man is coming at the moment of his death is common. The adrenalin rush from the experience of real life danger and the dramatic notion of dying in someone's hands adds to this. The techniques used to achieve this vary from scene to scene and thus the level of risk involved also varies. However most acknowledge that under most circumstances this practice is firmly within the definition of edge play. Asphyxiation can occur as a result of restricting ones airflow by a rubber mask, a plastic bag, or by choking.

Especially autoerotic breathplay can be considered as very dangerous and every year people die because of it. The often-underestimated risk of temporary paralysis as a result of lack of oxygen in the brain is sadly a reason why people can't get up and die of asphyxiation. Another risk is fractures in the trachea because of the applied pressure. If one is careful that is actually the least risk. But alas too frequently people accidentally die from the fact that our body tries to compensate for the lack of oxygen in the brain and this can cause the heart to flutter or because of the direct pressure on the nerves in the carotids that can cause the heart to stop. Apparently it is not easy to resuscitate these arrhythmias. This can occur as quickly as 10 seconds. (Above from: www.dictionaryofeverything.com)

LET'S DISCUSS Strangling This usually involves compression of the carotid arteries to prevent blood from reaching the brain. Suffocation This involves somehow reducing the level of oxygen in the air available to breathe (usually gradually). Breath play The process of making someone more conscious of, directing, or using breath in play. Role-playing/Psychological The safest way (Making your partner aware of their breathing), verbal domination of breathing Practical Gas Mask, Scuba, straw or snorkel etc

WHY Bondage, oxygen deprivation effects (a lower amount of oxygen available [hypoxia] or no oxygen [anoxia] you start to feel a little dream like and light headed), fear & risk, submission, masochism, trust, dominance, sadism.

RISKS Physiological, emotional, legal, possible long term health risks, common Injuries (Statistically, those that die of this play are usually playing alone and using a mechanism that doesn't protect them in case of fainting.)

i started to have this fascination when i used to grab E's hand and place i over my mouth. i am sure the first few times i did it, it did not set well with him and seemed unsettling. i would wait till things were rather heavy and primal and he would willingly do it while i held my own breath.

over time he would push his hand up closer to my nostrils so it would hinder my breathing. slowly a finger would come over and press my nose down. i believe just within the last year i would put his whole hand over my nose and mouth. he seemed more comfortable with it by then. i am also sure a conversation came up about what i wanted from him or what i was starting to get in to.

i recall an afternoon after we had a discussion about my joy of breathplay, i laid on my back with my head on stomach in black panties. we spent a good chunk of that afternoon with me purely getting off on him just covering my nose and mouth repeatedly. i got so wet from him doing this and i remember coming over and over.

the escalation after "the talk" was pretty rapid. E was eager to please and experiment with this new sensation. i believe he wrapped his hand around my throat next and i believe this started after i pierced my nose and he was unable to cover my nose with his hand during the healing. that was a rush and a different feeling. i could still slightly breathe, but he was cutting off the blood to the brain. i am not sure when or how the scarves came into play. i just remember they were a great addition to the play. i remember bruising on my neck in the beginning and having to call in sick from work to "hide" the obvious. however, bruising has been next to null lately, at least on the neck.

just recently we have experimented with plastic wrap and wet paper towels. you may think the wet paper towels is silly, but you lay there and try to breathe with one over your face. use the extra long, heavy duty type. it is a trip to try to breathe while aroused and getting a decent lung of air with a wet paper towel sinking into your nose and open mouth.

everyone barks about trust when doing any type of pain or bondage play. of course there is trust, i have known E since 1992. we have an interaction that i feel is perfect for exploring sexually. he knows that when he is choking or strangling me if my hand taps his arm he lets up. we have a safe word, but as you can tell it is hard to use during breathplay. he can tell when i have had enough when i slap him or gasp under his hand for air. i trust him when he whispers to me, "a little more", because it just gets me off that he pushes the limits with it.

i have "passed" out from breathplay and i have written about it. it is not something we try to achieve each session. however, it was different when you are waking up with a man cumming on your what appears to be lifeless body.

by all means i am not saying for everyone to run off and try this at home. nor, am i going to be the expert on this subject. i am glad to answer any questions and can go without negative remarks. i like what i like and we all have our "somethins". this is mine amongst some others. please be safe in all that you do and make sure you research what you are doing when you try something new.

come hard

2006-11-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

"ahhh," i murmured from my lips when E walked into the room.

"what's wrong?"

"my neck is kinked up."

"you want a massage?"

i nod my head yes as i grab at the back of my neck.

"turn over."

i roll on to my stomach as he positions his leg right between my legs as he smacks my ass hard and loud. i don't grind up against his leg, i am trying to rub my ass against his crotch. he keeps taking hard hits in the same spot and i yelp out. he makes a deep laugh and hiss.

my eyes close as he lazily rubs my neck and back. i keep grinding against his crotch. i felt so starved for a physical sexual interaction with him. i haven't had an intense orgasm in quite some time. needless to say a cock in my cunt.

grabbing me to the side his lips press to mine with a need. his hands grope at my breasts.

"should i take it easy on that cunt?"

"a little," i moan. "i want you to fuck me though." i grab at his cock in his thin pants.

he pulls them down so i can see his hard on and pushes between my legs. his hand pulls my thong to the side as he rubs his cock against my cunt. i feel everything, his head rubbing up and down my slit, him adjusting to push inside my not so ready cunt. i yelp in pain as he sinks slowly inside of me. the pain is intense as he moves in and out. i groan with pain, it feels like i am a virgin all over again as it hurts as he digs deep inside of me. i want him to stop, yet i want him to keep hurting me. when he pulls out to tell me to turn over i am still groaning as my cunt aches.

"you ok?"

"yeah, just feels like you fucking me like i am a virgin." i groan at him.

"i tell ya what, i will set up the table and i will give you an oil massage, ok?"

"ok."

i can hear him putting the table together and i walk out there and lay down stomach first on the massage table.

snap.

snap.

that would be the latex gloves fitting on to his large hands. i love the smell and feel of them. he runs his oil coated, gloved hands over my body. this is one thing E enjoys immensely is my body covered in baby oil and the light bouncing off of my skin. i feel him rubbing out the kinds in my body and i turn my head as he comes within view. i see his cock hard and i watch him stroke it. i start to squirm on the table. he brings his cock to my mouth and he lets me suck on it a few minutes with his hands still rubbing my skin. he pulls out and leaves the living room.

i lay there dozing off to the sound of fall outside.

"put your head up."

i raise my head and see a black scarf come in and out of view as he wraps it around my neck. i start to get excited.

"come on whore, rub it out, come hard."

i squeeze my legs tightly together and push my hand down between them. i start to grind and he starts to squeeze. i feel this rush and with in an instant i start to come very long and intensely. my body arches upward so i can see his face as i moan out loud with my mind and body racing.

"again," he demands and squeezes.

i am barely coming down from my orgasm as i move right into a second one. a throaty groan pushes from my core as i grip the edge of the table. my head falls to the pillow as my body heaves to regain calmness. the scarf still wrapped tightly around my neck he lets me lay there a few minutes and yanks again.

"come hard cunt." i feel his spit hit my neck and back.

my body shudders and shakes. i come harder then the previous orgasms.

"oh god," i sputter from my wet lips.

i turn over onto my back. my chest still heaving from the orgasm. he pulls and tugs at my nipples. i spread my legs to the width of the table. his hand ventures between them teasing me. he tests the waters by sinking a finger in. i give out a hungry moan. he pulls out and positions two fingers inside my eyes flutter as his other hand covers my nose and mouth. i feel my cunt flood around his two fingers. i start to gasp under his hand and he pulls up enough for me to grab a couple of breaths and he pushes his hand back down. i clench his fingers as i come and my eyes roll back into my head.

damn it has been much too long. the weekend is not over yet, it has only begun for us.

the tease, the wait

2006-11-04T19:12:00.000-08:00

first off i jinxed myself talking about how good my cable internet service was. i spent half the day without it today. dammit what the hell are people supposed to do without internet? *growling*

so i watch the tivo to catch up on the long list of shows. E comes home, phone glued to his ear. i decided after an hour of his pacing to pull off my jeans and go in the kitchen into plain view. he grabs at my ass as he walks by like i knew he would. i go back to the bedroom and plop back on my stomach on the bed. he comes back in a few moments later to grab at my ass some more.

since there is only so much battery juice in his phone it finally cuts off.

(about time)

i take a bath, shave up and put on a thong. we are both a little tired. well, i did not have a good excuse for being tired since he had to work today. i laid in the bed on my stomach and he pushes my blanket away to expose my ass. he growls and i grin. i love it when he is too sleepy to fuck. it makes me feel wanted as we both grind into the bed a little as we fall asleep.

tonight...i get a cock in me.

i cannot fucking wait.

cunts, pussies & fuck holes...oh my!

2006-11-02T22:13:00.000-08:00

i won't apologize for not posting. i have not been 100% lately and therefore i really do not have anything worth posting and i am not going to post just to post. however, there were some highlights from today that i thought i would share. i should be back on track for the weekend. i will say i am DYING to get fucked and i cannot even tell you when the last time i had a real cock inside of me. huh V?

W had asked me about what kind of pussies i liked. i told him it was hard to really explain so i pointed him here. i explained to him i was drooling over this picture for quite some time. i also noted Stroker's blog had appealing shots. what can i say...i know what i like.

i was also chatting with Rae from My Pink Taco. we were chatting about the kind of women we wanted. we came to the same conclusion, we wanted clones of ourselves. because dammit we are two bad ass bitches that want to fuck ourselves. is that so wrong? no.

then later on i was helping an internet friend of mine. we were discussing his relationship issues and i had said some decent things to him. so he tells me:

"see. sometimes i think you're just another girl who's only good for a hole and a cum dump and then you say such delightful things that im reminded why i like you so much, you're a hole, cumdump, AND can reason occasionally"

well i responded with, "i should fucking slap you!"

so you can tell where there conversation went from there. oh? fine..

he tells me,"you should, but then i beat back, but you'd enjoy that too"

me," yeah i would"

him," besides, i didnt say anything you dont like hearing. you know you're a slut and a cumdump and you love being both"

make sense now? keep in mind some interactions i have i take with a grain of salt and HE is a classic example of someone i don't take offense to his words. what good is it being uptight? none. besides, he is youngin. he has some life to get under his belt besides sluts.

since i was at work W did email me some links to some delicious pussies. then he sends another one with pics....mmmmm. wanna see them? of course you do.

one

two

three

without hesitation

2006-10-28T19:52:00.000-07:00

E was on the phone with C. it seems to be an almost nightly ritual as they are collaborating on an intense project. i do not mind as i go about my business in silence. i was laying in the tub on my stomach with my head on the edge, thinking. i watched him walk by the open doorway out the corner of my lidded eye. he had stopped to walk in, sat on the edge of the tub, grabbed the soap and started to soap my exposed, wet flesh.

his hands glided as i could hear him talking but i wasn't paying attention. i was more focused on his hand traveling the curve of my back, over my ass, in between my cheeks and downward. my ass moved upward to allow him more access to my cunt. my eyes closed to feel the sensation as his fingers aimlessly traveled the crevices of my ass and cunt. he did stop for a few seconds on my throbbing clit. i gasped slightly at the sensation. he was still entrenched in his conversation. he swept the water upward washing away the soap. i settled back in my watery bed as he got up to pace around the dark house with the phone attached to his ear.

the towel wrapped around me i headed for the bed with the mail. i laid on my stomach as i opened and reviewed the junk and the bills. the towel was slowly unwrapping from me as i laid there. E's voice would echo through the house as the only noise in the late of the night. his voice would near as he would come in to grab a pinch or handful of my ass. he took a couple of swipes at my ass as he continued to talk. i watched him peering over my mail as he opened my underwear drawer, pulled out a g-string and laid it by my arm on the bed. he walked out of the room and i got up to put on the g-string and settled back on to the bed.

as i laid there it was not long before E's voice came back to the bedroom. he grabbed more ass and took another swipe. he paced back out of the room and then i heard the slight noise of latex being fitted on his hand. i put the mail aside and put my head on my pillow as he forced my legs apart and shoved in three fingers. i gasped into the pillow as my cunt clenched around his fingers so tightly. now, i could hear it all as he worked his fingers in and out of me. i gripped the pillow as i could hear C's faint voice talking and then E responding without skipping a word or saying "uh". i was so impressed with how his voice did not change a pitch as he roughly molested my cunt. i felt myself coming around his invasive fingers and i felt this pain of him forcing his way into my tightness. i only clenched tighter around him to feel that pain.

my breath was heavy in the pillow as i tried to silence the moans that were escaping from my mouth. i moaned into the pillow as E found my g spot. i was so focused on how normal he sounded as he was talking on the phone. i was getting off on the fact that i was being fingered and C was there. it almost felt like a sneaky exhibitionism. hearing C was as if he was in the room with us and E's attitude about was nonchalant and i was drenching my panties at this thought. my chest was heaving and i kept coming around his fingers. i was clenching him i barely let him leave my cunt.

E got up and pulled off the glove with a snap and went about his pacing around the house. i laid there late into the early morning catching my breath and revelling in this sensation that had me high. i pulled off my g string and smirked at my wet cum coating the thin material. i love it.

running from the lull

2006-10-25T22:59:00.000-07:00

i was leaning back in the tub as E checked my cunt over. he was shaving and trimming me up to his liking. i was enjoying his meticulous attention to my cunt. when he was done with this new ritual i got out to get ready.

laying on my stomach on the bed he decided he wanted to lotion up my feet. he would mindlessly rake his nails up and down my calves. for as sweet as he can be, he can be equally sadistic.

E gets up and leaves me laying in a half awake state. i hear the snap of gloves around his hands and i feel my cunt twitch. i can't stop thinking about the words i had read earlier. i still cannot get them out of my head now. these phrases that had been pieced together in a way that stick inside me with such dominance.

two fingers glide inside of me as it feels so wonderful yet so sterile. it must be the thought of being molested or raped that gets me off, it doesn't feel like him. he smacks my ass with his gloved hand and i yelp. my groans flooding the room. the freshly lubed plug that pushes inside of me and aching my tight ass for several seconds.

"oooo you are so tight. i need to work you over to get you back to being a filthy tramp."

i answer him with more groans. the pain subsides and the scarf loops around my neck. he tightens it as pushes my ass upward and forces my legs apart with his own. he pushes his cock in and he again comments on my tightness as he yanks the scarf. he tugs and pulls causing me to cough, yet he does not miss a beat in his fucking and he even ensures the plug does not slide out. he lets up on the scarf and starts to pound into me relentlessly. i feel my mind being wiped clean with his cock fucking me. he is forcing the focus back on him as it should be. i feel myself coming on his cock and i grip the foot board of the bed. i am pinned to the bed as he drives his cock in and out of me with a rage i have not felt in some time.

he pulls out of me and walks around in front of me. he grabs the scarf and yanks as i look at his cock covered in my come. it looked beautiful to me as my eyes fluttered. i can only imagine my eyes were starting to bulge as he let me free. he stood there and let me lick myself from his cock. as i have been hungering for a cunt,this was as close as i was going to get to one. sucking him quietly in and out, in and out. licking away the evidence of his invasion on my cunt.

the other day i was sitting in the tub and he came into the bathroom twisting a T-pin between his fingers. i stared intently as it twirled around his finger and thumb. i felt almost hypnotized by it. it was so shiny, long and brand new. a part of me wanted it to play with and the other wanted it pricking my skin. for some reason the other morning i glanced in my make up box and saw one sitting in there. not sure if i aimlessly put it in there. perhaps i am waiting for the day i reach in there and let it bite me.

i needed a rush this evening after a long day of being on edge of coming in my office chair. i put two more holes in my ears. a "quick" fix if you will. i think i need another tattoo or piercing.

i need something.

words, words, words....

2006-10-24T15:57:00.000-07:00

i have read some well put together words this morning and they have roamed ever so seductively in my mind today. like the subject matter, it is this "i shouldn't" think like that now, yet i cannot stray away from it. they are fluid as i find myself wondering back to read my favorite parts over and over. you would think i would grow tired of it like a broken record, but no.

there is something to be said about words that can fuck your mind and it all seemed so effortless on his part. so, i sit here with a wicked grin in wonderment...does he know he has done this to another human? i am certain i am not the only one.

however, those words will follow me home as i soak in a hot tub, shave, put lotion on and let E have his way with me or in his words "...work your tramp ass tonight." as E does what he loves to do best, well, this man's words will cause the orgasm that will be released from my body tonight. his words have haunted me all day, it is the least i can give back to him in gratitude for keeping me in a constant state of arousal.

thank you.

long overdue

2006-10-19T15:00:00.000-07:00

certainly it is my fault for choosing to not come for several days. at this point it is no laughing matter. yet, i don't want to cave in now just for a quick fix that is utterly unsatisfactory. as i drove in i felt the rage of my need building and it poured out of my hands as i gripped my steering wheel, clenching my teeth and slightly snarling.

the look on my face today is "i need to fuck" and every man that walks by me must sense it as i feel they know. they know i need to fuck so bad that i will fuck anything and anyone right now. it must be oozing from my pores. i feel naked as i walk in public as if the male species can sniff me out at a single glance. i hide behind my sunglasses and look off in hopes he can not tell. but, they can. they all do.

there is so much build that when i do finally come it has to be grand and worth this fucking wait. my cunt twitches right now at the thought of just coming over and over because i am banking it for the next "sexual suicide". last night after chatting with V i was so wet and yes i touched it as i slipped into the hot bath water.

today NC taunts me with words and i am so on edge everything sounds delicious to me. so, we conspire and we will see what comes of it.

don't pity me, it is my twisted sexuality that puts me in these "states". this waiting, this torture, this torment results in a beautiful, intense, well worth the wait orgasm. it is that silver lining to my treacherous path.

damn.

i have been feeling on this edge of coming for the past couple of days. i only wish that i could just come on pure will alone. i teeter on this sensation, that feeling of just a little more would push you into this orgasmic abyss.

just a little more...

a little more.

i keep squirming in my chair, shaking my legs hoping that some kind of movement will give me a pleasure that will hold me over. i am this enraged, ravenous being that will stop at nothing tonight to get what i crave...what i need.

the dark scribe speaks

2006-10-17T22:11:00.000-07:00

i have a lovely review of my blog over at adult blog hub. i would suggest if you do have a blog and would like more exposure, then go over there and sign up.

thank you ABH for your review!

yes, i changed my damned template again. i am never happy and i cannot find one that suits me. so be prepared for things to get rocked over here and i would like to consider this blog "under construction" till i can find a template i like. so it is safe to say that this blog is not finished...never.

also, i am making considerations in just moving over to wordpress.com if blogger does not offer up the new version soon. i have already mirrored my blog over there slowly. that also is a work in progress. i am a woman and therefore i cannot make up my mind. what else is new?

oh you want something sexual?

hmmm if you even got this far...

well i had a hot conversation with V this morning. i still have not had an orgasm yet today. i was in such a state that my whole body buzzed on the edge of just exploding. my skin tingled along with my clit as he spilled words in that tiny box on my screen. a new man NC did not help matters as the afternoon neared. he speaks of being a cam slut for me and that did spark my interests. so many available cocks and never enough time.

so, i am going to stop now so that i can have that much needed orgasm.

nourish the monster

2006-10-16T22:34:00.000-07:00

i had spent the evening reading, getting aroused and hungry for an orgasm to my sore cunt. it was the decision to rest my soreness or make it even worse with pain. i chose the latter.

what pushed me over that edge was that little "V" that popped into my chat window. knowing that i would be conversing with him sent a tingle to my clit. it was only a few lines of banter that had me needing to come, not just wanting...needing.

my hand travels down my skin to the thin fabric that kept me from touching my own wetness. i push it aside with my finger tips and let out a calming breath and a smile that i was indeed wet and it was a good wet too. i dipped my fingertips in my slippery wetness that pooled at my sore opening and slide them upwards to my hardening clit.

words were popping on the screen as quick as my mind races. there is this twisted connection as if he were reading my mind. tapping into the darkness that plagues my insides.

"hanging by the neck..."

"letting the blood trickle downward..."

"a river of blood dripping on to my waiting flesh..."

my heart is racing, my breath is ragged and my legs spread. small gasps that led to squeaky moans were filling the room. my fingers were rubbing as my body jolted at the words and my actions. i kept dipping my middle finger inside my cunt reveling in the perfect wetness that this interaction had caused. the pain was only an accent to the steady climb i was making.

i couldn't type with one hand any longer as my eyes darted to the screen following the words like steps to the top. it could be strange for some to be getting off on mere words, but this was my playground and words were my tools and toys for this romp. my mind hungers for this as my body is the reaction to this mental fuck. i start to buck in my chair as my clit is hard with this desire that i want to milk from it. my eyes flutter and i come on my chair panting with such intensity my legs quiver and shake.i feel this calmness paint over me from head to toe. i feel like all is right for now. that small feeding to the dark part will hold me over for now.

a new cock

2006-10-15T13:20:00.000-07:00

i was out with my gay friend B. i love him so much just because we can openly talk about our sex lives without the other judging. also, we have the most raunchiest fun together.

on a whim we decide to go into the city and he is going to give me the tour of the castro since i have only driven through the area. he mentions to me about the sex shops and my one track mind wants to get a new toy from one of them.

we walk around people watching and whispering filth back and forth to each other. he takes me into a shop and i gawk at the massive sized dildos and forearmed toys that hang from the wall. my eyes are big and in awe. B giggles at the look on my face and escorts me around the store.

i make a selection...some gay porn star's cock replica. i was going to texture and size...yeah this cock had size and girth. much bigger then my largest dildo. B recommends some amazing lube and i make the purchase. the cashier grabs a paper bag and i smirk. great i am going to be lugging this box with a huge cock around the castro in a damn paper bag without handles. the box reaches within two inches of the top of the bag. we walk around the castro with this cock shaking in my bag. i am in this state of "i wanna go home and play". however, B decides he wants to go in and out of shops. we laugh and giggle with my "huge" purchase and checking in our bags was a riot. i didn't care.

as we walked back to the car in the darkness of night B decides to pull the box out of my bag, hold it over his head and run up the middle of the street as if he had the key to "gaydom". it was hilarious.

the anticipation of this cock was agonizing. i get home, chat with V for foreplay, take a hot bath, oil and lotion up my skin and just wait. i fell asleep waiting for E as i had warned him of my purchase earlier as i was driving home.

E awakes me with two fingers shoved up in my cunt and a scarf yanking my neck. i slowly wake up as he violates my cunt and sending my eyes flutter with need. he hisses words of demeaning filth at me. i cannot tell if he is playing or enraged.

"you can't wait to have that big cock in ya huh you tramp?" he growls at me.

i whimper in response.

"get on the edge of the bed you fucking slut," he barks.

i move my cunt to the edge of the bed with my ass in the air and my face in the bed. he pushes his cock in my drenched cunt. i push back against him as i am just cock starving for him. feeling his cock stretch my long overdue tightness. he pulls out and pushes the head of the new cock to my cunt. i tense up as i was not expecting him to push it into to me so soon. he forces this huge cock inside of my cunt. i feel this searing pain as i am stretched to accommodate and it is not just pleasure it is this mix of pleasure and pain as i sit here now with my cunt sore from this invasion.

"you are such a whore, it takes both of my hands to put this huge cock in your cunt," he spits at me.

i feel his wet saliva hit my back. my head jerks up as i moan with this cock pushing in and out of me. he spits on my asshole and i groan. i feel the new lube glide on my tight ass down to my opened cunt. the lube is light and i cannot tell it is on my skin.

"yeah," he groans from clenched teeth. "now i can work that slutty cunt of yours you fucking whore."

he pushes in two fingers into my ass as his hand fucks my pulled apart cunt. this new cock feels like two cocks in me going in and out. i could only imagine how wonderful it looks in my cunt.

"turn over!"

i turn over and he continues to work the cock in my cunt. his hand covers my nose and mouth as i come so hard around the cock.

moments later i sit in the tub soaking my sore and swollen cunt. my hands feel how swollen my lips are and i feel the wetness still seeping from my hole. i never felt my cunt so swollen before. E brings in the massive cock for me wash off. i cannot believe the size of this thing. after E left the bathroom, out of curiosity i open my mouth to see if i could even suck a cock of this size. my mouth stretches around the head and i barely get the tip in my mouth. i cannot believe someone's cock is that big out there. i always thought size was wonderful, but this size..well that would take a lot of getting used to.

masturbation

2006-10-13T17:20:00.000-07:00

this week has been long with busy schedules and a woman's curse. however, it did not help my sex drive as i have been masturbating the last three days. for one day this week i thought i was actually becoming normal in my sexual needs. however, that is wrong as my cunt aches with this constant throbbing pulse to be fucked, stuffed, stretched and beaten.

all day i keep thinking about how fucking great it would feel to have my biggest dildo shoved up inside of me. i keep picturing it in the bag hanging from the door in my bathroom. starring at it laying at the top of the bag. then my mind wanders to going to the store and buying a new toy just to keep me awake for the drive home this evening as i think about the fun things to be had with two large cocks.

i need to be fucked so bad that i have been wet all day. at this very moment i don't care if the cock is real or not. i just need my cunt filled. i need to drape my legs wide open and play with my wetness...see how long i can hold out before i pull out that cock and press the head against the wet, hot opening of my needy cunt. feel the coolness and feel it grow warm against my heat. then without much more hesitation, shove it inside of me and hear the sloshing of a cock and my cunt.

in and out.

in and out.

as the moans build in my throat like a damn waiting to explode. the gasping for air, the squeaking of my moans trying to escape. grabbing my nipples like pull toys seeing if i tug hard enough i will come. the irrational thoughts that will course through my brain ensuring that i come and i come hard.

in and out.

in and out.

clenching around the pumping cock as my forearm burns with pain as my cunt demands more and more. tugging those nipples till i wince and snarl. pumping that cock till it hurts the back of my cunt.

in and out.

in and out.

come on! my legs getting wider as my cunt gets wetter. my forearms sears with pain and my teeth are clenched as i give and take to myself. giving the pain i need and the pleasure i hunger for. almost there.

in and out.

in and out.

a flutter, a wave, the groans that escape and my cunt releases its own cum as i pant freshly fucked and wipe the sweat of lust from my face.

goddamn, i need to drench a towel or two.

back to the basics

2006-10-09T20:13:00.000-07:00

it was morning and i was moody.

the night before, it was extremely late when E decided to get into bed next to me. i told him i wanted to take a bath before doing anything. i soak, bathe and shave. perhaps my preparing went longer then E could keep his eyes open. by the time i was dried off and in the bedroom, well he was snoring. this did not help considering he kept coming into the room while i was watching tv to taunt me and let me grind my cunt against his forearm and breaking away to say, "S is here."

dammit.

E walks in the computer room and i am snappy. he grabs my naked nipples and pulls me upward.

"get in the room," he tells me.

my cunt twitches.

i lay on my back as he pushes his tongue into my cunt. i gasp at the sensation. it has been a while since he licked me. i laid there quiet with several gasps. i started to squirm as his persistent tongue works it way around and around my clit. when the squirming becomes too much for E to control...

"turn over and stick that ass in the air," he barks.

he leaves the room momentarily and i sit there in anticipation.

SNAP goes the latex gloves and my cunt twitches.

DRIP goes the lube on my asshole and it glides down to my cunt as it warms up against my skin. i feel his coated finger tips rub the lube around my tight ass and he pushes in his finger. i groan.

i feel him start to push in my plug.

"loosen up that ass!" he snarls. "your ass is so fucking tight, it's time to loosen up that ass and pussy like the slut you are. you have gone too long without being used. time to go back to basics." he pushes in the plug with some working in. "mmmmm you are so tight. i should keep you like this, let you go without cock for a while till you beg for it, like a cock hungry whore."

i grip the sheets and he pushes his cock into my cunt. he loops a scarf around my head to my neck. as he fucks me, he chokes me and i can feel my cunt tighten so tight around his pounding cock. the intensity is far more then usual. i constantly get so near to passing out as i slam my hand in the bed like a boxing referee counting up. he is pushing the limits more and more as he lets go and resumes his actions.

his cock pulls out of me and i feel the cool smooth head of my big dildo press inside of me. i groan as my cunt stretches around it welcoming it like a long lost friend.

goddamn.

"i am gonna cut you and drink the blood," he hisses as he pinches the bottom of my ass. "right here, i wanna cut you."

"nooo, noo," i plea and whimper.

he pulls out the plug and pushes in a dildo into my ass. i groan as he pushes his cock back into my cunt.

so fucking full.

i feel like i am getting double fucked as he pushes his cock in, the dildo pushes against his stomach and deep inside of me. i loudly groaning as he fucks me.

"you are a tramp! a cunt!" he growls.

i tighten around him the more he talks.

"turn over!" he snaps.

i turn over and he shoves the dildo back in my cunt with his free hand covering my nose and mouth. my hand reaches his wrist as a sign to let up.

"no, no, not yet," he slithers.

my chest starts to jerk and my eyes flutter. when i think he won't let me free he lifts his hand. i come so hard as my body jerks and shakes. the dildos slither out of my holes. i lay there panting.

later that night i had cut myself while opening a package. i hissed with pain as E turned to the commotion. he squeezed my finger to let the bright red blood bead up on my finger tip. i almost went in to lick the wound and he beat me to it sucking the blood from my cut. he then fatherly fussed over cleaning it and bandaging it.

i wonder...

mounting tension

2006-10-07T23:16:00.000-07:00

just writing that title made me focus on "mounting" and just how badly i am aching for that as we speak.

as life and sleep tends to get in the way i was passed out by the time E came to bed. this morning as we are getting ready to play our role as godparent's at a baptism, the tension was thick as i was getting ready. E would grab and spank me any time i was within reach.

we get in the car and he grabs at my thigh. he tells me he likes the way i look in my black, tight pants. it is going to be a long day.

i dread going to catholic churches. i dread the exhibitionism of rituals. i did not like the fact that my nephew was being dipped in water with other children and their germs. i was fuming before the "ceremony" started. but, i won't get into religion on here. i am not an atheist either.

during this long drawn out process E would make quick grabs at my ass in the church. it felt deliciously evil and i did not shove him away as probably most women would have done.

i think the "your going to hell" part came in when E leans in and whispers to me as they are filling small bottles of "holy water" for each child...

"we should take that bottle of water, go to san francisco, get various churches to bless it and give you an enema with it."

i looked at him with a look and said, "you realize now that you cannot even say anything about what i have been harping about all morning, you have crossed the line with that one."

i won't lie, the thought was delicious. i guess when i am fiending anything sexual sounds good to me.

as we drove to the reception E grabbed right between my legs. i moved into his hand as we drove by trucks and SUV's. i almost felt a little nervous that people could see in to the car. i pushed his hand away and he just forced it back and made mention he did not care.

during the reception he whispers to me, "we need to go home because i want to fuck you right here, right now."

i looked at him with a smile. that thought did not sound bad at all.

...like i said life gets in the way of hedonists.

i assure you, i will have something to write about before this weekend is over and i guarantee it will be grand. because, i can only hear "i wanna fuck you" only so many times before i grab him and tell him to "fuck me then".

i crave

2006-10-06T23:34:00.000-07:00

i crave pain

i need that battle

the both of us snarling

being overpowered

succumbing to him

letting my skin sear

send my heart thumping

come on

do it

now...

waiting for E to come home. i am so fucking starving for an interaction with him that my cunt sits here tingling with anticipation. i will get up from this chair, strip and step into a tub of hot water. how long will it take before my hand travels to my cunt?

yeah.

it is not the same as his touch. no matter how rough i think i can get with myself, it is not even close. his fingers longer, thicker and have the better advantage then my own.

so hungry.

if i fuck my own cunt, well it is not the same as a real cock. no matter how "real textured" any dildo can be, nothing beats the real thing throbbing and hammering into a needy cunt. my toy doesn't cum...does yours?

come on E.

i want his kiss that steals a piece of my soul. his tongue digging deep inside me as he fucks my mouth sending the sensation straight to my cunt. or when he licks between my fingers that emulates my cunt. goddamn, that is lightening to my clit. he knows it too as i jolt with pleasure and try to pull my hand away from his grip.

he has me.

so i will bathe, put on a pair of panties he so very much adores, lay in bed and wait ever so patiently for him to do what he does best. over a decade together just makes it that much better. these kinds of nights are years in the making. fuck that "new" feeling, get so in tune with each other that a stare makes your cunt quiver and that kiss...mmmm....that kiss makes you melt into him.

rub it for me

2006-10-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

laying on my stomach in bed with one eye open i stare over at E. it seems when he is relaxed in bed he gets a wonderful hard on. i can see him stroking it slowly under the tented covers.

"you're hard, i wanna see," i whisper.

he pushes the covers away so i could watch him slowly stroke his hardness up and down. i would take short grabs at it, rub it up and down a few times and let him proceed. i could not stop touching it as i would grab it after he would make several strokes. i love seeing and feeling a hard cock. the more he played with his cock the harder and bigger it got. my cunt twitched at the sight.

"mmmmm you're so hard," i purr as i take another grab.

i let go and watch him.

"grab it and squeeze it," i requested.

he grabbed it and squeezed it for me. i reached over and grabbed it and put my finger nails to his hard on.

"hey, hey be careful," he lowly growls.

i smirk a little and grind into the bed a little.

"suck my cock," he whispers as he strokes almost ready to greet my mouth with his cock.

"i can't baby, i'm so tired," i respond quietly.

he thrusts upward a little as he continued to stroke and squeeze. i watched him lazily play with himself. i would have joined or engaged him more hadn't i been so exhausted from my day. i never get tired of watching a man stroke his cock.

i fell asleep with a vision of a hard cock that i should not have let gone to waste.

shame on me.

*bite*

lazy monday

2006-10-03T15:51:00.000-07:00

"i love days like this, being naked and lazy," i say with a huge grin as E stands between my legs that are wrapped around him.

"well we need to get up and get some things done." he says with some authority as he breaks away from my hold.

"mmmmm i don't wanna get up, don't wanna get dressed," as i stretch on the bed eyeing him.

i stand up and bend over the bed shaking my naked ass slowly. he comes up behind me and presses his cock against my cunt.

"i thought you said you did not want me touching your cunt," he said.

"mmmmm but you can stick it in me," i coo.

he starts to push inside of me and i groan into the bed. it has been days since i had anything inside of me. it felt so good and much overdue. a scarf loops around my head as he starts to choke me as he quickens his pace fucking me. i grip the sheets as the it gets tighter and tighter around my neck making me dizzy as he fucks me. i feel my cunt growing wetter and wetter around him.

tighter.

tighter.

i start to sway, i fall to the left as i trail downward off the bed with E catching me and guiding me to the ground as i lay there for a moment coming back.

slowly i move and make my way to the bathroom where E had the water running in the tub. we chat about sex and how fucked up we are. i lay on my stomach in the tub and i am certain i said something smart to him. he hovers outside of the tub and pushes my head slowly towards the water while his other hand finds my cunt.

"spread your legs!" he snarls as my head comes back up for air.

he barely lets me regain my breath as he shoves me further in the water. i push up against his hand as he keeps me under while shoving in three fingers into my cunt. my hands reach upward and he lets me up gasping for air. he pushes me back down again and my head hits the edge of the tub going down. he presses my head against the bottom of the tub as i feel an orgasm shuddering through me underneath the water. i push upward again and he lets me up for a brief moment. again he pushes my head to the bottom of the tub as my cunt contracts and bucks against his fingers.

coming under water is intense.

after he let me up and let me finish washing myself my hand darted to my cunt. i could feel the wetness seeping out of my cunt under the water. i would rub it away and a moment later it would come back. needless to say that aroused me, even with a sore spot on my head today.

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those that are not registered with blogger are able to leave comments again. i am not sure how that setting was changed, must have been when i was making adjustments for my second blog.

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the bits, the pieces

2006-10-02T10:40:00.000-07:00

saturday morning at around 5am, E decided to say goodbye to me by tying me up with my scarves. at first in my sleepy state i almost objected, but was more asleep then aware to stop him. i entertained this thought for him.

BEEP

i slowly come out of my slumber with a text message from E that reads:

"Rape you at gun point. Then sale your ass."

i started to grind the bed at the image that flooded my mind.

saturday afternoon i feel this urgent need to masturbate. i thumb through one of E's magazines starring at large tits and sucking mouths around a cock and i come three times. shit, i think i pulled a groin muscle.

when E gets home i am wearing a thong that is a little tighter then it should be as every movement pressed every so tautly against my clit.

"come here, i want your ass here," as he points to his chest. "want you to sleep here this afternoon."

i crawl reverse against his laying body with my ass and cunt in his immediate view. i put a pillow across the gap between his feet and laid on him. he spanked me randomly and i faded into a sleep. he would pull and probe my cunt and my ass would sway up and down as i tugged the material of my thong against my clit. i fell asleep on him.

sunday morning i am ironing my jeans in my black bra and panties. he finds me in the living room and slaps my ass and grabs at my tits.

"let me look at you", he insists.

i give him a sidewards glance.

"you are beautiful", as he stares intently.

i smile and steam my wrinkled jean hem.

he smacks my ass, grabs at my tits and turns my head to kiss him.

"men would dream of being me right now", he gloats.

"why?" i question.

"because what man can just smack their girl's ass, grab at their tits and kiss them like that without complaining?" he answers.

i smile and go back to my ironing.

as i finish this now E comes in grabs my head back.

"what are you doing?" he hisses.

"finishing a blog entry," i squeak as he yanks my arms up, slaps my tit and grabs my neck with a squeeze.

"i thought you said you weren't going to work on your blog?" he snarls as his grip gets tighter around my neck.

he leaves the grip around my upward arms to wrap both hands around my neck. my eyes start to roll as my head gets lighter and lighter.

"almost done," i barely let out.

"hurry up, gonna put you to sleep when you are done", he lets out as he releases his grip around my neck.

so...

have a good day kids.

the fucking beauty

2006-09-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

i crawled into bed assisting E with his masturbatory needs without reciprocation. it had been a long week.

i lay on my stomach and he glides a hand up my thighs, over my round ass up the slope of my back and lets it glide back to a light smack to my ass. he does gentle smacks as i lay there still falling asleep. his hand parts my legs slightly as his fingers push into my ass and downward over the thin fabric parting my lips. i still lay still on the edge of dreamland and consciousness. the hits get harder, yet i am drifting away. it was nearing midnight on the clock at my last glance.

the bed shifts as he hovers over me, pushing my legs apart with his own. his hands pull up my hips and i am unsure if this is really happening. his hand pushes my thong to the side as i feel him push inside of my cunt. i am not wet as he pushes in me deeper and deeper. i grip the edge of the bed as i now realize it is not a dream. he pushes every inch in deep as i grunt into the bed. he pulls in and out slowly out of now slick cunt.

pulling out he motions for me to turn over as he pushes back inside me. i run both my hands up his back and gripping his broad shoulders. this embrace feels so right at this moment. my lips graze his shoulder with small bites. my nails don't hurt, they just gently rake up and down. the touch of his skin against mine feels so missed.

he shifts upward pulling out again, grabbing my thong downward leaving my left thigh attached as he grips the fabric in his fist like a handle. he pulls my leg upward as he thrusts back in. my moans are conscious and louder. i pull my right leg upward as i can feel his cock hitting my g-spot at this angle. he pulls my right leg on to his should and i grunt feeling his cock, hard and hitting. i grab at him as he pushes in and out. i feel this flood of shudder branch from my cunt and throughout my body.

his cock pulls out of my now soaking cunt as he pushes it down to my tight ass. he starts to push as my leg presses hard into his shoulder. he tries to push his cock in and my body tenses at the thought and the pain shoots upward as i shudder at his advances. he backs out leaving that for another night.

i lay there sated and pressed up against E. the clock glowed after 1 am. it's nice to be woken up with a cock in your cunt even when the sun has not risen yet.

welcome home grace

2006-09-28T11:16:00.000-07:00

"slap me in the face, come on!" he snarled at me.

i am shaking, after a beating like the one i just had, i am not sure if he was just testing me or egging me. i am on my knees on the ground as he is sitting at the edge of the bed towering over me like a villan. my ass is red and beaten not to mention the rough ass fucking he bestowed upon me. i was mistaken to think he would be nice to me after being gone several days. i knew deep down that is exactly what i wanted from him. i was aching for a beating and pain.

"come on! slap me!" he said through clenched teeth.

my lips started to snarl. i felt rage building inside of me. i clenched my teeth, i felt it in my arm, going down to my hand. i had tried every time he repeated those words to work the gull to smack him. finally i caved in...

SMACK!

i slapped him with all my might. i could see a slight surprise in his face, but i don't smile at my actions. i was afraid of what i just had done to him. he has never voluntarily let me slap him like that.

tonight he pushed me to bite him, to dig my nails into his flesh. i felt like it was christmas. i am shocked he endured such pain from me. i could hear him hiss in pain as my long nails dug into his flesh, waiting for the moment i would pierce his skin.

"bite me, harder, harder!" were the words he barked at me.

everything was heightened for me. feeling him dig his fingers deep in my cunt forcing me to be wet around him as i groaned with this longing lust. moaning into long, deep kisses and hearing him return his lust in my mouth. i wanted him to devour me and drain me of everything. it had been days and i was starving. from his hand wrapped around my neck, to covering my nose and mouth and the scarf yanking my veins tight...was what made my cunt drenched. i had missed him and he knew what i needed. not what i wanted...but what i needed.

he pinned me down so i could not block his hits. my ass seared with heat as he relentlessly beat me. he knew that is what i wanted and a punishment i was willing to take. i was bent over his leg and straddling him reverse with my ass in his face. i grinded against his hard cock as he beat me reddening one cheek at a time.

as he fucked me from behind bent over the bed i came repeatedly on his cock. he threw filth in the air causing me to come over and over. i love hearing him talk filth to me. as he gripped my hips thrusting into me, i could feel every inch of him going in and out of me. he talked of fucking my ass because i was a "fucking whore". he pushed his cock in me and thrusted without ease. i jerked back and up as he pushed in and out of me. as the pain of his vile entrance into my ass subsided i started to groan and i could feel my wetness dripped down my leg. he pulled out to lube his cock spitting remarks that my ass was too tight to fuck. he shoves himself back in me fucking my ass in and out.

after that fatal slap i submissively laid down on the ground afraid of the wrath i had ignited.

"is that all you got grace? huh?" he yelled. "come on grace, the all powerful grace, that all that is in you?"

he shoved a dildo in my cunt as i moaned surrendering to him. i never wanted to overpower him, that is not my role with him. i do like fighting with him and making him force me to submit. it is a challenge that i like to lose. in the end i am not a true submissive. i am a masochist and the bruises that riddle my arms and body this morning are proof of that, along with the red scratch marks down the center of my back.

"get on all fours in front of the mirror."

i hesitate and he grabbed my hair to quicken my pace. he pushes the dildo back inside me as he hisses more filth at me.

"you are a fucking whore grace and that is okay. it's okay to be a slut that loves to fuck." he explained in a calm demeanor. "look yourself straight in the eye grace and say it's okay to love to fuck....say it!"

i can hardly look at myself. he grabbed up the front of my hair to display my face. i hate seeing myself in such a state. i starred into my own eyes and saw him behind me like an owner as i saw the lust visible on my face. is this the face he enjoyed seeing every session? the lust, the pain, the forced submission?

"it's...okay to love to fuck," i barely make out.

"say you are a whore who loves to fuck!" he bellowed.

"i-i'm...a...whore...who loves...to fuck," i stammered.

with that said, he let me go and released me from his control.

"welcome home grace" is all that pierced my mind. a welcome home indeed.

folsom street fair

2006-09-25T14:30:00.000-07:00

E and i were on our way to the city yesterday to have brunch with friends. on route to our destination E's friend calls and mentions the folsom street fair is going on that day. i was glad i had my camera packed. i have heard a little about this fair and i was excited to go. when i was first told about it, E just said it was a "bondage" fair. i did not realize what it was till we had met up with our friends.

my mind start racing about what i would see. leather, paddles, corsets, flesh, bondage and maybe blood? who knows. i wasn't all prepared to attend such an event as i was just wearing normal street clothes. as we neared folsom street i had realized that a majority of the attendees to this kind of event would be "bears", "gays" and "trannies". there were plenty of looky loos and i looked like one of them, as well as plenty of photographers. you can tell who were being the pervs and who were being the professional pervs.

i walked around and started snapping shots. it was a rainbow of people with a majority of gay men. i felt a little jaded about the "spanking booths". whips for "sensations" are not my thing and granted they will leave a red mark on your body, it seemed cheesey to me. it seemed more for show then what it should be about...pain. however, as we were leaving we did see down a side street a man whipping a girl bent against a wall. by this time i was getting severly under the weather and was in no mood to take a picture. i am kicking myself now for not getting the energy to do it. what really put E off to the whole fair was a cirlcle of older gay men practically naked jacking each other off. he said that is going to be burned into his mind now. he felt that was a bit too much for public view. i really did not have an opinion about it. it didn't bother me, i was just hoping for better looking men. *wink*

i am sick, so i won't be posting for a few days. i will be lurking here and there.

what is the folsom street fair?:

Folsom Street Events is a nonprofit 501(c)(3) organization serving the adult San Francisco alternative communities. Through the production of street fairs, Folsom Street Events promotes diversity within the leather/alternative lifestyle, highlighting entertainment, service and vendors. Proceeds from the production of the fairs are distributed to organizations which promote a sense of community, diversity, cooperation, health and human services.

Our mission is to create world-class volunteer driven leather events, providing the adult alternative lifestyle community safe venues for self-expression, emphasizing freedom, fun and frolic, while raising money to benefit San Francisco charities.

the confessing slut

2006-09-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

he came up behind me and grabbed both nipples between my thin shirt and pinched.

"ohhh yeahhh," he whispers with surprise.

what he didn't know is i just came so hard. my cunt was wet, i was flush and it was because of V and a phone call with daddy. perhaps once he realized it was awkward for me to just have hardened nipples he pulled me out of my chair with his fingers firmly pinching me. i started whining.

"up...up..up...you bitch," he snarls.

he directs me in the bedroom. he yanks my sweats down and pulls up my shirt, stripping me down. i stared at him with a little girl face. i didn't say anything to him. he pulled out a chair, sat down and tugged me over his lap. he peeled my panties down just pass my round ass and started spanking me. i could feel my cunt growing wetter as his finger tips would graze my swollen lips while his free hand gripped and groped my hanging breasts.

"did you talk to your daddy today?" he growls.

"yes," i squeak.

"what did you talk about?" he fumes.

i am silent...do i confess to him that we had talked about him fucking my ass, cunt and mouth? do i share that i wanted his cum inside of my body and dripping out of each hole? shit.

"what...did...you...talk...about?" he explodes. "that's it, get up! bend over the bed!"

i start whimpering as he gets up to leave and comes back. i can hear the buckles ringing. i start to squirm, i don't like the belt. there is no hesitation as his belt greets my ass with a loud smack. my ass starts to burn more then usual as this beating is the real deal. i keep pushing my hand back crying out loud and yelling with each smack. he would throw my arm away to clear a spot to hit me. i fell to the floor crying and realized the carpet against my searing ass did not help. he spread my legs and started to hit my cunt. i tried to close them crying.

"spread your legs!" he grunts.

he pushed my legs open with his free hand and hit me as i winced.

"get up you whore!"

i get up as he bends me over his knee and goes back to his hand.

"what did you talk about?" he persists.

"him...fucking...my...ass."

"oh, is that so?" he snarls. "this is my fucking ass." as he punctuates his point with a hit for each word. "i own this ass. no one is going to fuck this ass but me. do you understand you fucking slut?"

"yes!" i cry out.

"what else did you talk about?" he hisses.

"him cumming in my mouth," i blurt out.

"you fucking whore, you are slut you know that?" as he beats my ass with more conviction.

each hit makes me cry out with pain. i try to resist and he over takes me effortlessly.

"no one touches you but me you fucking whore. i am your daddy you got that?" he painfully lectures.

i am whimpering, my throat is hoarse from my screaming, yelping and whining. my eyes are wet with pain. i feel his fingers push into my drenched cunt. i start groaning as i clench around him. i want him. he doesn't give me remote satisfaction as he pushes me to the ground on my stomach.

i feel a scarf wrap around my ankles being tied tightly together. another one on my thighs forcing them squeezed. i am on the verge of coming. he yanks my arms behind my back as he ties my wrists together. i lay there about to come. he proceeds to beat my ass more as i am unable to get in the way of his administrations. i yell more. he shoves a towel in my mouth.

"come you bitch," he snarls.

my eyes flutter. this wave crashes between my legs and i convulse with this flood of pleasure the voids all of the pain i am feeling. i groan in my throat. my rigid body melts into the ground.

i could have said the safe word...it was a beating i was craving and confessing that i have always longed to do with him.

a cunt that won't sleep

2006-09-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

"come here i want to sleep with my hand on your pussy," he whispers to me in the dark.

i move over to him as i lay on my stomach, wearing red, satin, string panties. his hand traces my pussy up and down. his hand rubs my silky ass. he keeps rubbing ever so lightly on my cunt. i lay still trying to fall asleep and be a "good girl". i did not want to get aroused, not this late.

he pushes one side of my panties over to expose my left cheek. he lightly spanks it and i slightly pushed upwards slowly getting aroused. his hand pushes my panties back in place and he rubbed my ass more and migrated upward towards my back and it starts to rest on my back.

i let out a quiet groan, "i thought you were going to sleep with you hand on my pussy?"

"it's a bad angle baby, you need to turn over."

i turn over and position myself for him to allow access to my cunt. the thought of him sleeping with his hand on my cunt was alluring to me. i loved that thought. he pushes his hand underneath my panties and touches my cunt. i start to squirm to his touch. his hand travels up to my breasts as he plays with my nipples. he shifts to put his mouth on my hard right nipple as he sucks. i let out a breath. i wish he had not done that. i knew that was his cue to turn over and he does. i turn over on to my stomach to try to fall asleep now that he had my cunt warming and getting wet.

he must have read this is a bad sign. it was late and i knew better then to push for his physical attention. he gets up out of bed.

"no, it's okay", i plea.

he turns me over, sinks his fingers inside my cunt. i start hungrily groaning. i feel as if i am melting into the bed.

"get up," he commands me.

i bend over the bed on my tippy toes with my face in the mattress. he pulls my panties down a little past my ass. my legs are slightly parted. i feel a smooth, cold dildo push into my cunt. more groaning from my throat. i grip the sheets.

"yeah that feels good huh?"

"did you talk to your slut today?" he asks.

"yes," i groan.

"what did you talk about?" he asks.

my mind starts racing and darting back at our conversation. what do i tell him? i remember one thing in particular.

he asks me a second time. "what...did...you...talk about?" his tone getting very stern.

"he wanted to cum" i blurt out.

"did you let him?" he asks.

"no," i groan.

"that's not nice, how would you like it if i didn't let you come?" he barks at me. "i should just not let you come huh?" as he pulls out the dildo.

i stand there quiet and shaking. i stand there waiting for several seconds. i cannot believe he is reacting in such a way to my online interactions. he shoves the dildo back in fucking me harder. i start yelping as the dildo hits the back of me over and over.

"you are such a fucking whore. you need to be punished."

he takes his belt and starts smacking my ass with it while leaving the dildo inside of my cunt. he would then lay the belt on my back and fuck me with the dildo more. then he would grab the belt to leave more welts on my ass. i yelp and my right leg bends up reacting to the pain. he stops when my hand starts to reach back attempting to soothe the pain. his fingers dive into my wet cunt, with his other hand he pushes my ass part to stare at my asshole and i came on his fingers. he takes his cunt drenched fingers and starts to push them straight into my asshole...all the way in.

"yeah you got three fingers in your asshole, how does that feel?" he hisses.

i groan. i can feel him pushing inside of me deep. slowly fucking my ass that is only lubed with my cunt juices.

"i like stretching that little ass of yours," he gloats.

slowly he pulls out of my ass. he gets up to get a wash cloth.

"spread them legs and shake that ass," he barks before leaving the room.

i stand there swaying my ass from side to side. he comes back in and wipes me up.

"come here," he whispers.

i stand in front of him timid. he takes me and bends me over his knee and face down on the bed. he beats each cheek red and to the point where i am yelping at each hit. he stops, pulls me up, bends me towards him with my hands resting on his thighs and he kisses me. his mouth moves to my neck as he bites around and down to my shoulders. i get so weak i fall to my knees in front of him. he grabs my face and pushes it upward so he can stare into my eyes. he pushes my face from side to side like he is inspecting me. he then pushes me into his stomach and i hug him.

i do not remember falling asleep. i just remember waking up this morning moist and without panties.

the man on the other end

2006-09-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

it all started with a phone call that woke me from a sleep. i had anticipated this call all day friday. timing and opportunity delayed it to saturday. i was immediately aroused as i heard his voice filling my ear. my hand darted into my panties and my hips started to grind against my finger tips. i did not say much as my breath was growing heavy. his voice was delicious filling my ear. i closed my eyes and listened to him.

i was nervous but after several minutes it all went away as the wetter i got. he whispered naughty filth in my ear. i did what he asked. i responded with moans, gasps and panting. i cannot count the number of times i came, all i know is it was frequent as his voice just pulled those orgasms effortlessly from my body. it went from rubbing, to shoving fingers in my soaked cunt, licking my fingers to plugging my ass and fucking my cunt with my dildo.

he let me rest after the first call. he had mentioned he wanted to call me while my cleaning lady was present. i laid on the wet bed catching my breath and freshly high from what had happened.

a few hours passed and my phone rings. i see it is him. i immediately lay back on the bed with a dry towel beneath me. my hand darts right for my already moist cunt. i answer the phone and as soon as i hear the first word out of his mouth i am already breathing heavily. i cannot get enough of his voice in my ear. there is more pain and torment during this call. tugging and twisting my nipples till they ached and i whined in pain. fucking my ass with a dildo and stuffing my cunt with two. i remember gushing several times as he came twice during our call. i remember when he was trying to say goodbye to me i kept coming over and over. he stayed on the line each time letting me come for him. all the while i am trying to keep quiet as my cleaning lady is busy with the house.

when we finally said our goodbyes my phone clocked a two hour session. i was shocked. i was even more shocked at the huge wet spot on my bed. i ripped everything off the bed and shoved it into the washer before E got home. in total i soaked two pairs of panties and my yoga pants for this man. i felt amazing.

later on i found out E was going out for the night and my addicted need ducked out of his outing in hopes that i could have another phone session. the anticipation had me wet and when he called me for a third time my hand was already between my legs. i felt this session i was much louder and the orgasms more intense as i felt so sore from a previous nipple punishment, my cunt aching from being pounded and stuffed, and my ass tender from a self fucking. i did not care about the soreness i had. i wanted him in my ear and i wanted to come for him. i love hearing him cum on the phone. my phone clocked an hour during that session. i felt so exhausted and my body ached.

his voice makes me so fucking wet and aroused. i cannot get enough of him. now, i am trying to find times to hear him again...the man's voice who makes me come so hard.

he is a gem and my "daddy" gem. like i have stated each gem serves a purpose and role. he plays his role ever so well. i could not pass up leaving this kind of experience he had given me off the blog. i even asked him to help me out with his recount below:

--daddy's take--

mmm you were somewhat shy.. quiet.. we kissed and cuddled. touched. had you touch for me. feel me as I talked to you.. softly. slowly..playing.. touching your breasts, your nipples, your pussy. then I believe I told you it was time. time for you to plug your ass for me. fuck your ass some for me. and rub that clit till you came.. over and over.. then had you fuck that cunt . pinch your nipples... lots of cumming.. pushing you.. you begin to beg for more.. for daddy. daddy's cock.. mmm god i love hearing you.

2nd call i asked if you had been cumming and playing yourself and you said yes.. and i wanting you to cum again i believe. and you rub your cunt.. then i said you were a naughty girl and need to be punished. god I love punishing you. more playing , teasing, and then punishing you. your ass, your cunt, your tits... making you scream. making you feel the pain rock your body. making your body sting and ache.. ordering you. screaming you to obey. to do as you were told. to do as daddy wants. you begging daddy for more. moaning and cumming over and over ..

that's definitely not verbatim but what I can recall.. you made me high all day.. loved it.

the sadist and the masochist

2006-09-18T11:53:00.000-07:00

i was laying there on my stomach with my legs and arms tied, high heels put on my feet and a g-string. i was already wet. he had left the house to go to the store. i was nervous. he never left me tied up alone in the house.

earlier we had been talking about another man. he was talking with one and mentioned him staying several days with us. the talk being whispered in my ear at the grocery store was so arousing. it spurred so many images in my mind. later that evening he came into the room as i was talking off toe nail polish, talking about how he wanted to find someone for tonight. i did not say much and he grabbed the cotton ball from my hand and decided to take off the polish for me.

he was gone for such a long time. my mind started to wonder if he was meeting someone and bringing them home. there would be no way for me to cover myself up nor close the door. if he brought in a stranger he would see me right in the hallway as he came in. i tried to see if i could break loose of my restraints, no such luck.

i hear the door open and i hold my breath....please don't be two bodies walking through the door. i only see him walk in with a bag. i let out a breath. safe for now.

he walked about the house hardly checking on me or giving a glance through the doorway. i was stuck laying there with the tv glowing in the room. he came in and teased me, spanking me ass, pinching and pulling my flesh. when his finger tips glided across my cunt lips i would try to push into his touch. i wanted him to feel my wetness, my heat. i wanted him to be so entertained by how wet i was.

"you look so fucking good right now," he whispers. "you should just give in and be my slave. not my wife, not my girl...just be my slave. stop trying to change between these roles and just give in."

my mind was racing. i was not a mindless slave. i am sure he likes that thought of me being on. i could not give up total control to him. i wanted to do what i wanted. i like having sluts and i like playing aggressive. i could not trade in my everyday persona to be this utterly submissive being. i am not a true submissive and he realized i am just a masochist.

the more pain he pushed on to my body, the wetter my cunt got. the longer he withheld the air from my lungs, the wetter my cunt got. the more he tightened his grip around my neck, the wetter my cunt got. the harder he fucked my cunt...well you get the picture.

as he tormented my ass and my cunt, my grip around my restraints would tighten as i pulled and held hard to them. i grunted, moaned and yelped as he pushed in a dildo into my ass and fucked my cunt raw with his fingers and my biggest dildo. i felt the bed drenching beneath me.

i felt the restraints freeing me. i thought we were done. i had squirmed my way towards the edge of the bed and his cock within inches of my mouth. i reach up and suck his cock like it was the only thing to keep me alive. he lowered himself down into my mouth as i sucked and tongues his cock with eagerness. i needed it, fucking wanted it so bad. he continued his mission to work my cunt raw.

"come ride this cock," he said as he laid down beside me.

i starred at his hard cock, it looked so huge. i crawled up and pushed him inside of me. i sat upward and placed both my hands on his chest. as i rode him my mind wondered to thoughts of you. my nails started digging into his flesh. deeper and deeper and i was waiting for him to tell me to stop, but i kept clawing like a cat, deep. my lip started to snarl as i thought of you. i was almost to the verge of coming...so close. like a snap it was gone. (yeah baby, i know you are enjoying that thoroughly and even laughing.) i was pissed and slid off. it happens from time to time.

"there are plenty of ways to make you come," as he dove in three fingers deep inside of me.

my legs spread for him as i pushed up a leg on to his bent knee giving him as much leverage into my cunt as i could. his tongue and mouth tugged at my nipples and i squirmed as i gushed on his fucking fingers.

he got up and grabbed a chair and sat by the bed. he started to cover my nose and mouth.

"look at me," he says softly.

i stare him in the eyes. my eyes start to flutter as my body starts to panic for air.

"yeahhh lemme see those whites," he coos.

i start to grunt under his mouth and he lets up. i heave for breath. my cunt soaking the bed more. his fingers still inside of me. my hand goes down to my clit as he finger fucks me.

"okay baby, stay calm, don't panic, i wanna push it a little further," he whispers. "look at me."

his latex coated hand comes down over my nose and mouth again. just hearing him say those words made my cunt contract and gush more. i tried to be calm as i was locked on his eyes. my eyes flutter again, my fingers frantically rubbing my clit. my chest starts to heave.

"just a little baby, a little bit more, stay calm," he chants.

my arms start to move about and he lets me up. my cunt clenches around his fingers. he moves back down again to cut off my air. his other hand moves to his cock and i watch him masturbate as he keeps pushing the limits of my breath play. my fingers are rubbing my clit as i watch him stroke his hardness. i am lost and aroused at his actions and my eyes flutter again and i want to keep them open to watch him jack off. i cannot keep them open and they roll back.

"yesss baby, stay calm," he chants again.

"a little more" is what repeats in my mind. i start to panic and he lets up. i feel groggy and yet aroused.

the last push was the vibrator on my clit as he covered my nose and mouth again. i rubbed and rubbed as i started to come under his hand. right as i was to peak he lets his hand free and i moan and groan to an intense orgasm.

i will say having his interactions helps after four hours of masturbation. but, that is another story...maybe later this week.

gracie on playboy radio?

2006-09-17T00:00:00.000-07:00

i open up my emails this morning. i cannot help but stare at the subject of one in bold lettering: You on Playboy Radio

okay first off i think this is some lame ass ploy for me to advertise on my blog which i refuse to do. i would rather flood my blog with photos and art then to be a whore and put annoying fucking ads on my blog, sorry that is just my opinion. i don't hate the others for doing it, i just artistically find it...an eye sore. i do not mind putting up links that i feel are worth a look, but...i am going off subject.

so i open up the email with great skepticism (as most capricorns do) and it had the following:

Hey there Gracie..

I write for dirtyspoke.com and found your site linking through some
others. Every Monday, us girls review a sex blog on Sirius' Playboy
Radio. This Monday, I'm going to talk about yours! I think it's very
hot, and I'm sure the listeners will love it also.

I just wanted to touch base and see if there's anything else you may
want to share that isn't necessarily on your site...like a brief bio
or something. Maybe clarify if you're in a relationship or more of a
guy-to-guy girl, swinger, bicurious, etc...And I'm assuming your
profile shot is not you, but if it is, let me know. If you don't feel
like revealing anything, that's fine too; I'll just use what you've
got on the site.

If you subscribe to Sirius, make sure you tune in around 7:30!
Otherwise, you can check our site (www.dirtyspoke.com) for the audio
and a full written review on Monday morning/afternoon.

Thanks!
Jenna

my first reaction is panic. do i really want this kind of exposure to my blog? do i have a choice? i have seen internet reviews and even found one by links by DH Blog Spicy that talked about my blogs. but, radio? damn. i sat there in shock for a few minutes and decided to respond to her email:

hi jenna

wow, i am rather shocked and honored that someone is going to talk
about my blog on the radio. i am a little nervous about it, but that
is ok. *laughing*

i am married, and no that is not my picture on my profile (i do like
to keep my identity private considering the deviant i am). i am
bi-sexual. my husband and i are considering adding men/women to the
bedroom, we are just having a problem finding the right one as we are
both particular. i enjoy talking to various men for different needs,
these are my gems and they know who they are. my husband is aware that i do talk to men. i don't cyber with men, i like to dig into their
brains and pull out their dark secrets that they cannot even share
with their spouses. i am not after a quick fix, i am after a never
ending mind fuck. i keep most of my off line interactions off my blog
out of respect for my gems unless they ask or grant me to do so. with
gems you never want to sever the bond

what i write about on my blog is very truthful and not fantasy unless
it is a thought i am having. i love art and i love to write. however,
i make no claims to being great in grammar. i don't write for anyone
but myself. some of my readers will send me emails saying at times
what i write is not their cup of tea. i understand and can respect
their opinions. but, this blog is just a way for me to open a window
into my bedroom and sexuality. it is not going to be for everyone. it
is my form of exhibitionism with some taste. i am not going to post
pictures of myself just to get hits on my blog. i want visits because
a person wants to read me, wants to be voyeuristic into my realm. i
also believe i have inspired other female bloggers as their writing
styles slowly change. i leave hallmark writing for hallmark and i will
keep my style of writing for the deviants.

i don't judge anyone either. the only people that i utterly despise are
those that do not have open minds and they are so quick to judge.
those are the "vanilla" people and they can just stay on their side of
the train tracks. i don't need them in my life nor on my blog.

i will gladly add your link to my site since you are doing a review.
since i do not have sirius, is there any way to get a transcript of
the review so that i can post it on my blog?

many thanks,
Grace

and so it begins. i anticipate for monday to come along to see what these DJ's on playboy radio are going to say about my sexually explicit blog. so, if you have the playboy radio channel, listen for me. i won't be able to listen to the review till they post it on the website monday afternoon. i will update this entry with the proper linkage to the review, etc. etc.

Update:
here is the review on DirtySpoke
here is the audio of the review.

the beast within

2006-09-16T14:34:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like i have created a monster in E. his dominating over me grows each session. yet, i let him, i love it and i always want  more of it. he caught me off guard as i was putting lotion on, he came up behind me and grabbed my cunt from behind and pushed me towards the bed. he bent me down face first into the bed. he pushed my panties to the side and immediately shoved in two fingers. i wasn't wet yet and i yelped, i fucking loved it. within mere seconds i was dripping around his fingers.

he left me bent over the bed on my tippy toes with my legs parted. he came with my collar, i could hear the rings banging against each other. i felt like cumming as he fastened it tight around my neck and was on the edge as he yanked me upward as he proceeded to fuck me from behind. he used the leash as the handle as he fucked me. without warning nor lube he shoves in my into my ass. it easily glides in and i grunt.

"yeahhh that's how i like it baby, so hot you taking it in the ass with nothing," he groans.

every time he pushed in the plug to make sure it stayed it i grunted and tightened around his cock. he would switch from the dildo to his cock whenever he felt like it. he held my collared neck tight as he abused my cunt.

he left my dildo in me as he got his belt.

"you better keep that in your cunt bitch or i will really hurt," he warns.

smack!

smack!

he is thoroughly enjoying beating my ass red as i am concentrating and tightening with all my might to keep that cock inside of me. every time he smacks me i just want to flood and release that cock. slowly it sneaks out of me. he knew this was going to happen. down it falls by my feet.

"what did i tell you!" he roars.

he shoves it back in my cunt hard and beats my ass even harder. i am yelping and grunting. instead of enjoying my beating i am trying to keep this cock in me.

"you are such a slut, you don't deserve to have that patch of hair on your cunt, you are going to shave it off do you hear me? you need to earn that patch you filthy whore."

i would do it for him. i would do whatever he had asked. i did not care. he had me in this moment and i was a complete slut for him

"get on the floor you slut," he barks.

he throws down a pillow like i am dog and i kneel down and lay on my stomach. he pulls off the collar and replaces it with a scarf.

"masturbate bitch," he groans.

immediately he tightens the scarf. i feel the pressure and my cunt flooding. my eyes flutter as i never felt so high and dizzy before. i yelp out, he releases for a second and tightens it even harder. i feel like i am going to lose it or pass out. i yelp out, he releases for a second and even tighter this time around. i start to gasp as he ignores my yelp this time, i heave, i almost panic as i fall to my side. he lets the scarf go. i am trying to catch myself as i feel on the border of being alert and passing out.

he gets up and pulls me back on my stomach to  masturbate. he sits on the edge of the bed as he pushes his feet on me to hold me down as i grunt and moan to an orgasm.

goddamn that was insane.

he pulls me up to head towards the tub to wash up. i can barely walk and my cunt is raw and tender.

"you are going to shave off that patch right now," he tells me.

i soak in the tub and wash up. i sit at the edge of the tub as he gets in. he starts to pull at the patch and touch my cunt.

"no, i like it, don't shave it," as he stares at it mesmerized. he starts to rub my clit and i start to pull back.

"don't you fucking move or i will slap you," he warns.

he rubs it and i try not to jerk or move. i am near screaming as he rubs me and i start to pull.

slap, slap, his hand met my face.

"what did i tell you," he hissed through clenched teeth.

i stared at him and stayed still as he pushed in two fingers into my cunt. the water started to splash as he finger fucked my raw cunt. i lost it in the tub and everything that was sitting on the tub edge was knocked off. he pulled out and finished washing himself as i got out examining my neck.

"damn baby you fucked me up," i  whisper with a smile.

"i fucked up your whole body," he said as a matter of fact.

it's true. i created a fucking monster.

my place, his purpose

2006-09-14T15:10:00.000-07:00

i was slowly pulling up a pair of pantyhose that E had picked out for me. his hand was slowly trailing up my ankle, my knee to my thigh. i wiggled on the last bit and he starred at me.

"i want to use and abuse you," he whispered in a trance.

my lips parted as i starred up at him big eyed. i wanted to hurt and i wanted him to do it. i was already flustered with him, earlier he came up behind me while i was the computer whispering filth in my ear, sucking my ear, biting and sucking my neck. if he wanted a piece of flesh i would have given it to him. i felt so seduced, i was at his will. i was put on this earth for him. to please him, to let him use me in such a way that god would turn away. it was the moment of surrender and my body was his toy. i did not care what he did to me as long as he was doing it. his hands on me, giving me any kind of attention. i wanted it all from him.

"i spent all day jacking off your photos," he whispers as he lays beside me. "that guy wants to suck on your tits, fuck you and use you."

i am squirming. i am getting wet as his hands roam the pantyhose laden skin. his hand reaches my cunt.

"your so hot, i can feel it," he slurs into my chest as he sucks and bites.

his hand down the pantyhose and to my cunt. he traces the lips with this fingertips and i moan with need. my body begging him to go inside, feel the internal heat. his fingers slip in. my back arches and i feel i am melting to his touch. he keeps telling me filth and i cannot help but let my cunt react to all of it. he rips a hole in the pantyhose. i twitch with anticipation.

"you are such a fucking slut," he hisses.

his tongue hits my clit. i writhe, gasp, moan, goddamn. he pushes in the dildo while he licks. i lose it and buck against his tongue. squeezing my thighs against his head pushing his tongue against me. i grabbed the back of his head, i knew i shouldn't and i would fight against it but the animal in me wanted his head buried in my cunt. i almost wanted suffocate him. i was panting on the edge of coming on his tongue. heaving, squirming...he turns me over.

my face was pressed against the bed with my ass in the air. i feel warm fluid hit my asshole and run down to my cunt. he presses in my plug, how easily it now goes in. he always says "yeahhh" when it goes in. he likes making me utterly submissive to him. that ultimate domination for him. he pushes his cock in me while looping a scarf around my neck. he pulls it and grips what he can of the pantyhose and rides my cunt like taming an animal. the constant tightening of my neck makes me more and more wet. small moans escape my throat as he fucks me, using my fuck hole for his pleasure. i took him minute after minute. he railed me in and out to a rhythm he commanded. i feel him twitch and he cums deep inside my cunt. he stands there with his hands on my ass as he is catching his breath. he stays inside of me as i try to milk him with my cunt.

he slowly pulls out and replaces his cock with my dildo. he hands me my vibrator. he controls the vibrations as i press it against my clit. he fucks my cum soaked cunt as i grind my vibrator. he pinches and spanks my ass. within minutes i am gasping, moaning and screaming. it was so long and delicious. i laid there spent and gasping for air.

mmmmm today i am raw and sore. i could come again...right now.

a mystery man's arousal

2006-09-13T15:23:00.000-07:00

E walked in the room and i was in panties and my cunt was already wet. i had been slowly sliding back and forth on my chair as words burned straight to the core of my lust. i felt drunk and glassy eyed.

i stood up to leave and E took my seat. he grabbed me and guided me to his lap. i did not sit, instead i grinded my ass against his crotch, giving him a lap dance. his hands reached around and cupped my breasts.

"i can feel your heat," he whispers.

i let out a breath of air. god i needed his attention. i pressed down a little harder into his hardening crotch.

i stood up almost snapping out of a trance. we were discussing household topics briefly.

"i cannot concentrate on anything with you standing there like that," he blurts out. "you look so fucking good."

my face reddens.

"get in the room and get ready," he tells me.

i lay there waiting. trying to calm my erratic breathing. more words burning my skull. thoughts of darkness, pain, flesh and deviancy.

a few days earlier E was telling me he was talking to a man online about me. E even went as far as to send this man pictures of me. i really did not give it that much thought.

as E was thoroughly molesting me he told me as his fingers were deep inside of me that that same man had enjoyed my pictures so much that he jacked off to them three times that day. needless to say i drenched his fingers at the thought.

"you like that don't you," he whispers.

"he wants more," E coos. as his hand wraps around my throat squeezing.

my moans are loud at the thought of a stranger jacking off to an image of me. i am suffocating in this thought. E pushes a dildo in my ass and stuffs another in my cunt. he fucks me and i blurt out, "TAKE A PICTURE FOR HIM!"

and so it started a photo session for this man that doesn't have a name to me. E positioned me and guided me as i would stare at the bulge in his pants as he would grab it while taking photos. he tied me, grabbed me, spanked me, pinched me in images for this man's arousal.

while at work today, E sent me a text message that simply read:

"God you're hot"

i smile. all though those pictures were for this mystery man. i am sure E found them for his arousal also.

no i won't be posting them, so don't even ask. you naughty sluts.

*bites*

dirty thoughts

2006-09-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

sitting there i close my eyes, let the music vibrate through my body and down in between my legs. the music flows in and out of me like water. i stare at E as he plays, studying his body like a piece of desire. he looks perfect with this broad shoulders and muscular arms. he is shaped like a "V" and i want him as i stare intently at him. i leaned forward displaying the cleavage that i immodestly was not trying to conceal. out the corner of my eye i spot S looking my way. i did not care. i was fucking horny watching them play in front of me. i had a front seat to the concert and i was going to bang the guitarist that night.

we leave for dinner and we walk down the narrow hallway that is in a converted warehouse. my thoughts cannot help but linger at the idea of fucking this hallway of men that are standing outside their rooms smoking. i am fascinated with the long hallways envisioning a great place to find a corner and let them all line up to fuck. E runs back to the room as S and i make our way out.

S stares at me again, "you look nice grace...like you are going to model for something."

i smile in embarrassment with a small laugh, "thanks S."

we do dinner with E sitting across from me and S sitting next to me. i cannot help but feel awkward with these two crowded around me along with glances from other men at the restaurant. my blood is heated now and S's leg keeps hitting mine. i cannot help but pick out men that i would fuck. i see men checking to see if there is a ring on my finger...there is not one.

on the way home i cannot contain my need. my hand goes straight for E's crotch as S sits behind me in the back seat. E grabs at my inner thigh scraping his finger tips deep into my flesh and i sink into my seat aroused. i fucking want him and i don't care who is in the car. my mind strays to a thought of S groping me from the back seat while E finger fucks me. i know my panties are wet.

we get in the house. S follows in and i go straight to the computer to check emails and read your sentences that make my blood boil with passion. you make me want to fuck urgently. E comes in pulls my breast out the top of my shirt and i breathe heavily with lust. he slaps and pulls my nipple. i grab at him in desperation.

"get in the room, S will leave soon," he says in a low voice as he tucks my breast back in my shirt.

i get up strip and lay on the bed waiting for him with lidded eyes.

he comes in the room and grabs my cunt. i push into him and moan. i am so fucking hungry it is obvious. he pushes my panties to the side and starts licking my clit. i start to moan and grab at his back and tug on my nipples. i just want him inside of me, so fucking deep inside of me. his cock has not been in my cunt in over a fucking week now. i want his thrusts in me. what i really want are your thrusts in me. i want to feel you fuck me. yeah that is what i really want.

"turn over," he whispers.

i turn over and sway my ass from side to side. i hear a condom go on and i am not sure if it is your cock or on a dildo. then i feel your cock press against my tight ass.

"oh god," i moan as you press inside. your condom coated cock forces its way inside my tight ass. i move forward moaning and scared of the pain. i back on to your cock and i feel your hands grip my hips and push all the way in me.

"fuck," i gasp as you push in me fucking my ass.

i feel my cunt drenching as the fucking increases and my ass gulps your cock trying to milk it in me. goddamn baby. you are fucking buried in my ass baby...you were...all of you.

when you pull out you sink in three fingers deep, fucking my ass. you made me loose baby. so loose like the slut you want me to be baby. when you pull out i lay on my back catching my breath.

you finger my wet clit. i start to beg baby, "please, i want you inside of me. please."

you make me beg, you tease you start to push inside of my cunt and pull out. i keep begging pushing your hand inside of me. i am on the verge of panic. slowly you push inside one finger...another...another and i moan loudly. i melt and you dig in deep to find my spot...yeah there baby and i flood your hand as you roughly fuck my cunt. give me the pain baby. you cover my nose and mouth, i start to shudder and my eyes flutter. you feel me gush on your hand. yeah baby you do me so fucking right.

you pull out your soaked hand and shove in the dildo. my legs spread wide baby and you fuck it hard hitting the back of me. i don't fight it and i let the pain course in me with the pleasure of getting fucked. i buck to your thrusts and my cunt flows. you hurt me so good.

yes baby, you fucked me last night and it won't be the last either.

three for you

2006-09-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

goddamn baby, you make me want to come so bad. laying on the hard ground thinking of just you baby. this is all for you. you on my mind and between my legs. i want to give you three, all of me.

number one, us joined together cock and cunt. never parting as we revel and live in this detrimental mayhem. locked together to devour each other into non-existence. living off of each other and never parting, because if we do, it is done. my breath gets heavy as i peak and i let your name over and over, as if it were going to save my life. i heave in lust and my eyes start to water. there is no controlling myself as all this build up lets itself escape from my body. i yearned for this moment and waited ever so patiently for the right time to give myself to you.

i lay there shuddering in a starving after glow. my cunt literally pulsing hungry for the another one. i am such a slut, always wanting more and more. your words are never enough. my need insatiable and my addiction growing dangerous. my body sways from side to side in a sexual motion taunting you from afar. come fuck me baby, i am just waiting here for you.

number two, was me fucking you, yeah baby right on top. taking what i need from you. digging my nails into your flesh. watching that mix of pleasure and pain on your face. i see blood seed from your cuts. my violent orgasm on top of you as i dig more and more into your flesh. i can hear you hiss in pain. my eyes are still moist with lust. my mind is dark and my body trembles as it climbs again at my will to give me that intense orgasm that i need. gasps and moans fill the room. i am buzzing with you.

my body starts to weaken. yet, my cunt begs for another. i lay there in a daze, high off of you. letting you inside every part of my body. letting you run through my veins. i almost smile. number three seems far off as my body and cunt are not on the same wave length. my mind dreams of you as i lay there working the energy.

you intoxicate me.

you are a trigger to my mind and cunt.

you provoke my darkness.

number three, seems not possible. yet your words form in my mind and images start to play. i focus on our mouths fucking, joined by a common part. me biting your lip just enough to draw your blood from you. mmmm so fucking sweet. i could kiss you till we die. press against you and torment and tease you till you take it from me. you know i don't give so freely. feeling you grow hard and rigid against me and my cunt growing wetter and wetter. my body quivers as i feel it building and building. i let out that final groan, that desperate release and all is right with the world. my eyes grow heavy. as much as i crave you, you exhaust my mind. i am delirious and in ecstasy. my body is still shaking as i write this and now i want to fall asleep as you flow through me. goddamn baby.

i never put my hand between my legs baby. i came without touching my cunt once. can you beat that baby? now give me three more.

half naked thoughts

2006-09-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

i am sitting here with lidded eyes. horny as hell. i had to sit and think (used my blog) to figure out the last time i had a real cock inside of me. according to my blog...thursday night of last week. something is not right, but it is life getting in the way again.

over the past weekend, i purchased a short, red, pleated, plaid skirt. i wanted to cream my panties holding it in my hands. i went further down this road and purchased a tie. i am piecing together my costume for this year's exotic erotic ball in san francisco. i need to purchases some slutty mary janes and a white button dress shirt and i will be ready for that night. i am so excited. hmmmmm what color panties to wear underneath? do i keep it innocent and wear white? pink? match the bra and wear black? seriously, tell me. hmmmm. hair in pig tails and E mentioned getting me a lolly pop to accent. i love when he is supportive in my naughty efforts.

*long breath out*

so i am going to take my tired self into the bedroom...

undress...

spread my legs...

fuck myself awake...

i am sore, always horny and i keep men on my brain. all of my gems glisten in their own light. each one i want to lick and bite. each one i would spread my legs for at any moment if given the opportunity. my lust is large enough for all of them. mmmm my mind cannot stop. addictions only grow as my panties get wetter.

as i always groan how one should never waste a good hard on, the same could be said about a wet cunt. it really is a waste of pussy to let it just be wet with no play, no cock, no fucking, no stuffing. one gem told me the other night that there should be places where you go to get slammed up against a wall a taken to get rid of that "hi, how are you" crap. i do love that thought. a place to just get railed and walk away satisfied. at least then i would be able to think straight at work.

i failed to put in a piece from the other night that had slipped my mind. i am laying on the bed thoroughly sore and happy. E lays above my head and wraps a scarf around my neck. as we stare at each other from this angle, he lowers down to kiss me as he chokes me. that little moment seemed so erotic to me. it was the right touch to that evening.

because i have tortured you enough with my tired rant. i will give you something to look at.

until my lust builds again. i leave you with *bites*.

give me what i need

2006-09-07T14:06:00.000-07:00

E's friend C is passing through staying a few nights again. i think we see him more now then we did before when he lived closer. i hinted at E this need i had. luckily he was calling in sick and was able to take care of me.

C is on the other side of our bedroom wall. E warns to be quiet. i can hear the tv blaring on the other side. but, the thought of him right there just a few feet away from my head. mmmmm.

i was laying back on the bed legs spread as instructed. E rests beside me and pushes in a smaller dildo in my cunt. i melt when he is working it in and out of me. my leg moves on to his lap as i am spread like the slut i am. i feel my body melt more and more.

"yeah you need this don't you?" he whispers.

i am panting and gasping. my face displaying that pleasure that i have been aching for. i grab a pillow and moan into it.

"turn over."

i turn over on to my knees pushing my head into the bed. he peels my black panties down enough to expose my ass and cunt.

"you want it in your ass?" he whispers.

i start shuddering. he starts to push the dildo. i am afraid he is going to push too fast and leave me in searing pain. he is slow and it easily pops in (perhaps those daily plugs were doing some good). he slowly moves it in and out of my. my whole body shakes as i stifle moans in the bed. his other hand gliding on my cunt and i am drenching his hand. i am getting wetter and wetter as he starts to fuck my ass faster.
i start to feel something smooth press against my cunt. he forces in my other dildo. getting both holes fucked and i just lose it.

i notice the other side of the wall is quiet as i am sure my moans have peaked above what "quiet" should be. it makes me wonder if C can hear or if he is listening to the commotion on the other side of the wall.

everything gets pulled out of me and i am laying back on my back. i ask in a little girl voice for E to put both dildos in my cunt. i lay back and spread my legs wide.

he fidgets with cleaning things and comes to the bed and sits beside me again. he pushes in one and starts to attempt the second. he seems challenged like working a puzzle piece to get that second cock in. after some working i start to feel that pain of my cunt being stretched. mmmmm i gasp as he pushes it in. i feel like a whore having two cocks going in and out of me. the pain is delicious and i come hard on those two cocks.

he puts a fresh pair of panties on me and puts me on his lap. he stares me deep in the eyes and tells me i am such a slut. he tells me to repeat it and stare him in the eyes.."i am daddy's slut." he tells me to do it twice. i give him big eyes and pouty lips as i shake my head yes as he talks to me. he tells me he wants an "E" around my neck and that he still wants the "E" tattooed behind my ear. like a good girl i nod my head yes and he puts me to bed. i don't even remember falling asleep.

the cherry on top

2006-09-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

my need, my hunger is growing. with my mind conjuring these elaborate "sessions" with certain men, i can feel my cunt twitch. i am not getting enough, as if my cunt is never satisfied even after fingers and a dildo have fucked it.

my cunt is still sore and when he shoved in his fingers there was this lingering hint that i have not fully recovered. but, it hurt so fucking good. the parting of my tightness to swallow his fingers, to welcome that dildo fully and to keep utterly silent. my face pressed into the bed as it hung slightly over the side. one jolt forward and i would be on the floor with a snapped neck. i feel this flood gush from my cunt and my panties that have been yanked down catching most of it as the rest dribbles down my thigh.

i want to fuck. i want it raw. i want that darkness. i want that racing of my heart of the unknown. i want you between my legs. i want the exchange of a conversation between our eyes. the gasps, grunts and moans to back it all up. the cries and screams to confirm it all.

push into me, see my face take it baby. feel me wrap around the hardness i have caused. the consequence to seduction. lips parted, nails gripping, legs tightening and body glistening. this forbidden union granted by me spreading my legs and letting you in. connecting through the core of my existence, letting you in without hesitation. our lust combined to create only what we can...pure deviance.

our minds fuck in unison as our bodies follow behind. the words we exchange in close whispers to keep the bond. we don't want a sound to slip from this realm. a path of noise being fed to heighten this physical fuck. this is just the cherry on top baby. to feel finally, to give and take, the sights, the sounds, the smells and oh baby the tastes. to taste those lips and feel your tongue. burn an imprint of those senses into my mind so that when our minds fuck again i can reflect on those physical cherries.

i urge you to make your mental mark baby, do it and do it well. as i will make my physical marks on you baby and i will do them very well.

my mental cum

2006-09-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

you sitting there reading the screen the words that i piece together in such a way, it is a mental seduction. as if i have crawled out of the monitor on my hands in knees like a lion to her prey, to straddle you in the chair you sit in.

i place my mouth up against your ear whispering with lust my words that make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up. me grinding into your hard crotch to emphasize certain words to get the point across.

yes...i am getting my point across baby.

my left hand on your neck tracing circular designs as my left finger traces the outlines of your lips.

you want me to grind, you want a rhythm. i am making the point, you just want to cum. you are driven mad when i push in to emphasize words like "cock", "cunt", "fuck", "baby", "lick", "suck", "pain" and "cum". you seem to twitch when you hear everything else. speaking my words like a hypnotic poison.

my flesh bare, warm and comforting. my skin soft and smooth. your hands rest on my hips that you dare not move nor stray upon my body for fear this could be just a dream. you feel a fabric so smooth and silky. you wonder...is it pink?

your heart racing as my words are slowly inserted to your mind. your eyes are closed, lips parted and you are completely seduced. i could take what i wanted right now baby. i have you in that moment, that very moment.

i tell you it all baby, i unload my words into you. my mental cum that you take and swallow. you never spill a drop baby. you take it all and i never seeps out of your hole. you let out a breath as if you were holding it in the whole time not miss a single word.

as soon as your long breath is released...i am gone.

sometimes it is sweet

2006-09-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

we were hissing words at each other like spits of poison. i was too exhausted to argue. i dropped the matter. couples bicker at times and thank god for us it is never often.

i finish my face and head towards the bed. he pats the bed next to him and puts out an arm. that non-vocal gesture of "peace". i accept and lay awkwardly near him a little stand offish. i curl on my side mumbling, "i cannot lay like that".

he gets out of the bed and rounds around towards my side. i think to myself, "he could not be coming over here to mess with, that would just be...perfect".

he adjusts me all the way on my stomach. pushes my arms up over my head. i don't say a word at the jerky motions like i am his living play doll. he pushes one cheek of my panties over to expose my right cheek. he starts to spank it. i jolt a little. he takes three swats and turns me over. he pushes up my tank top and spreads my legs.

"i wanted to see how beautiful you are," as he pressed his hard on against my clit.

i respond with a small moan as he presses. i cannot recall the last time i felt a hard on pressed against me with not being completely naked. he sucks and licks my nipples. god, it has been so long since he has done this to me. i start to squirm as he makes my eyes flutter. he shifts to lay to my left cradling me, keeping tight and close. he rocks slightly and stares right into my eyes.

"i love you," he whispers with such conviction.

"i love you," i whisper back with equal conviction.

he nuzzled into me and i realized how long it has been since we had a moment like this. realizing that life is so precious that it is so important to just love those that really matter. we were locked for several minutes in this loving, sweet embrace.

he slowly with care separated from me.

"mmmm, i want to see that ass," he moans.

he positions himself behind me with his knee directly between my legs. he pushes my pelvis upward to that my pussy rested on the round of his bent knee. he pulled my panties down the curve of my ass. he started to spank me and these were not love taps. he spanked hard focusing on my right cheek. each whack resulted in my pelvis grinding against this knee. i started to yelp and cry out when the pain started to sear my flesh. the burn almost seemed unbearable. he then added in the left cheek. it did not seem to matter now. it all hurt and the burn was apparent.

i kept grinding against his knee with each hit, and i started to grind more in between with this mixture of pleasure and pain. he slowly pushed in two fingers deep in my cunt. i starting moaning and groaning. i was grinding back against his fingers and knee. my pace and push grew faster and harder. i felt this rise in my body as i started to come on his fingers and i let out a long satisfying groan. i gripped the sheets of the bed as the wave hit me just as hard as his spanks.

my head fell to my pillow and he got up only pulling my panties half way up my ass. i started to fall asleep as he washed up my wetness. all i remember is him asking me if i was really going to sleep like that. yet, i wake up this morning completely naked. hmmmmm.

no matter what i say or do, he is love and life. nothing is going to change that. i know the difference between lust and love.

the dirty girl

2006-09-01T09:40:00.000-07:00

he called me up to inform me he was not working a second shift and nor did he have practice. he ended the the conversation with "i want to play with your pussy tonight". well, that had me aroused the rest of the afternoon. not really knowing what he had in mind.

the night before i had confessed to him why my toys were out since he saw them drying in our sink.

"i put two dildos in my pussy," i say ever so sweetly with applied innocence.

"mmmmm, i like that," he replies.

"my pussy is sore," i say pathetically.

he cannot keep his hands off of me and moments later i am grinding my stretched cunt against his fingers deep inside me.

last night, i am laying in bed on my stomach in the dark, wearing just panties. i am dosing off in exhaustion. he comes in the room and in one sweep he has a scarf around my neck and tugging.

"i am going to kill you and rape you," he hisses in my ear.

i feel dizzy, my eyes flutter and i pass out.

i am on my back, legs spread and a wet paper towel over my face. i cannot see, but i can feel and hear. i can barely get a good breath under the towel. i can feel my breath pushing it upward but if i remain calm, i can get enough breath. i feel my panties being shoved to the side. he is rubbing up and down my slit. i am already wet. i first feel my plug easily go inside my ass. it helps when i have been been plugging it for over an hour every day this week. he then pushes in my dildo. i am already sore from the night before. it is that good hurt as he fucks me silly.

his hand covers my nose and mouth. i am having a hard enough time breathing and i feel myself drench as he cuts off my air. my arms start to wave and i find his arm and i slap it. a few slaps later he releases. i am gasping for air under the towel. he is plowing away at my cunt. he pulls out the dildo and shoves in four fingers, the plug slips out and he forces three fingers into my ass. he fucks my both holes and i rip off the towel as i gasp. i am drenching and drenching. i am groaning and moaning as he uses my holes like a filthy slut.

"turn over," he tells me.

I turn over and he peels my panties down to my knees as i am in a position to be fucked..my ass in the air and my head in the bed.

"oooh your panties are dirty," he coos.

he pushes himself inside of me. mmmm he fucks me so hard. grabbing and tugging at my waist. i can feel every inch going in and out. i can feel myself coming around his cock. he directs me on my back and finishes me off with unloading his cum deep in my cunt. i stare at the beads of sweat on his forehead. we are panting trying to catch our breaths. i feel his cum oozing out of me and my hand reaches down to massage his cum into my clit. everything so swollen and used. i actually feel like today i need a break to recover.

Note: he really does not want to kill me. it was part of his talking to me. he told me later as i inquired about how many fingers and where that he was imagining two other men "assisting" him with me...poking, prodding, groping, probing. i loved the sound of that. he asked if that was ok and i told him ever so aroused...mmmhmmm. as i pushed my ass right up against his cock. i swear i may be sore and hurting, i still cannot seem to get enough. perhaps two other guys would stomp this insatiable need.

induced panic

2006-08-29T19:49:00.000-07:00

a small scratch on my face and slight bruising on my neck i gawk at myself in the mirror. i am not horrified, more...impressed. perhaps that is the wrong choice of words, but it IS a reminder of what we did last night.

i almost enjoy pissing him off just to get a rough reaction that i crave. i hid an email from another man on purpose from his view. he did not mention it till we were both in bed.

"who was that email to?"

i grin a little nervously. i did not say anything.

before i realize it, i have a hand around my throat and i am flat on my back. i gasp a little at the sudden action. i can feel my cunt getting wet. he shoves in two fingers inside my cunt without warning. my back arches and i groan.

"you are such a whore," as he tightens his grip around my throat.

he pushes me upward to wrap a scarf around my neck. he wraps it around and pulls the end tight. i gasp feeling the material pinch my skin. the pressure in my head increases and i can feel my jugular pulsing heavily. i grow dizzy. my eyes start to flutter. i am starring in his face. he is intent with concentration.

he lets go and i fall limp. my head falls to the side as i feel so drained of everything. he leaves the room and i lay there almost lifeless. i feel like sleeping. i can feel my cunt pulsing.

i can see him delicately holding a piece of plastic wrap between his hands. he places is over my face. my eyes get big as i start to breath heavy. my breath is fogging up the plastic as he shoves his cock inside me. i contract and squeeze his cock as i struggle to breathe behind the plastic barrier. i can hear myself gasping for air as the plastic shoves inside my nose and mouth. it is a breath jail i am in. he is paying attention to my face as he fucks me. i am not sure if he is going to set me free from this obstacle. i keep gasping my arms flailing about. my primal instincts kick in and i rip the plastic from my face with my nail scratching below my eye. i gasp for air as if i had just come back from the dead.

he pulls out of me, adjusts the plastic and places it back over my face. i am barely recuperated. i already start to feel a panic as i gasp for air and he jams his fingers inside my cunt. i feel myself leaking all over his fingers down to my asshole. i feel one finger enter my ass, then two...then three. if i could yelp i would have. my mind was focused on air. the need for air as i contracted against his fingers cumming in a panic. i rip the plastic off once again desperately reaching for air.

punishing the naughty

2006-08-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

"did you have a good time by yourself," as he noticed my dildo and plug in the sink drying.

i looked at him a little surprised. i did not respond to his question.

"bitch, i asked you a question," walking over to me.

"so," i barked back in defiance. i immediately thought of you and what i had done several hours before. i almost smirked knowing i was wrong, i was naughty and i was being a total slut.

he yanks me upright in bed, stares in my face, grabbing at my breasts that are hidden underneath a tight microfiber, blank tank top with matching panties. he notices my attire bends down to my face as i squirm at his touches.

"you are such a fucking slut."

i whimper with approval.

"you are a nympho."

i am pressing up against him. i want him. i want you through him.

"stand up i want to see you."

i slowly stand facing him. he gawks at me, i feel shy as he stares and adjusts my top, pulling it down to expose the tops of my breasts. he gets up and comes back with my black heels. he sets them facing the wall. i know what he wants as i step into them. i push my ass out with my hands against the wall.

"yessssss," he groans. "you are one hot piece of ass. shake that ass for me. mmmm yeah, come here slut."

i turn around and walk towards him. he has his cock hard in his hand, sitting at the edge of the bed with his legs open. he points to the bed and i know he wants me to bend over his leg on to the bed. he starts beating my ass. in the beginning i am getting so wet, loving the pain. thinking about you spanking my ass with rage. the hits grow harder and in the same place. i start to yelp, you continue beating me and i start to cry out in pain. my hand swings back like a child being beat by her father in need of that moment to stop to breath through the hard stings. you grab my hand and throw it aside. beating me as i continue crying out.

i feel my dildo push up inside me. i groan and tighten around it. i start gripping the bed sheets.

"open your mouth slut!"

i open my mouth and he shoves in my plug, fucking my mouth. i am gagging as he fucks my cunt and mouth. every time i gag my cunt tightens and pushes the dildo out. my eyes start to water as he gags my mouth.

"you know what i talked about at work the other day? i was telling my co-workers what a slut you are. tell them that i fuck your ass and that you will do anything. i may just bring them home and let them fuck your ass you whore."

my cunt leaks hearing this. a flurry of images course through my mind. i start to shake. he yanks out the plug from my mouth. shoves his finger into my ass. i come so hard thinking of you just using me.

persuasive words

2006-08-27T10:15:00.000-07:00

your words, goddamn your words. as soon as i read them i am wet, such a good wet too. my cunt is so swollen in need and it feel so fucking good. i swing my leg over my chair exposing my hot cunt. i feel the lips have parted and my clit hardening to the touch. so soft and freshly shaven.

i have never done this on my own...i lube my biggest plug. i watch the oil glide down and i coat the plug. i sit in my chair and reach back to work it inside me. i am nervous, not sure if this is going to work. i slowly fall down on the plug breathing so deeply. my cunt is drenching the towel beneath me. i sink down ever so slowly as i breath i sink more. mmmmm i groan as i feel my ass stretching around my plug. i push the rest of the plug in me feeling the last bulb pop inside my hungry ass. fuck i feel so good. i am rocking on it.

your words, dammit i am lost in this trance with you. i will be your little slut easily. i will take it any way you want to give it to me. plugging my ass for you without hesitation.

i grab my big dildo. my leg swung over my arm rest. i feel so fucking slutty masturbating in front of the computer. i place the cock head at the my cunt's entrance. i have no idea if this is going to go inside of me. i push, it seems so hard to push through my tightness and this position. i keep pushing moaning at my efforts. groans in my throat as i push inside my slippery, wet cunt. i take the whole cock inside of me and i start to fuck myself fast and hard. my free hand tugging at my nipples hard giving myself the pain i need.

hurt me.

hurt me.

your words are in my eyes and in my head. i want to give you my ass. i want you to cum in it. i want to be your naughty whore, your filthy slut, your anal slave and i will obey you. i know you will take care of me.

i get on the ground and fuck myself to i cum saying your name. i am such a needy slut. spread out naked on the ground fucking myself and plugged. i pant and throb. i keep my plug in for you. i rock on it in my chair as i read and type. i am focused on you. i want you.

your words drive me with constant arousal and wetness. i am moaning for you, needing you, imagining you.

i fuck my cunt again. i am insatiable with this hunger. you keep me high, you make me so fucking wet. i fuck my cunt till i come so hard. beads of sweat on my forehead as i am catching my breath. i needed this so bad baby. i need you so bad. i feel so much better when i read your words. i feel like i can sleep tonight.

i touch myself

2006-08-26T13:22:00.000-07:00

I lay back in the empty bed in the darkness. My legs spread open eagerly. I have on a pink thong. Yes, I am trying to look somewhat innocent as my fingers push aside the fabric. I trace the lips, the outline of the hole to my pussy, up around my clit. I am already wet as you are in my mind. Your words draw images inside my hungry mind. I start to rub my clit slowly, wishing you were beside me watching and assisting. I tilt my head as if to hear you whisper more words to feed my mind. I start to breath shallow anything can happen in the dark.

My finger travels down to the opening to my lust. I am starting to soak my panties. I dip my middle finger inside me and I immediately clench around my finger tightly. Milking my finger as if it were your cock. My back arches slightly as a second finger forces inside and my jaw drops. I can feel juices running out of me and down to my asshole. I start to fuck your cock and grind. My chest heaves with aching want. My other hand grabs my nipple and pinching. I want you and it is literally hurting the inside of my cunt. I start to come and I feel a searing aching pain inside of me, begging to be used, stuffed and stretched by you. I need to fuck so badly. My finger rubs my clit intently, I come a second time and I start to pant on the verge of just sobbing. I get through the panting and only one tear escapes my eye and I immediately pass out.

I wake up early and mostly due to the soaked panties that are between my legs. I strip them down and feel how drenched they still are. I shower and lay back down naked. I start to think of you again. Our last correspondence, the images you fabricate for me and your name burns. I cannot stop, my need is insatiable and I will go mad if I let it just fester inside. Laying on my stomach, my hand goes between my legs and I squeeze my thighs tightly, grinding and coming so quickly. A long moan escapes my throat, followed by shorter satisfied ones. I pleasantly fall back asleep.

Now writing this makes my mind reel again for you. I feel this need to come again. This is just getting worse.

a naughty girl

2006-08-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

Laying on my side thinking about you, I feel his hand come around my throat. His squeeze is tighter and in one motion he pulls me on to my back choking me. I let out a longing sigh as I am insatiably hungry. I feel the wetness increasing between my legs.

"take off your shirt."

I pull of my shirt with his grip only releasing only to pull it over my head.

"you are such a whore, get all fours and suck my cock."

He pulls my head down, he is raging with hardness. He is so angry at me with my slutty needs. He wants to punish me.

"go all the way down!"

I try to take him in. I can not see in the dark. I gag and choke and I can not take him all the way in.

We have to be quiet because tonight there is a guest in the house sleeping in the next room. He always gets mad at me when I want him so badly. It has been since Monday since anything has been inside my cunt.

"shake your ass."

I sway from side to side as I suck him. I am dying for my cunt to have attention. I know I don't deserve it.

"get on top of me and ride this cock."

I hesitate afraid of the noise I will make. I know it will be a violent orgasm. He yanks me on top of him trying to shove his cock inside my cunt. It won't go in. I am so tight.

"stand up you stupid whore" he snarls.

I stand up next to the bed. He sits at the edge of the bed.

"come here" he demands.

I stand in front of him. He pushes my panties to the side and forces his thigh for me to straddle.

"grind my leg bitch".

I rub on his thigh. One hand is digging into his other thigh while the other is around his neck digging into his shoulder blade. I am not careful tonight. I am drenching his thigh with my cunt juices. They are flowing out of me with such need.

"stop clawing me bitch!" as he grabs a handful of hair and yanks.

He grabs my hands and pulls them behind my back. He ties them tightly behind me. Bends my face down in the bed. Instinctively I go on my tippy toes.

"you don't deserve panties" as he yanks them down.

He positions himself behind me and thrusts inside of me. I groan into the bed.

"shut up you whore!" he warns.

He thrusts in and out of me. I can feel juices dripping to my feet and running down my thigh.

In the dark my mind goes to you. I am thinking about you railing me. Driving inside of me with rage and vigor. You pull out of my cunt and press your cock head against my ass. You start to push inside of me. The tip goes in as you are asking me if I like being fucked in my ass and confirming I am a whore wanting to be fucked in my ass like that. Realizing I would give away what we are doing in the bedroom you pull out and shove your cock back into my cunt. Pumping wishing you could take my ass right then and there again. Wanting to hear me scream in pain and submission. Knowing my body will shudder and convulse around your invasive cock. Grinning knowing it is a thrill to my mind be taken in such a manner. You pulling out, pressing your cock against my asshole and cumming in hot spurts. Letting it run down to my used cunt.

I have been bad and I don't get to cum tonight. It would be too loud of a risk.

So I sit here thinking of you. Knowing I came twice to you yesterday, once in the morning and once while at work. My cunt is already wet again for you. I know it will be another day where I will sneak off to the bathroom to masturbate again to you. I want to come so hard to you. I want to grunt your name with utter pure lust.

a deviant's thoughts

2006-08-24T11:25:00.000-07:00

have you ever been suspended in a state of constant arousal?

i feel under a spell of the lust kind. it started a few days ago. it caused me to run to the bathroom to masturbate. i was so wet and came in under a minute. walking back to my desk with a glow, grin and wobbly legs.

words do this to me.

music elongates it.

seeing delicious people spikes it.

my mind reeling out of control. i had taken a step outward. the words that i read tapped into that depth of my brain that just hummed for days. my panties baring that wet spot every time i pull them down.

this morning i masturbated again. the intensity so thick as it oozed from me as i came. images that have been burned into my mind were frantic. my breathing quivered and my body shook with pure sex. my emotions flooded to the forefront causing me on the verge of tears. i took in a deep breath and let it shakily out. pulled down my wet, black panties and proceeded to shower.

today is red beneath my clothes. red for the desire that is running rampant within me. my panties baring yet another wet spot, this is just the sign of another day of arousal. it is not over and frankly i don't want it to stop.

i want fingers shoved up inside me and my hair yanked backward. lips so close barely grazing the outline of my ear, whispering words so filthy that only god could hear. teeth combing down my neck ending with a bite. a hand grabbing and slapping at my ass. my eyes starring at you telling you what i need. my gasping reaffirming your actions are well chosen.

tie me

choke me

force me

use me

i know that you can take me to a different level. toying with darkness, fondling at the idea of wrong and right and seeing are there really limits between us? this untold understanding we both want this and much more then what we confess. are you afraid to confess to me? afraid i will wince and look away? i have only shared a fraction of the darkness that lurks deep within. i may make you wince or turn away if i let it escape my lips. my mind is truly pandora's box with a lock and key. the key between my lips, do you want it? then i suggest you come get it. no hands.

i will leave it to you to unlock.

number one hundred

2006-08-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

i was sleeping when he woke up. he was playing with my pussy through my panties. in between the sleep world and reality i slowly moved to his slight touches. he was teasing me and i could feel myself getting wet. i was eager for more advances and yet he kept lightly rubbing or outlining. my wetness was now forming a wet spot on my panties and he pressed it against my opening. i am starting to lose my mind with my aching anticipation. i am starting to drench my panties.

pulling off my panties he sinks himself between my legs. i can not help but become more and more wet. i claw at his back and arms making sure not to hurt him. i pull him close to me wanting every inch of him deep within.

he pulled out and laid back on the bed. "get on top of me", he calmly said. i could see his cock drenched with my wetness and seeping to his balls. i climbed up on top of him and sank down eagerly on his cock. i pushed him in and out of me. it is always such a chore to not come on that first insertion. however, then it was a mission to come on him violently. i grabbed on the head board as i grinded up and down on his cock. i could feel the intensity rising within. his composure was so relaxed as he fondled my nipples and breasts. i started to fuck harder and harder with the intensity building and mounting. i started to clench and shiver as my wave of pleasure coursed outward. i fell beside him and he got up.

"get on your knees" he said. his tone had changed it sounded much more stern. i could feel my cunt pulsing post orgasm.

sinking his cock deep inside me i groan. i am so tight as he shoves in and out of me. his words are filthy as he calls me a slut and a whore. he grips my waist roughly pulling me back hard on his cock. i felt myself drenching his cock as he started to pull almost all the way out and roughly back in. feeling his length going all the way and all the way out was arousing.

"open your mouth", he growled. i opened my mouth and he shoved in my plug. it felt like a gag more then anything. laying almost into my throat. he proceeded to pound my cunt with my dildo. the first plunges stretched me to accommodate it. i groaned and bit down on the plug.

he pulls the plug from my mouth and pushes it into my ass. i groan loudly pushing my face into the bed as he continues to fuck my cunt with my ass stuffed. he pulls the dildo out and replaces it with his cock. i know he enjoys that plug pressing against his cock as he hammers into me.

"make your pussy tight" he snarls. "if you don't make it tight i am going to fuck your ass." after hearing that i really do not make any attempts to tighten my cunt. i am uncertain if this is just another empty threat.

he hissed and yanked out my plug while pulling his cock out of me. i feel a sense of panic and he presses against my ass. he forces himself inside my ass and fucks me violently. my body shudders as he forces himself inside me, stretching me. i grunt as he pushes in me without any remorse. he is barking dirty words to me "you like that bitch? you like that in the ass you whore?" i groan with his mounting and pushing me into the bed. i am utterly shocked at his actions and completely submissive. held down taking him in my ass, something he has avoided for years. i just never knew it would be today that he would break that record. him finally acting on his threats and i ignored the warnings from my gentlemen callers. nothing is no longer sacred and now i know anything is possible with him. yet, i love it...i loved it.

pulling out of me he easily pushes my plug back in. turns me over and fucks my cunt. my eyes roll as he pounds in me. i can feel the plug rubbing against his cock. my heart is racing and he pumps till he cums deep inside me. my plug slithers out and i rub my cunt with his cum that is seeping out. i love his warm, slippery cum on my clit. i feel like the true slut that i am. completely and utterly used. it has been a long time coming, but worth the wait.

a sight unseen

2006-08-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

i feel out of sorts this weekend. as if i were waiting for this ultimate release. schedule, obligations and normal day life seems to block it all. i had a drunken session saturday night that i can not recall.

i recall coming in and out of consciousness as i was being fucked, choked and cummed on. i remember being on top fucking him and cumming slow and long. i remember hard smacks to my ass and him slapping my ass and cunt with the dildo before roughly inserting it my cunt. i remember my face back in the sweet, wet spot on the bed as he railed me from behind with him pull my hair tightly. then getting on the ground, masturbating till coming intently and somehow ended on my back. he was hovering over me jacking off and i would fade in and out as i could see the silhouette of his actions. i could hear him make a final gasp as hot web cum fell upon my face startling me awake.

he had relayed to me last night during dinner that he had choked me till passing out several times. he also expressed his happiness with our "session" as he labeled them. funny, how i have been using that term for quite some time, but he is to not know about this side.

i now realize it is not my body that is hungry, it is my mind. going several days without anything really itching my scratch except for little comments here and there on my writing. so, i sit on the edge of my seat waiting patiently. all weekend my pussy moist with anticipation and thoughts cursing my body with longing. if only there was a small window into my mind for the unfortunate to see the colors, images and thoughts that seduce my mind. it is truly a sight to be seen.

100 licks to me

2006-08-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

1. i am a bitch, honest, blunt and a deviant
2. i am both logical and artistic
3. i questioned my faith after the death of my grandma, i am still conflicted
4. i like pain with my pleasure
5. i prefer a mind fuck over the act of fucking
6. i started masturbating at the age of 5
7. i enjoy water and red wine
8. i judge stupid people and don't tolerate stupid people judging others
9. i don't make love, i fuck
10. my addictions are never substance related
11. i am bi-sexual
12. if i bleed i lick my own blood
13. i don't want kids
14. i have tried to have a child
15. when i was younger i had a crush on my cousin
16. i have 5 black tattoos on my body
17. my driving is directly affected by the music i listen to
18. music is very important to me in life and i refuse to live without it
19. i have an exceptional memory when it comes to work and people, yet i can not remember my childhood
20. i always rise in the ranks at any job i accept, i like being on top
21. i have less then a handful of female friends, i do not play nice with them
22. one of my favorite video games is command and conquer
23. i enjoy watching basketball and i like to play golf
24. i love corsets and latex
25. i like to watch cartoons when i can
26. i enjoy dark, twisted humor
27. when i am bored i like to get piercings, tattoos or gages
28. i love big cities and old, historic towns
29. i always have dark red, painted toes
30. words can move me to tears
31. when i come i can be violent, laugh or cry
32. i can masturbate without touching my cunt
33. i have three looks: i am about to fuck, i just got fucked and fuck off
34. i first had sex at 18, i am married to that man
35. i have had sex with 3 men
36. i was sexual at the age of 16 with another man
37. i have masturbated in the middle of class on many occasions
38. if allowed i would bite and scratch during sex
39. i have scarred my husband with scratches and nail digging
40. i drive a 5 speed and i love it, except in traffic
41. i sleep naked or in panties
42. i do not own a night gown
43. i have had orgasms in my sleep
44. i started writing in 8th grade
45. i prefer to write with pen and paper
46. i have been propositioned for threesomes on more then one occasion
47. i have fucked in a walk in refrigerator
48. i have fucked bent over my desk at work
49. at my previous job my much older assistant manager would grab my ass and i liked it
50. i used to send my previous assistant manager dirty emails
51. i believe in patterns and cycles
52. i love odd numbers
53. my cunt is always shaved and sometimes with a patch
54. i love finding bruises after a session
55. i enjoy the reminders of scratches and bruises
56. i had to call in sick once because of a bruise line on the front of my neck
57. i love being fucked till my cunt is raw and throbbing in pain
58. i have had to soak in the tub to ease the pain of a fucked raw cunt
59. if i was not married i would be the town slut
60. i am extremely picky about who i spread my legs for
61. i love being outdoors with my camera
62. i have been working since the age of 13
63. when i was a pre-teen an older boy would always try to touch me and fuck me for two summer camps in a row. he would touch my leg on the car ride to the camp.
64. i had a lesbian experience in my pre-teens with a girl i went to summer camp with
65. i have made out in a church parking lot
66. everyday i look at men and women that i would enjoy fucking
67. i can read someone in 5 minutes
68. i love watching a man jacking off
69. touching a hard cock makes my cunt wet
70. i am a computer geek
71. i love macs
72. i like the colors black and pink
73. i don't follow, i lead
74. i like to be in control
75. i once masturbated with a knife handle
76. i used to cut and burn myself
77. i can cook very well
78. i am half asian, german and irish
79. i have a bad temper at times
80. i am the one that fixes items around the house and puts furniture together
81. i harbor not guilt, no shame and no remorse
82. i love to sit under the stars at night
83. i love to watch and read porn
84. a physical hot button for me is whispering in my ears and hot breath on my neck
85. i have not been anally fucked in over 6 years
86. i enjoy being bent over the knee and spanked like a 5 year old
87. i am flexible
88. i don't mask life's pains, i deal with them head on
89. i like asphyxiation, choking, breath play, bondage, toys, rape, rough, spanking and list goes on
90. i love hearing a good voice and i am a sucker for english accents
91. my favorite sex positions are on top and from behind bent over the bed on my tippy toes
92. i mostly wear black bra and black panties
93. i carry an extra pair of panties in my purse just in case i get too wet
94. i have masturbated my whole commute home (45 miles) and soaked through my jeans and came in the driveway
95. i am naked or in panties in my house when i am home and i don't care if the windows are open
96. when i heard there was a peeping tom in our neighborhood i was secretly aroused
97. i love the smell of latex gloves when they are covering my nose and mouth or deep inside my cunt
98. E plans on kidnapping and raping me with other men. i am looking forward to that.
99. i enjoy getting my cunt stuffed and stretched out
100. i want to get fucked in my ass with a real cock again

the mind fuck

2006-08-19T01:28:00.000-07:00

i always talk here and there about a "mind fuck". there are few out there that do not understand what i mean by this term. i find a mind fuck much more addicting then just the act of fucking.

what is a mind fuck?

i am sure people can have various definitions and can relate differently to what this could mean to them. to me it is the mental aspect that sense that needs to be fondled in foreplay. being embedded with images so strong that they strike right between your legs. words that cause one to gasp, moan or sigh. sending chills throughout the body, the heart racing and causing the body to squirm uneasily.

it takes a great talent to fuck a mind. it is not as easy as just watching porn or seeing some pictures of boobs and cocks. it is tapping into that side of the mind that is played like an instrument. shaping and molding the thoughts to get a direct physical reaction. i can not count the number of times i have sat in wet panties at work. i can not recall how many moments i have snuck away to the bathroom to touch my swollen, wet cunt. i always smile when i can feel that wetness that someone else has caused.

you see, the act of fucking is like the "cherry" as my dear A would say. leading up to that moment of physical touch just enhances the experience knowing your mind is glowing from a "session". i love images dancing around frantically inside my mind as i am being railed relentlessly. i am sure that is why i am wet before i am even touched.

i thrive on anticipation. it is the golden key in my world. i push off that immediate and selfish need to get a quick fix. i let my build up linger and linger till i can not stand it anymore. that point of desperation to just have a release. waiting sometimes days as i keep letting my mind get fucked my various men. my mind is much more sluttier then my cunt. as i have fucked minds with many men and women. it is much more intense and satisfying having an orgasm that has been begging to be released then a small meaningless one. it is quality over quantity. it is discipline over convenience. i like to suffer for my lust.

my addictions are to words. my mind is hungrier then my cunt. i am always searching for that exceptional mind fuck. i always glow afterwards reveling in images and words. i just can not explain how important it is to tap into my mind to "get" me. don't send my flowers, candy or hallmark cards. send me pure x-rated lust in words. fuck my mind don't make love to it. i am a deviant not a "girl" and i thrive off of dark sexuality. give me the parts of you mind hidden deep within that you can not even share with your spouse. you know that you do not want to hold on to it to yourself, you need to share it, you want someone else to know what secretly arouses you. i want to know.

this need i have is insatiable and never really satisfied. this addiction is of the worst kind. i search hungrily and sometimes desperately. looking for that next "fix". give it to me at any cost. especially those few that give me just that. i always smile so mischievously when i see that email or that chat line. i know it will be a period of time that i am getting high off of lust. shifting in my seat feeling my wetness press against my panties and against my hardening clit. then taking those burning images to the bedroom as i am riding E and coming with such violent intensity. i can not count the times i have came thinking about another man's words in my mind.

i appreciate my gems and you know very well who you are. the lust you give me is addicting. my mind reels with thoughts of you. i always look forward to that chance email or encounter otherwise. there is definitely a talent you have that i am glad caused us to cross paths. perhaps is it fate that brings deviants together to make this little realm of our world a better place, at least for us. tonight will be a good night thinking of the words you have engraved into my dark mind. the physical influence you have on my cunt is as if you were right here touching me. you should be proud of that kind of power you possess. so smile, be a good boy and fuck my mind. you know i am never satisfied.

the intensity of rough

2006-08-18T11:17:00.000-07:00

sitting in the tub i was thinking about what just happened. i was almost conflicted with myself wondering why i did not say the safe word. did i want to say the safe word? for some reason it was not burning in my mind at the time. did i forget it the safe word? i never said stop, i never said no and yet tears streamed from my eyes afterwards. but, i did not want him to see me cry.

E's response to me afterwards was very dominating and commanding.

"get in the tub." i get in the tub and wash up while soaking. i had asked him if he was going to wash up with me.

"yes, stay in there", he tells me. i am almost surprised at this kind of interaction. his voice stern and knowing. perhaps i was more comforted in this then him asking me nervously if i was okay and if we should "talk".

the only thing E mentioned in regards to our session was asking me, "do you like sex that rough?" my response was, "yes."

earlier i had gotten myself ready for some kind of play with E. he was late and i was still in need of catching up on some sleep.

when i first got home i expressed to him my need for him physically. it has been too long and i was so hungry to be used. before he left for practice i shoved my hand down his pants and fondled his cock before his friend showed up. i told him not to come home late...that i needed him.

of course i was being a bitch when he got home. he ripped the blanket that covered me off and revealed me in a thong. my immediate reaction was to push him away. he hovered over me, forced himself down on me and overpowering me. he pulled me up by my arms twice and shoving me back into the bed. he pushed my face sideways with one hand while forcing two fingers inside my cunt with the other. i groaned and clenched my cunt around him. i was wet immediately and he called me a "fucking whore".

my legs were spread so cheaply and hungrily. i was no longer fighting him. i was submitting to his control. he shoved three fingers inside my mouth and told me to bite down. he kept telling me to bite harder as he so easily shoved my dildo inside my drenched cunt. i groaned with his fingers deep inside my mouth as he starred at me, fucking me with another cock. i could feel the bed soaking beneath me as he pounded violently at my cunt. i would clench and tighten to keep him from hitting my cervix, but i gave up and let him beat away at my cunt.

he pauses to get a scarf down from the wall. wraps it viciously around my neck and immediately pulls. i gasp and i grow dizzy. my eyes flutter and just when i feel i am going to pass out he slaps my face awake. he lets ups the scarf and pulls tightly again. i feel juices flooding from my cunt.

"grab the scarf with both hands!" he demands. i grab both ends of the scarf inside where his hands are placed.

"pull it tight!" he hisses. i do not hesitate and i pull. he continues finger fucking my cunt till my back arches upward. my pulls are not as strong as his, but it gets the job done.

pulling the scarf from both of my hands, he yanks me upward. i am standing with my back to him and he shoves my head right in the wet spot on the bed. i breathe in my sweet smell and feel the wetness on my face. i feel hard unforgiving smacks to my ass. i yelp in pain and he keeps telling me what a fucking whore i am. i feel a belt take to my ass and i cry out.

he grabs my hips and positions himself behind me. i feel his cock force inside me. i feel my cunt drench around him.

"make your cunt tight!" he snarls. i do as i am told. i tighten around him as he thrusts in and out of me. i can feel myself drench around his cock a second time. my juices running down my thighs.

without warning he pulls out of me and shoves the dildo back inside me roughly and deep. i pull on to my hands and he grabs my at my breasts. i feel his finger sink inside my tight ass. i can hear him mumbling he should shove my plug into me raw. i am nervous and i feel a small amount of lube hit my asshole. he works his finger inside of me and it pulls out. i feel my plug push against my ass and he forces it inside of me. i yelp and cry as my head shoots back. the pain stings and my foot slaps nervously against his leg. my agony rings in the room as my pain is vocal. he gets the clue that something is very wrong and pulls out the plug. i fall over on to the bed and the tears stream. i gasp to catch my breath and my hair covers my eyes.

he spreads my legs giving my cunt a deep insert from his fingers. i come sending more juices on to the bed and down my ass. he pulls out and puts two fingers in my ass and fucks it gently. i think it was his way of making sure i was okay with this.

E pulls me up and asks, "are you ready for a shower?" i nod my head quietly and he walks off to start a bath.

my slut in training

2006-08-17T11:21:00.000-07:00

an email i sent to S last week before i left:

i will be flying out of state this sunday and will be back wednesday night. since i will not be sitting in front of a computer all day those days. i would expect a daily email from you. i should be able to respond to them if i can get in front of a computer in the evenings. if i do not respond then you will know why.

i would like specific details of your sunday night masturbation. i want to know what you did and what you were thinking. make sure you do this correctly.

i think this time i will allow the use of your dildo. i want you to attempt to cum from just anal stimulation and your mind. do not touch your cock. fuck yourself like you are being fucked by another man. i want you to feel pain and pleasure. i want all 9 inches inside of you. if after a length of time you are unable to cum from this action you are allowed to squeeze your cock tightly. i want you to cum like you were a bitch though and i want you to cum from being fucked. do you understand what i want from you? i want you to control yourself and do as i ask.

your daily emails that follow after sunday's masturbation should reveal thoughts you are having and your anticipation of masturbating thursday evening. when disclosing your thoughts, i do not want you to include me in any kind of position or action that puts me in a submissive manner. i will not be sucking cock, pussy or touching any cum and getting fucked. i am certain you get the gist.

S's response:
I will be the bitch that you have ordered me to be. You will have full reports.

My response:
are you eagerly waiting for sunday now? can you not wait to have that dick head pressed against your ass? pushing in and stretching you open to accommodate that cock? being fucked like the slut that you are? tell me how you feel about what i have instructed for sunday night?

S's response:
I feel my pussy eagerly waiting for that large cock. It penetrating my bitch ass. I love being a fucking slut. A hole for horny guys to lose their nut. Back to the dildo. I have fucked myself numerous times years ago with it. Imagine how embarrassed I was when I bought it from the guy in the store. He knew I would be fucking myself with it like a little pussy bitch.

I am excited that you are using your control over my sexual activities. You should know how many cocks I have sucked and how many guys have fucked me in the ass.

My response:
mmmm you are a good slut. you will be so much fun.

i want you to suck that dildo the proper way before you get fucked.

S's response:
I absolutely love being your bitch. It would be so fun for you to be my pimp. What a great fantasy. Me sucking and fucking all day and giving you all the money.

Sorry for getting off track. Yes I will my dildo a proper blow job before fucking myself.

My response:
mmmm you make me smile. i think you will make a good and proper slut. i was still wondering if you were going to work out or not. but, i think you are trainable to suit my needs.

S's response:
I am very grateful that you accept me as your slut. I will not disappoint you. I do look forward to your training regimen.

with thanks

2006-08-17T10:56:00.000-07:00

i am so very glad to be home. now if i can just catch up on some much needed sleep i will be back to my usual, naughty, horny self.

i wanted to say thank you for the emails! you guys are awesome and i really appreciated it. mister h was nice enough to email me his current post which i found absolutely stunning. he did not give me the picture option. all though i did enojoy on your original post the "before" picture. nice jeans. *wink*

VP my darling! i just adore you and your email was well...damn. i will keep that between us. it was what spurred my need to have an orgasm and wet panties. that man has a wonderful talent with words.

another email from "K" and i promised that is all i will say. but, thank you.

let's see there is william, dirty, lusty demon and bunny that sent emails. oh those were a joy to read and put a smile on my face.

thank you!

a commercial break

2006-08-14T20:06:00.000-07:00

yes, i have been quiet and that is because i am in satan's asshole
(yes, i borrowed that from dane cook and no i am not at the dmv) and
the internet is not quite as high speed as claimed. so it is not like
it is worth blogging about my lack of sex or masturbation. i really
miss my home 3,000 miles away. airports suck ass and i absolutely hate
flying. okay, i am done whining.

luckily, i figured out how to post via email. for joy!

since i am unable to actually check blogs, please feel free to send me
emails with your lusty posts if you like or just send me an email.
that would put such a horny grin on my bitchy face. *smile* i miss my
addiction to blog land and my computer. most of all i miss all of you!
(awwww)

i keep finding guys starring at my chest and i know they are not
trying to read the name on my name tag. it is fun being a female in a
sea of men. granted most of them are older, married and well not so
hot. there are a few gems to stare at and one that keeps following me
around. i swear the waiter we had last night was trying to pick up on
us or he knew flattery would result in a good tip.

i will be home wednesday night. i absolutely can not wait and i am
counting down the days, hours, minutes and seconds.

the night before i left E bent me over the bed, pulled my jeans down
without unbuttoning or unzipping them along with my panties. he then
proceeded to spank me. he was asking me if i would behave while i was
gone of course i answered "no". E spanked me again and asked me again.
my answer "no" and he spanked me again. he stopped, said he wanted me
to be horny when i got back and i responded with "like that is ever a
problem". E responded with "don't get sassy with me". i was really
hoping he would punish me but i was rushing around trying to pack and
there was just no time.

well my deviants i need some sleep. i wish you all a horny and lusty week.

the grind

2006-08-12T08:54:00.000-07:00

that time again for me to be experiencing "the curse". however, E will lick me on request. there is something so...dirty about him licking me. granted i am clean as a whistle.

"let me see your pussy", he said laying by my feet. "spread your legs, move down here", he instructs.

i scoot down towards him and he pushes aside my black panties. he looks for just a second and his tongue hits my clit. i close my eyes and gasp for air. my breathing growing deeper and my arms squirming. my right hand travels to the back of his head, slowly down to the base of his head and meets the top of his neck. i push into this tongue and start to squirm in lust. moans start to come from my throat and i feel this slow climb that is teasing me. my hand goes down and opens my cunt more for E i feel the slippery wetness. his free hand is toying with my nipple, pulling and twisting. slowly so slowly my orgasm lingers and a small one pushes my creamy juices against E's tongue.

catching my breath my fingers toy with my wetness against my clit. E gets up and drops his boxers to the ground. my head at the edge of the bed i can see his hard on in front of my face. i want his cock so bad. i turn my mouth towards him and he shoves his hardened cock deep in my mouth.

"i want to fuck your mouth", he groans. i open wide and let him hit the back of my throat with rapid thrusts. i keep fingering my cunt as he fucks my throat. he pulls out and i see my saliva cling to his cock.

he positions me so my head is hanging off of the bed and he can have access to my cunt with his mouth. he plunges his cock deep down my throat as he tongues at my clit with my legs up and spread. i am pinned by his cock shoved inside of me as i suck him like a cheap slut.

E unlocks our bodies from each other and we lay down side by side. he gropes at my body, my breasts and my cunt. i am still craving an intense orgasm. i shove his fingers down my panties, "oooh you are creamy wet", he coos at me. while his fingers are rubbing against my clit, i press and direct him outside of my panties. it feels so naughty with this fabric between our skin. i feel like such a dirty slut, like a bad girl letting a boy finger her at her direction because she is the pro as he plays.

growing somewhat desperate for a raging orgasm i pull E's fingers from my panties and mount his leg. he seemed somewhat startled by my actions but realized quickly what i was trying to do.

"ride my leg bitch", he tells me.

i push my panties to the side and push my clit against his inner thigh. i start to grind into him. E pushes a finger into my mouth telling me to bite down and at the same time he is starring me square in the eyes. i gently bite down on his finger.

"bite harder", he said. i bite harder.

"harder", he chants and i bite harder.

"harder", he chants again and i respond with a harder bite.

my eyes start to roll back as i feel that orgasm just nearing. E shakes my head to open my eyes. i get into this trance and our eyes are locked. his finger still in my mouth and i know i am biting down harder and harder. my lip starts to curl upward as my orgasm hits and i know as i am coming i have a snarl in my lip.

"yesss", he moans and i come with intensity panting and heaving like a used slut.

i am going to miss him while i am away.

reflection of the deviant kind

2006-08-11T17:53:00.000-07:00

sitting here on a friday, dreading my upcoming flight out of state this sunday. my mind keeps wondering to a couple of nights with E.

my ass up in the air like the slut i am, latex gloves on his hand and my head buried in a pillow. him plunging three fingers immediately in my tightness and i can feel myself stretching to accommodate him. the pain mixed with the pleasure of just being used was just delicious.

"do you want your new toy?", he asked.

"yes", i whimper like a little slut.

"go get it", he said.

i get up and grab the container that it sits so proudly in. i hand E the container, he pulls it out and i get back into my position. he pushes that cock inside me and i groan like a hungry whore. i want it so bad and he gives it to me. he instructs me to rub my clit and i reach down and rub as my cunt is open, being fucked and drenched in wetness. E pulls out my toy and replaces it with his fingers, he hits my spot, i am bucking against his fingers like i am getting fucked by a cock. i could feel myself come on his latex coated fingers and i felt juices coming out. i love E's very skilled finger fucking.

last night i asked E to lick me. he was being rather rough slapping at my exposed ass, flipping me over, slapping my clit rather hard and finally licking away at my clit. my hand kept grabbing at the back of his head as i tried to grind into his face. he felt so good. he parted from me briefly to get a scarf and tightened around my neck as he resumed his licking. i arched my back and shuddered with his actions. i felt his finger start to rub on my swollen clit. he sat up beside me and covered my nose and mouth as he rubbed me fast. my body would start to panic as i slapped his arm and he lifted his hand only for a second for me to take in fresh air. just thinking about it now makes my cunt tingle.

lick the cum...

2006-08-09T19:33:00.000-07:00

i will warn my male readers now, this may not be something you will enjoy. then again, perhaps some of you would. it all depends on your...hmmm let's say openness.

this has come up before with several different males that i converse with and even with E. i may have mentioned it in a previous blog but one night while he was fucking me he told me that he would cum inside of me and then lick my cunt clean. the thought just makes me so aroused and wet. what makes me even more aroused if E were to cum inside of me and i would go to another male (preferably my male sub) and have him lick my messy, used cunt.

yesterday i was going back and forth via email with my dear N. he had mentioned that if he were to fuck me and cum inside of me that he would lick me clean. that thought just made me reeling the rest of the afternoon. i owe my dear N though. he wanted me to whisper his name as i came last night (that did not happen due to physical exhaustion). i told him i would do so:

"only if

you say/grunt/moan/yell my name when you cum tonight

and only if

you taste that cum"

my dear N responded with:

"mmm... yes... yes... grace, you speak my language -- we'd be explosive together... your name will be expressed.. as i excrete streams of hot semen... and then lick my fingers clean and think of what my cum would taste like inside of you... mixed with your fresh, hot juices..."

needless to say it is utterly hot to me.

--ADDITION--
a response from one of my boys J:
Gracie,
I just read your last entry and thought it was hot. Since you tend to like to raise the bar of extremes, here's an even better scenario: We take a trip down to Tijuana, you volunteer for the "donkey show," and I lick out that cum. The original suggestion by "N" was nice, but licking another guys' cum is somewhat gay. Now a farm animal, that just kinky. I don't know, food for thought. I'm still trying to give you something worth reading about, but the reality of my situation is a premature onset of carpel tunnel syndrome in the wrist. Well babe, take care, J.

wait with glisten

2006-08-06T10:19:00.000-07:00

it started with rather raunchy text messages before i left for work thursday.

"you are a whore"

"i want to oil you up and rape your pussy and ass"

it was in my nature to respond with smart remarks.

"so, i know that"

"i wish you would"

he did not like that and replied with, "i warned you about your sassy tone bitch".

i replied with, "good then rape me".

i ended this text session by sending him a topless shot of me in my jeans.

no peep out of him till he got off of work. he called me on his way home instructing me to do the following:

1. lay out all the toys for his easy access
2. lay down old blankets on the bed
3. light candles so he can see appropriately
4. wait for him in a red thong when he calls me when he is on his way home

i prepared the room, laid out the toys, laid down the blankets and lit the candles. i bathed, shaved and lotioned up. i was sitting in front the of the computer looking at porn and feeling my wetness coming from my cunt. at one point i reached down just to see how wet i was and i sat there or several seconds rubbing my creamy wetness. i always loved being a good consistency of wetness, it just felt so much better on my clit. he had called me and i went into the room and laid face down in the center of the bed with my legs spread. i glanced back at my legs and they were shining in the candle light. i knew he would find this pleasing to his eyes to see my legs and ass glistening in the low light.

he walked in and took his time before he even advanced on me. i waited without saying a word and in anticipation. he grabbed my ass and slapped it hard. he paced between each cheek giving me a rather forceful punishment. i knew i was drenching my thong and i had no idea what was in store for me.

his fingers pushed my thong aside, rubbed up and down the slit of my cunt, rubbing my clit and teasing my hole. i wanted his fingers inside of me so badly. he continued rubbing up and down and he slipped a finger in once and went back to rubbing. my ass jutted upwards when he inserted his finger. he randomly stuck in a finger once and went back to rubbing. i thought i was going to lose it. this motion went on for several minutes.

i feel liquid splash on my back and his hand spreading with a slippery motion. i feel more and now know it is baby oil being massaged briskly on my back, ass and legs. he comments on the shine and how it pleases him to have me like this.

pushing in my large butt plus i groan and pant. he first pulls me to his cock and he fucks me for a few minutes working me open. abruptly he pulls out and replaces his cock with my large dildo. i can feel it opening me all the way to accommodate the intrusion. i clenched this cock as he forced it in and out of my cunt. he threw my vibrator at me and told me to work my clit with it. i rub and i rub the the vibrator on my clit and i can feel the dildo working in and out while at times slipping from my tight cunt. i push hard on my clit fucking this man with a huge cock, i come violently swinging my head upward and releasing a loud groan. i fell on to my back panting and gasping.

he was not done with me, but i could not handle any more. he made me swallow my pride and blurt out the safe word if i wanted to stop. i was rather surly that he made me do it, but i did because i felt so spent and exhausted.

anticipation/frustration

2006-08-03T08:30:00.000-07:00

anticipation
frustration

one making the heart race
the other makes the mind pace

the waiting
the unknown

leaving this in another's hands
no control

fuming with desire
raging for answers

vulnerable skin
stubborn ears

quickened breath
beads of sweat

quivering blood
boiling emotions

tears pool
tears stream

trembling lips
fists clenched

starring intently
looking away

put in her place

2006-08-02T11:49:00.000-07:00

i was laying face down in the bed. i knew i was in trouble. E was washing up two new toys i bought on my way home, a much bigger butt plug and a new 7.5 inch by 2 inch vixskin dildo. the anticipation of that dildo going inside me was driving me wild all evening, the girth was much more then any dildo i had. i had been looking at porn online for over an hour before this moment. there was no controlling my squirming body. i pulled my ass upward to feel my g-string press against my clit. i have never felt so aroused, hungry waiting like this and delaying an orgasm instead of giving in to masturbation after seeing porn.

E grabbed, pulled and spanked my ass. i did not feel the pain, this was foreplay to me. i yelped at the hard swats and moved with the stings. he was lecturing me on my place in this sexual relationship. he fucks me, he tells me what to do and i am the slut.

i felt lube on my ass and i felt nervous having this bigger plug going inside. E started to push the first nub in. he sternly told me to relax. the first bulge went in and i yelped a bit. he tried to push in the rest, he used more lube and it went all the way in. i was groaning and moaning. i pushed my face into the pillow and savoring this moment of pleasure and pain.

fingers pushed deep inside. E was enjoying this new accessory in my ass. i squirmed with this motions. he mentioned the dildo was going to be too big to push in with the butt plug in. instead he pushes in his cock inside me and fucks me from behind. he pulls out forces in three fingers hitting my g-spot. his finger fucking is amazing.

i feel something soft push in. there is not resistance and i realized it was the new dildo. i gasp in and push my head into the bed groaning. this was a new sensation and so wonderful. E gave me the vibrator and told me to hold it on my clit. he controlled the speed and barked at me if i did not hold my ass in the air. keeping this kind of control was a challenge. i did my best till the wave of my orgasm struck me limp.

E turned me over and continued to work the dildo in my tense, tightened cunt. he pulled it out and replaced it with three fingers. he hit my g-spot immediately. he covered my nose and mouth with his free hand. i felt juices flowing from my cunt all over his fingers and the plug slipped out of my ass. my arms started to flail and he let me breathe.

"on the ground" he said.

i went straight for the ground as he threw down a pillow for my head. he still seemed mad, but he let me have a pillow. he shoved my head into the pillow telling me to masturbated. his hand grabbed a fistfull of hair has he wrapped a scarf around my neck. straddling me from behind he tightened the scarf. i never felt the sensation he was administering. i felt light headed and limp, i muffled a noise and let me free from the grip.

he pulled my head upward with the scarf like a leash making me get on my knees on the ground. he sat at the edge of bed with my collar in hand. he fastened the collar around my neck, laid back on the bed, motioned for me to stand up, bend over and suck his cock. he watched me bob up and down on his hardness. he told me to go all the way down. i worked him into the back of my throat. i did what he told me to do...lick his balls, lick his cock, suck it...all the way down...take it all in.

E positioned himself on the bed making room for me. he told me to lay down so he can look at my ass. i positioned myself spreading my legs slightly. he told me sway my ass from side to side, bounce it up and down. he told me to see how hard i made him and i glanced back to see him stroking his cock slowly. i mentioned to E i almost felt like passing out when he had the scarf around my neck. he replied with..."had i known that i would not have stopped".

today i am sore from my new toy and E's finger fucking. this is the way i prefer to be, to remember what happened the night before. i am curious to see how the next session goes.

wait no more

2006-08-01T07:46:00.000-07:00

i had been moping around the house all morning. i laid in bed next to E while he was still asleep. i was just in a thong, he woke up and groped my breast. he soon got up and i thought he was going to give me my much needed attention. i laid in bed waited...waited and i heard him on the phone. he got side tracked and i got frustrated. i threw on some sweats and a tank top and proceeded to clean up the kitchen. E soon followed behind me, pulled me in front of him, pinched my nipples and told me to get in the bedroom. he smacked my ass as i went to leave.

i stripped everything down and laid on my stomach. E came in, grabbed at my ass and started spanking.

"i am going to punish you for being moody last night" he said as he spanked my ass. i just squirmed in approval.

moments later i heard the snap of latex gloves and i knew it was going to be a good session. ass in the air and my arms outreached before me, he took his finger and rubbed it up and down the outline of my slit. i was already wet and he pushed a finger in to my tightness. i almost lost it feeling him inside of me. he pushed in another finger and it burned as he was opening me up. i feel lube dripping on my ass down to my cunt. in goes the vibrator into my ass and E expresses his liking as it slips in with not too much squirming from me. he then pushes in a dildo inside my cunt and fucks me violently. he starts to spank my ass with his free hand as he is working me over. he is telling me how much of a slut i am and how i enjoy cocks too much. i am hungry and uncontrollable yet he demands i stay still and behave. he takes a belt to my ass and whips me till nice red welts appear. i feel i have jumped over the edge and i am trying to control myself. he pushes my face into the bed, he wants to hear muffles, not my groaning.

E pulls the dildo from my cunt and works in two fingers while immediately hitting my g-spot. i lose it and i am fucking his fingers as i can feel the vibrator slowly slipping out of my ass as i am contracting my cunt. out slips the vibrator and in shoves a butt plug. E rubs his cock up and down before slipping it inside of me. he grabs my hips and thrusts in to me while admiring the butt plug. i savor his cock plunging in and out as sensations are shooting through my body. my hand darts for my clit and i rub while E continues to fuck me like the whore that i am. he pulls my hair to position my face as if i was sucking a cock while he fucked me. as i am rubbing myself i can feel E's cock slip out against my finger tips. i am drenched and he lets me fuck the air as i am about to come. he stands by and watches while slapping my ass. i feel it slowly creeping, that orgasm that i have been needing so much. it is teasing me and i am rather surprised that it does not hit sooner. suddenly it hits with intensity and my fingers are saturated. E pushes his cock back inside of me and i lose it. he enjoys the extreme tightness after i come. i scream into the bed as he uses me.

pulling out of me he lays on the bed in front of me.

"come suck my cock bitch" he said. i crawled over to him and started licking the tip.

"i want you ass in the air!" he barked, while gripping and pulling my ass upwards.

in a worshipping stance i licked my sweetness from his cock.

"all the way in" he demanded. my mouth engulfed his cock and i could really taste my cunt on him. i licked my tongue while sucking him off. up and down while taking his full length hitting the back of my throat. it was obvious he was getting off on this as he was rock hard. it was delicious.

since E has his own sexual deviancies, he pulled me off of his cock. we went about our day casually talking about how much of a slut i am, the blogs that i have been reading and making a laundry list of the toys we wanted.

i am not going to say it was well worth the wait, i hate waiting. anticipation is one thing, waiting too long is another.

a sex fiend on edge

2006-07-31T09:57:00.000-07:00

i have been on edge all week and moving into the weekend. it seems that everything is against me and getting laid. it is understandable as life gets in the way of selfish, deviant fucking.

being desperate i found a moment to please myself. vibrator, porn and two orgasms later i still was not satisfied and i trashed that activity. later on i am online and looking at more porn, then considered making attempts at masturbating again and i hear car doors slam. shit E and his friend are home. so now i feel like i am going to panic with need. i push it aside and we make dinner.

by the time i get into bed it is well past midnight and all of a damn sudden i am exhausted. E tries to entice me a little (not really) and i am not feeling it. yes...the sex fiend freak is not feeling it. WTF! i don't get it. perhaps tiredness won of horniness. it seems pathetic that my sex drive is stronger then E's, but that is just the way it is for now.

right now i can hear E snoring and damn it i am going to get rightfully fucked raw today. it is my last attempt to close this long weekend. i need that human interaction, that pain, that exchanging of words and the cock. masturbation does none of that for me. i need to be fucked so bad, i would love my version of Rex's Caveman Style, i read that and damn i want to fuck right now!

please...please

2006-07-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

i knew it was getting too late when i kept glancing at the time. being on edge all day did not help and that sexual tension just went to my neck by the end of the day. when E walked into the room to say goodnight i knew my chances of getting any kind of attention were pretty much next to null. i jumped up after him to make grave attempts.

i stripped down to my black panties in front of him and turned off the light. he mentioned he would suck on my tits if i hurried up. i did not make haste. i slipped into bed next to him, he pulled me on my side and his mouth went to my nipples. my eyes closed and i squirmed like a cock hungry slut. my hand kneaded his shoulder blade and i knew this was not going to satisfy. i felt so hungry, starved and desperate. i needed an intense orgasm...not wanted or desired. this was a primal need and his coy attempts were not going to work.

my moans grew louder as he teased and my back was arching just from his motions. E was going to pull away and leave me dying for lust. with that i whimpered..begged, "please, please". he almost responded with "what?" and instead he snapped. his hand pushed aside my panties and he started to rub my clit. i felt this antsy wave rush my skin and i was in a lust trance. his fingers sunk inside my drenched cunt and i spread my legs wide. my juices were seeping and i was creaming his fingers several times. he slipped in another finger and i smiled with that sense of being such a cheap whore. i wanted to be used and i wanted to get off badly. his fingers pulled out and methodically rubbed my clit. thoughts were racing in my mind and instead of his actions being somewhat repetitive or distracting it aided my thoughts. i had a small orgasm leaving my panties drenched and nice wet spot on the bed.

E got up to get me a wash cloth, still in my hypnotic lust trance i jumped up and went for the ground to masturbate. i was a bitch in heat that needed her fix or i was going to explode. i laid on my stomach and started to masturbate. i could see E's feet walk in the room and i knew he was starring. he came over and straddled me from behind, pushed my panties barely over the curve of my ass. i felt his legs squeeze my thighs tightly, he spread open my ass and pushed down, this was new. not seeing him, i knew he was starring right at my open ass. i got off on that thought and him pushing down assisted my masturbation. i came with intensity arching upwards exposing my breasts. E got up from his position and i continued for two more intense loud orgasms. i kept rubbing my hungry cunt against the carpet like i was fucking the ground. my hips swayed afterwards with my panties still pulled down. He handed me a cold wet washcloth and i yanked my drenched panties off. i was on my knees against the bed and when that washcloth hit my clit i fell into the bed. i have never felt so horny to fuck. i almost came against the washcloth and i knew E was watching in amazement.

we settled back in bed and i assisted E in cumming himself. except this time i was rubbing on my clit while doing my duties. i know tonight E is going to fuck me silly because as i write this i am tingling in my cunt.

these busy weeks have got to stop.

hmmmm thursday

2006-07-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

all though i am not one to follow the heard, i thought i would make a smalll contribution to this thing called...HNT. so my lovely deviants, don't ever say i did not give you anything. catch a glimpse while you can, i can not be certain this picture will stay up permanently. i like to keep my alter ego masked as much as possible. unlike clark kent i do not want to take my chances.

and while i have your attention...

i would like to share with you a song that popped up on my iPod today that got me...well...aroused:

darling nikki
-prince

I knew a girl named nikki
I guess u could say she was a sex fiend
I met her in a hotel lobby
Masturbating with a magazine
She said howd u like 2 waste some time
And I could not resist when I saw little nikki grind

She took me 2 her castle
And I just couldnt believe my eyes
She had so many devices
Everything that money could buy
She said sign your name on the dotted line
The lights went out
And nikki started 2 grind

The castle started spinning
Or maybe it was my brain
I cant tell u what she did 2 me
But my body will never be the same
Her lovin will kick your behind
Oh, shell show u no mercy
But shell shonuff shonuff show u how 2 grind

Woke up the next morning
Nikki wasnt there
I looked all over and all I found
Was a phone number on the stairs
It said thank u 4 a funky time
Call me up whenever u want 2 grind

Come back nikki, come back
Your dirty little prince
Wanna grind grind grind grind grind grind grind grind grind

my fellow deviants

2006-07-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

i am rather amazed at how addicting it is to have that window into another soul's world. whether or not is 100% true does not matter. it is that voyeuristic act of peeping into what happens behind closed doors. i am also rather pleased that i am finding others like me or similar in their tastes as i am. it lets me know as i have assumed that i am not the only freak of a woman out there.

in the past month or so i have discovered several blogs that strike my fancy:

Anonyma
this delicious creature writes so well and that alone spurs my interest. however, what allures me even more are her lovely fingers and lips. she is a delight and i still have catching up to do on her blog.

Cheating Nymph
i can relate to her on several levels. i enjoy reading on her sessions with her daddy. it is delicious to read about pure lust.

Dirty & Thirty
a delicious couple with a massive dildo that i envy (i need to get one of those). their pictures are scrumptious and i enjoy their posts greatly.

Getting Wet & Mouth Watering
a beautiful couple that have a healthy appetite for naughtiness. i adore the photos they post and their wonderful comments.

Kindabiz
this man's exploits while on tour....amazing. he seems to play with a rainbow of experiences and open to new ones. i am rather jealous of how good looking the women he is banging are. can say he has good taste. i am patiently waiting for his next bit of naughtiness while back at home.

Lust Demon
oh the name alone....mmmmmm. his writing can be touching and however, it can be naughty. my favorite post is the lessons learned.

Married With Sex
mmm nothing hotter then a wife slave. she is such a wonderful sub and she makes me look like a terrible sub. that is okay i do not claim to be a full on sub anyways. i like too much control. her sex with her husband is hot and i love reading about it.

Mr. Husbland
i spent some time reading through his archives. i can relate to the pain staking chore of "making a baby". it is nice to see someone young achieve so much. his cheesey humor and naughty desires are entertaining.

Naughtier Nate
i found naughty nate a while ago. he has a very dark sexuality that is very compatible with my own. he and i exchange delicious emails back and forth. he has inspired several posts on my blog.

Nightside Johnny
i enjoy his theories and thoughts on females and the human species in general. his experiences are include the bad and good. his dark side is what appeals to me and i still have some reading to catch up on with this blog. oh and i enjoyed his picture for his no rules thursday and i am glad the few of us gals talked him into posting it.

Pandora's Box
she has quite the following and her photos are delicious. however, she may be going a different path in her blogging life. that is understandable and i support it. i enjoy her writings and i hope she continues with it.

Pyrhonik
i enjoy his posts, some pose to make one contemplate the subject. he seems to have a healthy sense of humor and i look forward to more rants.

Rex & Roxy
another great couple. i love the photos, they are artistic and i can appreciate the images. the posts are wonderful and realistic including "rugrat" interruptions and even stubbing toes. ouch.

NOTE: do not see your blog listed above? well that is because i have reading to catch up on you and i do not know enough to say this or that. sit tight and i will get to you on the next round. *wink*

E's little slut

2006-07-25T13:00:00.000-07:00

as E was binding my hands together with black bondage tape, it was clear he did not want me touching myself.

i laid there still on my back, hands above my head and i could hear E snap on some latex gloves. my cunt contracted at the thought of what lay ahead. he laid up next to me, pushed my legs apart like a the slut that i am, dug two fingers inside of me and the other hand over my nose and mouth. i love the smell of latex gloves and even more the feeling of just being used. my eyes fluttered as he forced his fingers inside my tightness working it looser and looser. he would sporadically lift his hand from over my nose and mouth for air. i seem to be tolerating longer sessions of no air. my cunt was drenched with juices flowing.

E flipped me over and demanded i stick my ass in the air. my arms bound and stretched out before me, he dripped lube on my ass and i squirmed when it dripped down to my pussy. without compassion he shoved in a vibrator into my ass and aggressively instructed that i keep that inside of me as he shoved in a dildo inside my cunt. concentrating on keeping a vibrator in my ass while he was fucking me with a dildo was torment. i could not get lost in the pleasure, yet it was a tug of war on pleasure and control. eventually, the pleasure won and the vibrator slipped out and i was punished with a belt to my ass leaving large welt marks.

freeing my hands from the tight, tape bond E let me work a vibrator on my cunt as he finger fucked me while adding a dildo in to stuff my cunt. i came with intensity and overwhelmed with so much stimulation. i felt so sore and used and E was not done. he rubbed his hard cock on my cunt and slid inside of me. immediately he was ramming me almost making my teeth chatter. the pain of him fucking me was delicious and i did not want it to stop. his words were dirty as he told me i was a slut that liked to suck cock and that i would suck cock for money. he knew what to say to move me. he pulled out of me and came right up against my ass. i felt it drip down to my cunt, hot and wet.

i do enjoy being a cock hungry slut.

hunger no more

2006-07-24T00:05:00.000-07:00

i was laying on my stomach absolutely naked on the bed. catching up on tivo'd shows with my legs slightly spread.

e came into the bedroom which he does randomly if we are not in the same room. he likes to check up on me. except this time he pushed my legs apart and shoved his hard cock in my cunt. naturally i was not expecting him to do all of that. i did not fight it, shit i have been aching for it. he grabbed the remote and shut off the tv and proceeded to fuck the shit out of me. his nails dragged down the center of my back welting up my flesh. the burn and the fucking was delicious. he pushed my head into the bed, gripped my ass and pounded me. he vibrated my whole body with his infliction. panting escalated to moans and ended with grunts. he abruptly pulled, shoved in two fingers immediately hitting my g-spot and milking an orgasm for over a minute. i was shuddering, convulsing and creamed his fingers.

"get on the floor and masturbate" he barked.

i started to move off the bed and he grabbed a handful of my hair and said "on the floor, now, now".

he threw down a pillow and i positioned myself on my stomach. he straddled me and shoved in a dildo. he violently fucked me silly as i concentrated on coming.

"i want you to take your time, come slowly" he whispered.

"come slow" he whispered as he wrapped a scarf around my neck. my orgasm hit very slowly as the scarf tightened around my throat. it was very gratifying yet it sustained much longer then usual. my cunt tightened around the dildo that stayed inside me. i can tell following E's instructions pleased him.

he pulled my ass upward towards his cock and he fucked me again. my knees and elbows dug into the carpet as he forced himself back inside my even more tightened cunt. every time he shoved back inside me i tingled with pleasure from the elongated orgasm. i tend to lose all control when he fucks me at this stage. everything so sensitive and heightened. his grip became tighter on my hips and i focused on milking his cock inside me. tighter...tighter...tighter with that he exploded deep within.

and now...i seek more pleasure. amazing fucking is addicting.

what i am missing now

2006-07-21T21:53:00.000-07:00

being naked
laying next to E
E's tongue between my legs
a violent much needed fucking
air conditioning
my bed
an intense orgasm
mental stimulation
E's cock ramming inside me
a spanking
asphyxiation
talking with E
touching E's hard cock
licking E's hard cock
sucking E's hard cock
squeezing E's hard cock
E's lips on my breasts
E's tongue on my nipples
E's mouth on my neck
E's breath in my ear
moaning
screaming
cursing
panting
gasping
squirming
thrashing
convulsing
whimpering
shuddering
sweating (wait i am doing that now, but not in a good way)

i need to fuck...so so bad

lick me

2006-07-21T11:17:00.000-07:00

freshly shaven and lotioned up, i laid in bed waiting for E to kick his friend out of the house. he came in the room, i was wearing the thong he loves so much and i turned over and told him to lick me. he pushed the thong to the side and started to lick my clit. that stimulation was intense for me, my mouth dropped open, my head went upward and my back arching. my nails started to dig into his back. he whispered to "watch the nails" and i did my best to not dig as hard. moans escaped my mouth and my body started to squirm.

he let his tongue free of my cunt and two fingers pushed inside me. my moans grew louder and i tightened around his fingers. hungry to fuck, he kept finger fucking me and i felt myself cream on his fingers. his pace grew faster and a little rougher and i shuddered in pleasure. he pulled his fingers out and i could feel juices seeping.

i still need to fuck...bad.

learning curve

2006-07-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

learning means correction

correction means discipline

discipline means pain

pain means pleasure...at least to me.

back and forth deliciousness

2006-07-20T14:49:00.000-07:00

like i said...can not think about work today. it is by luck an old friend decided to email me. he enclosed some rather delicious pictures showing me he thought of me and what that had done to him. i will say i was rather pleased with a grin. he told me of a new "toy" he is going to try out this weekend. he even showed me pictures of her and asked what i thought. she looked delicious.

our emails went back and forth nearing 50.

he wanted me to tease...since i am one to not disappoint...

ME:
when you fuck your toy..that first time when you cum. think of me.
then she can be yours after that.

HIM:
in the meantime, i should have my toy this weekend... and the first time.. it will be you -- and she will feel an intensity she has never before known...

after that... she is all mine... by monday, she'll be lucky to be walking
before the weekend... do tease me... so i can unleash on the toy

ME:
as you fucking me mentally while physically fucking the
toy...delicious. that makes my cunt tingle with joy. if not making me
squirm in my chair.

fuck her hard, fuck her long. make her beg to come and make her beg
for your cum. make her crawl on all fours and keep her on her knees.
use her raw. fuck her throat and cum down it. use her cunt till she
begs for you to stop...but don't stop. she is just that a toy...for
you. use her and all that pent up lust...fill her cunt and ass with.

HIM:
i shall take her as i would you were you here
i will give her everything building inside of me

she will feel used, worn, and exhausted... a smile will come to her face when she remembers being used that badly... being raw, open, and exposed for me

there is a lot of building up to account for... and besides, toys can help you practice... before the sinful delights of the real thing are made available.. it will be you, grace, in my mind... and her body i make my own

she may become "our" toy in a sense ... as you derive pleasure from knowing your instructions are being carried out ...as you delight in celebrating in my thoughts of you executed on her body...
tease me... and inspire me...

Me:
now i know there has to be a wet spot in my panties.

just thinking about the naughty things you can put her through and
saying "our" toy is very gratifying to me. i do enjoy such
engagements...very much.

i want her to take every inch of you in her mouth. all the way in
gagging and tearing up. fuck her throat till it is raw. i want her
orifices hurting. make sure she keeps her tongue out the whole time
like a good toy should.

when you are on top of her fucking her stuff 3 fingers in her mouth.
when you are fucking her from behind stuff her wet panties in her
mouth and shove a fat dildo in her ass. use as much of her at the same
time as possible.

want to play harder...cover her nose and mouth when you fuck her.

want to play even harder...but your hand around her throat when you fuck her.

want to make me happy...take your lovely belt and wrap it around her
neck when you fuck her from behind. like a good toy with her reigns.

own her, make her repeat lines saying she is your slut...a good
slut...she loves to be used and fucked. make her say them to your
liking if not punish her.

make sure her body takes in every bit of your cum. do not waste it on
walls, beds, floors. she needs to have every drop in her. like a good
toy should.

HIM:
damn...

indeed... she will be ours by the end of the weekend - yours and mine, grace

we will have possessed her...

and she will never forget... and by tuesday, she will be longing for more... more -- though sore, bruised, pained... she will want it again... want us to take her again

right now, at this moment

2006-07-20T10:43:00.000-07:00

i am sitting here trying to start my work day and i have the attention span of a nat. however, there is one thing that seems to be the common root denominator to this current equation...fucking.

it has been a while since i have had a rough session with E. our schedules are conflicting this week along with social/family obligations that we can not just avoid. the other night before i masturbated he had me bent over the bed as he was punishing my ass. he said i was being mouthy lately and needed to be put in my place. he made mention of bringing out all of the toys and working me over. alas, we were just both exhausted.

right now, at this moment i need a thrashing of a fuck session. i have touched on rape or being "taken" in the past. i mean what i say and i am not going to get into the "oh it is wrong to think like that" blah blah blah. this is what i want, this is my realm and what i say goes.

he is aware of the rape desire. at times we have come close to such acts. but i want it now. i want the force of a cock being shoved into my not so ready cunt. the problem with wanting that is my cunt always seems to be ready...because i want it. no matter, it is still a delicious mind fuck for me. having him exert such aggression on me as i am fighting back, but really giving in. hair pulling, ass gripping, scarf around the neck, cock in the throat, biting, scratching, double penetration and i want it. i want the snarl in his lip and i want a curl in mine. it is just so easy to give in once a cock invades the boundaries. i am okay with that. to complete such a desire is for him to take my ass. it has been years since my ass has been taken by a cock.

i want to be taken. i want to fuck now. i need it and this feeling just grows and grows. as i would let him have his way with me, i would dig each long nail into his flesh leaving marks that will remind him of his acts. i would bite his flesh breaking the skin, yes, i would lick that wound and taste his blood. i do enjoy the little scars i have given him over the years. they are reminders of those intense times we have shared.

now back to our show

2006-07-19T10:16:00.000-07:00

C left for home yesterday and cleared out before i made it home from work. as much as i love easy on the eye company, i do enjoy being nude and loud in my dwelling.

freshly bathed and laying on my back exhausted in the dark room, E laid the opposite and i could see he laid in such a way that he could see between my legs. with the glow of the tv behind my head i spread open my legs and let my fingers rub on my clit. i knew he was watching and i closed my eyes to enjoy my masturbation. i felt his fingers rub up and down the slit of my pussy. i kept rubbing and hoping he would sink a finger or two deep inside me. shortly after making such a wish he slipped a finger in my wet heat. i started to squirm and his finger pulled moans from my mouth. i kept rubbing and fucking his finger slowly. i could feel myself grow so tight around his finger and then release, i wanted to milk his finger inside me like a cock. i moved as if E was fucking me...ever so slowly. my back would arch every few thrusts and i had sweet orgasms that coated E's finger. he slowly pulled out his finger and i felt the slippery wetness on his finger brush up against my fingers that were rubbing slowly.

i enjoy watching E jack off. it is a turn on to see him so hard and aroused. his hand moving up and down. just touching and squeezing a hard on is like a switch for me. i must have it inside me, i need to feel that hardness plunge deep and i want to come on it.

with that i have to stop, being at work this early in the day does not help for productivity and i am certain masturbating in the bathroom does not constitute as "work" per say.

worth the wait...the tease

2006-07-17T16:28:00.000-07:00

emotions fester and grow
materialize into images
inspire actions
force words to be spoken

needing to feel
skin upon mine
invoke a flood of colors
throughout my body

leaping from my mouth
my skin
my sweat
my nails

i was waiting for E to come home. he decided to go out with the boys for drinks. i was not in a state to get up dressed, etc. i fell asleep waiting. at around 2 am he comes in the room. he throws off the covers and positions me at the edge of the bed. he pulls me up to kiss me and i can taste the alcohol on his lips. he lets me fall back and spreads my legs. he licked me and it felt like a rush of caffeine to my head. being in such a needful state and feel his tongue flick at my clit made me want to scream. yet, i had to keep quiet because C was sleeping. E keeps licking and licking and i come on his tongue with juices flowing.

at this point i am unsure if we are fucking of he is just going to play with me. he turns me over and sinks his fingers inside my cunt. i grip tightly around him as he searches for my g spot. i still feel so groggy and yet hungry. he pulls his fingers out and pulls my hips towards his cock. i thought i would be in more control and if i had not been so tired i would have been crafty about making E ask to fuck me. instead i kept pulling my cunt away and near his cock. i did this a few times till he grabbed my hips and sank himself inside me. that feeling, oh that feeling of a hard cock invading my body is just amazing to me. i don't care if i come or not, i love that feeling, that act, that motion. want to make me happy...fuck my cunt.

however, i did get to fuck him as he had me climb on top of him after a few thrusts from behind. i sank down on his hardness and started to fuck him hard. i leaned down and let him have his way with my breasts. my still foggy mind started to think of T and that moment of him fucking me and i felt that climb on an intense orgasm. i was on track and the emotions will piling inside of me and with that i came. my cunt fluttered on E's cock and i fell off of him.

as far as control...well i did not let E come last night. i figured if i was not going to get him to ask, well i was going to determine his cumming.

before you think i am a bitch, i gave him a massage today and assisted in his cumming. he is a happy boy today.

he who teases

2006-07-16T21:18:00.000-07:00

this building of need is becoming more apparent.

we were in the kitchen making lunch and i had walked behind E and went straight for his crotch. i stood there for several seconds feeling his cock. E asked if i was horny...of course he knew the answer.

i walk down the hallway to the bedroom and at that very moment of walking by the guest bathroom C opens the door in a towel. i glance at him through my peripheral vision and walk into the bedroom.

the boys went off to the movies and i decided to rest my body from running around the city. i was out cold and E came in the room after getting back in and ready to leave for practice. he came to the side of the bed and grabbed on my breasts. my body squirmed in need. i told him to kiss my breasts. he pulled my top down and exposed my flesh. he did not hesitate and bent down to ravish. i pulled is hand down between my legs. i squirmed even more as he grabbed at my hip and butt.

he stood up and and flipped me on to my stomach. ripping my sweats and panties down his finger went straight inside my cunt. i was not expecting him to do this and i let out a moan. E whispered for me to be quiet as his friend B was on the other side of the wall watching tv. in return i buried my face into the bed and gripped at the blanket. he teased my cunt for a few more seconds, pulled out and pulled up my sweats with panties. he came around and kissed my lips, pushing his tongue inside my mouth and then moved to my neck. he pulled away saying he did not want to get me too worked up. that man knows me too well.

as he left and kissed me goodbye, he smirked with the remark of he likes making me wait. i smiled back at him. i am going to get him to ask to fuck me tonight.

hunger building

2006-07-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

i am hungry to fuck. in such a need that i am just tingling between my legs and i have my legs clamped closed in fear i will just fuck my chair silly. the problem with reading blogs that are sexually well written is it makes me want to fuck in a bad way. the images dancing through my head as my eyes are frantic to take in the next word and the next. it is amazing what people share.

this pent of sudden urge to fuck is a consequence of doing a photo shoot all day in the city and pushing my "need" to the side. the one thing that seems to take priority of my sexual deviancy is photography. i was shooting E and C all day and we really had a blast. i got some other gems along the way as my eye is always "on" with my camera in hand. when i got home late last night i was laying there so determined to at least masturbate. alas, i was too exhausted to work up that kind of energy to come. i can not remember the last orgasm i had, it must have been last monday.

on our way driving to our last photo shoot destination i was explaining to E my desire to shoot nudes. i was expressing the need to find a professional studio to rent out here and there when i needed to do these types of shoots. E said "the problem with doing nudes is finding someone willing to do them". with that C chimed in with "i will do it, anytime". you see i already knew C would do it and perhaps that is why i brought up the subject. we have brushed on the topic before but i was uncertain of just how serious he would be about it. my plan in motion and now i am must find a studio to shoot my naked subject.

mmmmm, need to fuck. i wonder if E will just let me have my way and let me fuck him tonight. i could use a good "ride". or....should i just wait one more night and be in more control of myself and make E ask to fuck me. hmmmm decisions and decisions.

late night deviant

2006-07-15T00:36:00.000-07:00

right now...at this very moment. i am a horny, antsy, zombie, deviant. if that makes any sense to anyone. E's friend C is in town. i am rather excited about another male in the dwelling for a weekend. E knows that i find C rather...tempting. when E arrived home to tell me the news, i was thrilled. C is great eye candy.

it is just fun to hang out with the guys considering i tend to play better with men versus women. i am still trying to find a woman like myself. the reason you wonder? i want to fuck myself. yes, i want to fuck myself. to find another woman deliciously deviant and sexually dark like myself will be a dream come true. i am sure E would just love it also.

still looking for her...

earlier this evening i was sitting at the edge of the tub zoning out while washing myself. my finger circled and rubbed on my clit and then i focused on the act. my skin bumped up tingling with longing and my eyes started to flutter. my lips parted as i was tentative to my swelling clit and that feeling of pleasure. i did not allow an orgasm. i was not up to it. i want to come so bad, yet i am sexually starving myself. a reason? not really one. however, i am starting to pent up in a need. i do enjoy that almost virginal feeling after going without for several days.

i always suggest my term "sexual suicide" to those that interact with me. it is not what you think. it is just starving that sexual need till it is unbearable and you want to reap havoc upon the world. don't know that feeling? my my i suggest you do it till you are filled with surly rage. come find me if you have questions. i will be glad to elaborate.

the one that manipulates

2006-07-14T12:07:00.000-07:00

E came home from practice to find me sprawled on the bed. i was on my stomach, legs spread in just black panties and pretending to care what was on tv. he went straight for my ass and i asked him to kiss my pussy. he refused complaining it was late, etc. etc. and i kept asking nicely. of course he caved in. i rolled over on to my back and spread my legs for him. he pushed my panties over and started to lick my clit. the thought of him bending to my will aroused me and i started to breathe heavily. i gasped a few times, but not to an orgasm. i did not expect one, only for him to do what i had asked. when he came up i smiled and wiggled a little, i was satisfied with my intent for him this evening. he saw this, asked if i enjoyed it, i smiled and said "mmhmm".

i knew he was not going to press for sex. it was late and he had to get up in 5 hours. we went to bed and i let him grope my breasts. my hand went between my legs, under my thin panties and i felt the wetness from his licking. i started to jerk a little in his arms and E decided he wanted to suck on my flesh. i continued to rub myself but i really did not want to come. when E stopped soon afterwards i stopped.

on my way in to work this morning i was thinking about how i enjoy licking the tattoo he got many years ago that is my name in family's language on his arm. i realized that E to some degree has been branded with my name for years now. yet, i still sit here unbranded and he is my supposed dom. hmmmm. i do have every intention of putting an "E" behind my ear. he is just not pushing for it. i am itching for another tattoo now. perhaps i will give him a surprise.

the ultimate controller

2006-07-13T14:36:00.000-07:00

i can tell E is getting antsy about fucking me. due to natural events beyond my control E will have to wait to fuck me. it has been since monday since he fucked his pussy.

last night i could tell he wanted it as he rubbed his cock in his underwear. today, i am sitting here reveling in the fact that he wants it and i am not giving it. usually, i am not one to make a man suffer with absence but today...well i am enjoying this. i have a smirk on my face knowing that E wants it and he wants it bad. it is nice to be lusted and wanted, especially starring right in his eyes and seeing it. i like having ultimate control whether he realizes it or not. right now i see him waiting, waiting for me to give in. i want him to suffer a little. secretly i want him to beg for it, i want to be the dom and i want him to admit it. i want him at my mercy and me looking down upon him with my famous evil grin. to sexually torture him sounds so delicious. i am going to make him ask to fuck me next time. i want him to need my cunt, not just want it...but need it. i want him to need to be inside of me...like an addiction. only then will get it and i will love every moment of it.

last night i let him grope at my body and suck on my nipples. for some reason he wanted to lint roll the black panties i had on. not giving it a second thought i let him roll my full ass and turned over and let him roll over my cunt. for some reason he thought it was rather submissive of me to let him do that. i did not see it that way. perhaps it is the state of mind to think if something is submissive or dominant. i felt inside he was my slave tending to my body, he thought he was the owner of a "pet" and he was taking care of his favorite pet. either way i saw it my way while he saw it his. works for the both of us i imagine.

i need a righteous fucking though. reading all of these various blogs and especially an email from a "friend" has me reeling. i almost want to sneak off to the bathroom to let go of this pent up arousal. squirming in my chair is not helping any.

physical attraction

2006-07-12T14:13:00.000-07:00

all though a mind is what captures my arousal more so then anything else. i can not lie, there are some physical attributes that when i see in the male or female species...i just moan a little on the inside.

MALE
shaved heads
piercings
glasses
tattoos (especially on the forearms)
clean shaven
not a lot of body hair
smell good
t-shirts or tight fitted dress shirts and jeans
tall
delicious voice

FEMALE
great hair
great makeup
full breasts
full ass
tight shirts and jeans
high heels
tattoos
piercings
glasses
smell sweet
yummy voice

naked lazy sunday

2006-07-10T16:40:00.000-07:00

each day it seems there is just something fun around the corner. e and i were in the kitchen yesterday morning. i was cleaning up and milling around. we were both naked and i am not sure how i deserved the following treatment. i am almost certain i said something smart to him.

the next thing i recall is me bent over our small table, my head pressed under his hand against the cool wood and his hands deep inside my cunt. i am gripping the edges of the table. he had forced my legs spread and i was on my tippy toes. he would take a few swipes at my ass and continue with fucking my cunt with his fingers. i then felt him push inside of me grabbing at my hips fucking me relentlessly.

i enjoy those lazy days when we are naked more then we are clothed. we fucked morning, noon and late night. it is one of those moments when one can appreciate not having kids or roommates to be able to lounge around naked touching, groping and fucking whenever needed.

we were watching a movie late last night. i was in my ritual thong with my head in his lap. he was rubbing and touching my back. soon, i really could not focus on the movie as i just secretly wanted his fingers on and in my pussy. i started to move my ass as his hand would near it and move back up my back. i glanced in the mirror and saw that he took notice to my movements, soon his mind was not on the movie. he paused the flick and dug his fingers inside me. i grinded against his fingers aching to come. my hand went underneath and i started to rub my clit. i could feel e's fingers brush against mine as i rubbed till i came on his three fingers.

he told me to turn over as he got up to get a scarf. he wrapped it around my neck and started to squeeze it tightly. he pushed between my legs and shoved himself inside me dry. everything just slowed down as the scarf grew tighter and tighter around my neck. my eyes rolled back and fell shut. being in this state felt like being drunk, i could hear and feel but my eyes would not open. e fucked my limp body cumming inside me as he tugged violently on my nipples. my eyes would flicker open and shut. slowly i started to regain my limbs and enjoy the his cum seeping from my sore and used cunt.

the girl who got collared

2006-07-08T22:17:00.000-07:00

E had told me to close my eyes and he stood behind me and wrapped that leather collar around my neck. quite a moment of excitement. as you can see the leash is next, just not in this round.

keep in mind i am not a true sub. not sure if that will eventually happen. it is uncertain at this point in the path. i am an individual that just enjoys deviancy and debauchery. i revel in dark sexuality and get aroused and just about anything sexual. the naughtier the better in my book.

i enjoyed how E would tug on that metal ring and pull me towards him so he could talk to me or kiss me. i find it a nice accessory to a pair of panties. E mentioned last night as i collapsed after an intense orgasm that he enjoyed the noise the collar makes as i move around.

we spent last night discussing my dark little mind. he growing more comfortable with my wants and desires. i had two orgasms riding his hand as he talked to me about the naughty things he wants to do with me. afterwards he fucked me as i contracted against his cock. he turned me over and finger me to soreness. he shoved in three fingers and the pain of him stretching my cunt was delicious.

i was explaining to E as we were catching our breath how i had this thought of him cumming inside my cunt. then i would get up, leave, go to another man's house and have that man lap up E's cum from my messy cunt. after this man made me cum with this tongue, i would get up and go back home to E. well, E thought that was twisted but that thought just gets me so aroused.

the discussions continued again today when E got home from work to find me waiting for him on the bed in just a g-string. we went to dinner discussing our sex life. he feels is coming to terms with me sleeping with another man. as he is coming to this conclusion and brought up the subject on his own. all the while he is noticing other men catching glances at my chest that is bulging in an almost see through and tight t-shirt. i should have known since before we left for dinner he mentioned i was such a tramp because you could see my black bra through my grey shirt.

what can i say?

i say nothing.

*smile*

talk to me

2006-07-07T11:44:00.000-07:00

E has greatly impressed me with his progression down this little path we have started. i feel i have created a monster. he has recently learned and experienced the benefits of talking to me while fucking me. he has never really been one to be very verbal, but that has all changed.

it all started with some text messages he sent me earlier in the day...

"Rule #1
Slave girl grace is to wear only a thong when indoors."

"Rule #2
Slave girl grace is to submit herself to an nightly inspection of her body by her master."

i responded with going to purchase more thongs and g-strings for when i am indoors. he came home to find me freshly bathed, shaven and in new panties. he immediately hardened to the new g-string. i thought we were just going to go to bed since he was complaining about needing sleep. however, that was not the case.

he talked me into him giving me oral, i never pass up on that, he slipped my panties to the side and licked me till i was wet. he climbed in between my legs and forced himself deep inside me. i have not had him on my back in a while and it felt painful and wonderful.

E started to tell me how he wanted to slip me a roofie in my wine, take off my shirt, bra and leaving on my jeans. then he proceeded to tell me he and a friend would touch me and cum on me. his friend wanted to cum on my feet and lick it off of me. my cunt tightened around his cock the more he told me. i asked him if his friend would cum on my pussy and ass, E said those areas were only his to cum on, not the friend. E set me over the edge when he told me if i was a good girl, he would lick his own cum from my body. i have always wanted that from him and he could feel my heightened arousal. he told me i was tighter then last night and i smiled. he then mentioned how he wanted to watch 18 year old boys use my body. E egged it on saying they would not know what to do with me, their mouths all over me, leaving their saliva all over me. i drenched the bed in wetness and came on his cock.

he texted me the following this morning:
"I like your new g string. It will make those boys' dicks hard when they kidnap and rape you."

he then called me and wants to discuss my dark mind as he digging into a realm that there is no turning back.

wanted: submissive female

2006-07-07T06:57:00.000-07:00

i want a female

toy

slave

sub

i want to abuse, torment, use and punish her in every deviant way. i want to push her to her limits and make sure that i get her to scream the safe word every time. i want her used by E and i want to train her to please both me and E. each of her holes used like a good toy and begging for more. wanting her utterly dominated, mounted, owned, humiliated and degraded. on a leash, with a collar and sitting...watching me fuck and get fucked. having her lap up all the wetness and cum that seeps from my used cunt and then licking E's cock clean.

i know she is out there...waiting. come knock on my door and i promise it will be something you will never forget. as i am one to make my mark in the depths of an eager mind.

to be sold, by owner

2006-07-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

as E laid on his side beside me with his left leg under my ass, my leg draped over his body, his fingers deep inside my propped up cunt and a hand over my nose and mouth...he was talking to me. he was telling me in between moments of no air how he wanted to

knock me out

put me on display

let potential buyers look at and touch me

as they enjoyed drinks and music

then he wanted to auction me off to the highest bidder for a weekend. when i came around i would find a cock buried in my ass. yes, i was getting off on it on his story as he told me i was a "dirty slut" and a "naughty whore".

he fucked me like a teenager from behind. i came repeatedly as he would go all the way in and almost come out. grabbing at my hips, my ass and my waist. he was using me and he asked me if i was "daddy's toy", if i was "daddy's fucktoy" and if i liked be used...oh the answer was "yes" to all.

i would tighten my cunt around him and he enjoyed how tight i was getting as i grabbed at his cock wanting to milk him empty. he came inside me bare, staying inside me reveling in his orgasm, i gripped him with all that i had and he encouraged it. his fingers pushed inside my hot, slippery cunt and i just loved every second of it.

when he got up to start a bath i fell on to my back, legs spread, draping one over the foot board and started to finger my cunt. i loved his cum seeping out of me and used it to lubricate my clit. i rubbed and E walked back in hovering over me kissing me and staring me in the eyes as i came. he shoved his leg between my open legs and i rubbed my cum drenched cunt on him.

he wanted to wash "his pussy" not because it was dirty, but because it was his property. i smirked at him telling him he has not collared me, but he responded "it is around your heart". i accepted that as he sat in the tub and stood hovered over him letting him wash his cunt.

to be or not to be

2006-07-04T10:32:00.000-07:00

i am always in control

the aggressor

the one who calls the shots

who squashes when needs to

because i choose to let him dom me

does not make it okay for the next guy to do so

i select the one to take control

i control the controller

i enjoy being submissive

yet i enjoy being cruel.

slowly i take his hand down my dark path

giving him small glimpses into my black mind

he may not understand it all

but he seems to come along for the ride

to please me

to fulfill me.

deep within he questions his new actions with me

he feels primal and some guilt

he has wanted the same

but

too fearful to act

i have opened pandora's box for us

he just needs to hold my hand to make it through

to the end.

the product of burning

2006-07-03T19:52:00.000-07:00

come with me

take my hand

do not look ahead

take all that burn

force it deep within me

even if

i say no

push it in me

with pain

use me

to punish

i did this to you

stare me in the eyes

let me see your anger

let me feel your burn

take

force

rape

do it

without regret

without remorse

join me

in this twisted realm

no guilt

pure unconditional lust

let the pulse thrive

in this union

give it life.

submissive wonderment

2006-07-02T11:20:00.000-07:00

is she submissive when...

he demands her to pull down her pants in the car on the freeway and she complies as he shoves his hand down between her legs

or

she lets him push his hand down her shirt to play with her nipples in the car

or

they get to the front door of the house while it is dark and he unbuttons her pants and pulls them down to touch her

or

there is a knife blade rested on her ass as he says, "do not move"

or

she lets him cut her panties to shreds to allow access to her cunt with his cock

or

that scarf is pulled from the wall to be wrapped around her neck

or

he fucks her like a fuck toy while telling her he is going to pimp her out on the weekends because she needs to be used and giving her a slave name

or

stuffing and stretching her cunt with toys and fingers while hitting her g-spot making her cry out in surrender

or

filling her ass and cunt with toys

or

he punishes her with a leather belt on her ass, leaving red welts

or

he makes her worship his cock...between his legs, ass in the air slow and deep, up and down. as he stares down at her with ownership

or

that moment that he is cumming her on her face

collar me, own me

2006-07-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

i asked my husband last night about collaring me. i asked him if he has always wanted to collar me...own me. he responded very enthusiastically with....yes. i had found the collar i wanted. i told him it was up to him to purchase this collar for me. he asked about a leash and i responded with...of course. i want him to feel that he owns me. he then mentioned about registering on The Slave Register website and i am for it.

a few nights ago he had grabbed under my chin where his pointer finger rested upon the starting of my jawline by my ear. he expressed how he wanted me to get an "E" tattooed in this very area. needless to say i was rather aroused at that thought. knowing that every time he grabbed me in that way his finger would rest upon my modern day "branding".

i will do it for him. i want it.

he needs

2006-06-30T15:04:00.000-07:00

i had come down with a cold. i thought it was a sore throat due to an over excited session of a scarf around the neck with E monday night. however, it was a sickness stewing within my temple. E had me on monday night after a photo session and it was thursday. he was ravenous. all day he kept touching, looking and licking at my body.

while getting ready for a concert, if i even walked by him in panties he would stop me and demand to look at my ass. when i was dressed he would then come up behind me and grab at my waist. he kept mumbling how i needed to give him something tonight, that he has waited too long. in the car he is grabbing at my thighs, in the car wash he is groping at my breasts and at the concert he has me tightly next to him.

we get home and i am doing my nightly routine and before i know it he is on the bed undressed and playing with his hard on. i stare at him somewhat surprised. i did not think he would want me coming out of a sick state. he told me to come over to him and put my mouth down on his cock. i obliged without hesitation. i laid next to him and coyly licked at his hard cock. he would shift to put it all the way in my mouth and i would take it in and then go back to lightly licking at the tip. he would then shift upward again and i started to suck him. long and slow...

he gets between my legs, kisses me and sucks on my breasts. i can feel his cock pressed up against my cunt. i wanted him inside me. i started to push down my panties letting his cock just force itself inside of my cunt. he doesn't help and i start to become frantic in getting my panties down. he finally helps me and shoves himself inside of me. i wrap my legs around him as he fucks my cunt. he covers my nose and mouth and lets me revel in the airless fuck. i shiver when he lets his hand free.

not much longer he turns me over and fucks me from behind.

E keeps fucking me and i start to become concerned he is going to cum inside of me. i was unprotected and this was not a safe time for him cumming inside of me bare. i almost want to tell him to come on my ass. he keeps fucking and i keep coming. he finally pulls out of me exhausted. he is rather bothered he could not cum inside of me and he wanted it badly. i ease his mind and help him masturbate to a finish. one of these days i am going to get him to cum inside of my mouth. it has been years since he has allowed that.

this morning as i was getting ready for work, i glanced over at E's nightstand and i see a printed picture of me from monday night propped upwards. i smiled thinking E put it there so he had something to wake up to.

this junkie's addiction

2006-06-25T18:08:00.000-07:00

he is a drug, a peddler and my addiction

i am a junkie, a user and i need another hit

he feeds me and puts my mind in a state of euphoria

he knows what i want, need and desire

give it to me

don't make me beg for it...

i will beg...it is what a junkie would do

whisper in my ear

make my eyes flutter and my skin shiver

tell me over and over again

how much you want to fuck me

make me breathe heavy

make me gasp

make me want you physically between my legs

make me wet

take from me

you paid upfront and i am paying now

don't let me suffer for long

give me a taste

let me lick

i shake from withdrawals

my mind desperate

my soul hurting

i anxiously need you.

let me

2006-06-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

i am empowered to hurt, to burn and to love

i choose my desires

i hunger for the dark side

the taboo

the naughty

the tainted

this is right for me...for us

my thoughts grow deeper into evil

i will not hide in shame

so stand beside me and walk down this path

no regrets

there are no limits, no boundaries, no lines here

this is my playground

this is my world

i own this

i control this

i need this

let me persuade you to believe that you want to give me what i need

will you walk into the darkness with me?

do not look back

do not hesitate

from this point on you either watch me or you join me

which do you choose?